Emmsys angels xxx support for mummies of lost angels part 3 xxxxx

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so here we are on part three, let this one be fun of happy news.....

Oh blue i missed you out my darling sorry!
Yes good positve thinking i like it! you will have a baby and remember if you want something bad enough it will happen!

barbie goes away thinking about wanting to win the lotto, if i want i enough......................

mollllliiieeeeeeeeeee

Scamper that's fantastic news!! Congratulations!!

barbie, OMG, you're really about to go - but don't go too far, OK? Hurry up and get a MN connection once you get to Dubai!

blue, great to hear you sounding so positive and planning the year the way you want it - way to go!

vm the internet connection is the first thing being done, im foregoing two pairs of shoes in my case in order to fit in the apple mac....now thats a huge deal but it shows you how much i love you all!

barbie, that's great, phew! We expect to hear all about everything when you get there! x

ill have all the time in the world, james starts work the day after arriving and we are staying in a hotel for the first few weeks, apart from looking for a job, and getting a bit of a tan to hide the english winter look im free to do as i please!

Oh barbie that sounds like bliss!

Barbie You sound so happy and so chilled out, I can't believe you are actually going! Hope you're not offline for too long, have missed you over the last few weeks. Just in case you're not on again for a while, hope all goes well with the move, can't wait to hear all about your new place, you will have to post some pics to make us jealous Love the new attitude for the New Year Mollie wanders off promising herself that she too can have the same attitude honest!

scamper congratulations, that's fab news
barbie I can't believe you are moving already, it seems like only yesterday you were telling us all about it.
I'm going to put my feet up in a mo, but not before I send big waves to vm blue mm mollie jools curly 4ever and everyone else xx

Well ladies you have been busy!!!!, at work so struggled to log on today guess I have been busy in another way.

scamper Fantastic news, there does seem to be a lot of baby dust on this thread atm.........

barbie so good to hear from you again, been missing you hun. You sound pretty organised and as for going to the sun, you wouldn't want to be back up here atm it's freeeeezing. What's the time difference there.........are you guessing I am missing our late night chats!!!!Love the new theory for 2009, feeling like that a bit myself. Lol at squeezing in the mac.

vm you hang in there hun, only 4 more sleeps to go, I know it feels impossible atm just to make it through the day but you can and you will and then you will give me the best birthday present I could hope for......see all positive talk here. Thinking about you.

vjay all of the above applies to you too hun. I know it will feel like a cliche but spotting or even bleeding does not always mean bad news, I read somewhere that 1 in 3 sucessfull preg have some sort of bleeding. I know you can't help but worry but we are here hun, thinking about you too. Will say a quiet prayer for you and vm this week.

jools like your coping methods, you stay positive hun and you still have plenty time do you not know 40 is the new 30.

blue I am glad to hear you sounding upbeat and planning the future. I can so get what you are saying about being an old hand at this now, we will get our babies and lets do it together.

4ever good luck with the cyclogest tonight, sending sticky thoughts your way!!

mollie last but not least my lovely. Yes we did get the chromosone test done but this time I am kind of relaxed about the results and thinking we will deal with whatever shows up if anything. I actually enjoying not being obsessed with ttc and preg, it was DH who suggested having the break for a few months and it has been the best thing. I think I will enjoy it while it lasts............

Big waves to anyone I haven't mentioned but lots of positives on here now, lets hope they just keep coming, we deserve them!!!!mm xxx

Thanks mm, your lovely words have bought tears to my eyes, but in a good way

Congrats to all those bfps and heres to sticky los.

Jools i will be 43 on thursday...40 is nothing!

VJ- how are things?

Thanks mm! I'm feeling really sick and it all feels as it should, if you know what I mean, so I'm trying just to trust things... ds goes back to school tomorrow (boo hoo!), but it means the start of a normal routine again, and maybe that will help. Hope you are planning something nice for your birthday on Friday! x

gingermumi and jools, well, I am 39, turning 40 next summer... glad there are a few of us older ladies about!

Hi vm sounds like your symptoms are exactly how they should be............how ironic when the worse our symptoms are the better it makes us feel. I have decided to cancel my birthday on Friday and change it to Saturday.....not going mad just working on Friday night so will have more time to do the birthday cake and candles with dd on Sat, she loves it and tbh so do I secretly. Just 3 more sleeps now for you and see how strong you are you made it through yesterday without even realising. Keep your chin up hun, no other option allowed on here, mm giving out orders today xxx.

gingermumi another birthday girl on here, that will be three of us in one week. Hope you have a lovely day and treat yourself.

vjay how are you today, got my fingers crossed you will be crying more tears next week, only the happy ones of course. You take care hun.

Happy birthday to mm barbie and ginger this week, hope you all have lovely birthdays xxx

Oh mm thanks again for your supportive words... about to take ds to his piano lesson in the next village, think I may throw up in piano teacher's home when I get there! Bleecchhhhh.

Thanks, am not sure what I'm going to do tbh, family wont be over until the evening. I don't work thursdays but i do have prep to do and reports to write will probably do a bit of work and something fun with ds.

VM, hope you do feel sick! It's so reassuring! Take care hun

VJ- how are you?

Very sick, ginger, thanks for asking

vm and vjay sick sounds good ladies, the only time in life I will say that. Hope you are taking it easy with that precious cargo.

mm hello pretty lady, its 4 hours time difference so i guess i can still email late into the night (im told everyone sleeps later!) and you should still be at work....i have missed our chats too, cant seem to catch up with you all!
I do hope you everyone sticks around until we all get out babies, it would be nice to finish the journey with the girls we started with

By the way girls, im not at all chilled, the only time im ok is when im talking to you lot, inside im stressed, tired and achy!

We are still painting, the house should be finished by fri in time for the letting agents to take the pictures and the sat and sun the removal company will come and start packing, to finish on monday and then we drive home for a few precious days with our families.

Hope all you pregnant ladies are looking after yourself and for all those that arent hope you are relaxed and enjoying life for what it should be

Big hugs Barbie xxx

Hello ladies! Hi and good luck to Barbie with your move to Dubai on weds! Make sure you hook up to mumsnet ASAP - give Dubai my love - me & DH went there for part of our honeymoon, married a year and a half yesterday! You will get that BFP soon hon!

Thinking of you Blue hope you're keeping on keeping on hon?

Hi to mm ginger jools curly & anyone else I forgot - sprinkling lots of baby dust your way!

Scamper Congratulations to you too!! Vjay villagemum and mermaid hope you are all hanging in there and staying as positive as you possibly can be!

I'm struggling a bit - feel really weak and drained & a bit sicky, but not actually thrown up yet. Dont know if its anxiety or symtoms?! I'm also having some twinges which I think is the corpus luteum producing the progesterone, but started my cyclogest (pregestorone) supplements tues night along with my daily aspirin so praying that they make this one work (please god!). Got my specialist apt for the 15th and will have my first scan then as well at the EPU. Already feeling nervous. Villagemum will be thinking about you on the 10th, thats 3yrs since my dad, so have already been praying for us all daily and asking that he and every angel up there looks after us all!

Anyway - just wanted to catch up with you all! Its really hard being at work, told my manager yesterday who was great as shes knows about the last 3. Parents and bro's & sis got told as well! Figure why not, as the more support and prayers we got the better!

Anyway love hope & strength to us all xxxxxxxx

Hello! I am so excited for you Scamper and 4ever. I can't believe we have more good news . I shall be keeping an eye on my neighbour and making sure she takes care of herself for next few months. 4ever, I didn't throw up that much when I was pregnant. It's almost worse really. Stick in there though. I am glad you're getting lots of support.

MM, Barbie and Ginger, hope you have fab birthdays and that this is the start of a great year for you. You will have a wonderful time in Dubai Barbie. It sounds like you'll need the break after the last few weeks! Please send us some sunshine it is so brrrrr here. And sticky thoughts to our other pregnant ladies. I know this is a very nervous time for you so I don't envy you but just try and get through each day and before you know it you will be looking back and wondering what you were worried about. I hope the scan goes well on Saturday VM, and that the spotting has stopped VJ. Sickness sounds like a really positive sign.

Jools, Hope you are doing okay? I'm the same trying to come up with coping strategies. I'm planning to take a week off around the time of the first scan just in case things aren't good. Speaking of which, I wanted to ask you all to give me a bit of slap around the head. I am kinda driving myself crazy at the moment. We totally avoided doing the deed since seeing the consultant except for a minor "blip" after midnight on New Years Eve - I blame that damn champagne . I figured we were well past ovulation as it was day 23 and I am very regular. Now I am three days late with AF and I can't help feeling hope. I know you went through this recently too Jools. I came home from work today in tears because part of me wants a miracle and another part of me would feel so guilty if it happened and then I found out I should be taking aspirin or something.

Sorry, seem to have talked myself into a bit of downer. I think I just needed to tell someone and you lovely ladies are always there to listen. DH is refusing to discuss it as even a possibility. Anyway, hope everyone else is doing okay. How are things Blue, I hope the next six months fly for you and help to make you ready for the lovely little one that I know will come your way. xxx

Hello all,

curly thank you for looking out for me! Oh I do hope you get your miracle hon...have you thought about doing a test? I am not at all surprised you are feeling hope. I did every month, and its exhausting having that cycle of hope and then down again, but maybe this month is the one for you...not sure if this is what you want/need to hear...its not much of a slap around the head as requested! But its hard not to hope along with you as I read your message...please let us know either way, I will be on tender hooks or whatever the expression is (what are tender hooks? is that even an expression or did I make it up?...never mind, you know what I mean). Sending you BIG HUGS and keeping all crossed. If it is a BFP then don't feel guilty at all. I am currently confused about whether to take aspirin or not, because I don't know if my mcs were due to clotting or not, and GP said he didn't know but would say not to take it, and he's going to ask a gynaecologist...there never seems to be any straightforward answers does there?

Am posting this to curly now while I type some more...back in a sec...

Back again...

thank you to everyone for your lovely messages. I hope you don't mind me sticking around for a bit? But to be honest, I don't really feel pg at all, just very nervous, and also I want to stay to see what you are all up to! Part of me also feels this won't work out. Silly I know, but I have brown spotting and no symptoms like sickness or sore boobs, so God only knows what is going on inside me. Did one of those tests yesterday which tells you how many weeks post-conception, and it said 2-3 weeks, which was reassuring for a bit, but as my last mc was a missed mc and I was still testing positive several weeks after little one had gone, I don't really trust my hormones. Have booked in for scan on 26 Jan which will be 7 weeks, so there should be a heart beat then if all is well. If not, well, we'll deal with it I guess. Just keep telling myself that ONE DAY we will have our baby, and to try to be patient even if it doesn't work out this time.

jools how are you doing babe? If you are lurking then I hope you are feeling ok. Its such a hard place to pull yourself out of and back to happiness. Take the time you need to grieve your lost little one, it all happened comparatively recently. But take hope from knowing that you will not always feel like this, and we will all have our darling children eventually. I hope you are getting support from your DP and others in RL too, but do come back here to our safe cave whenever you need and let us know how you are getting on.

barbie hope the house is all done now, and that you are over your flu. Soon you will be able to distract us all from the bloody freezing cold with tales of Dubai sunshine! Be careful or you might end up with a soggy collection of us on your doorstep there though. Hope the next few days aren't too stressful and that you get some time to chill out with your families before heading off. Also hope your cycle gets back to normal, but in the mean time, i really liked your advice to enjoy life for what it should be.

VM will be thinking of you on the 10th and 4ever on the 15th. vjay do you have a scan next week too? I am sending out big waves of hope for you all, and mermaid too, funnily enough hoping for you all reminds me to remain hopeful for myself too. I think its part of that thing of it being easier to say kind, sensible things to others rather than actually believing it ourselves, but we MUST try to believe it

mm happy birthday for tomorrow/Saturday! I love the cake and candles thing too. Have a lovely time with your dh and dd

ginger when is your bday? Sorry if I missed it already, but if not hope you enjoy whatever you get up to.

Big hellos to mollie blue sabs (you back yet hon? Hope you had a fab time!) and anyone else I haven't mentioned by name, sorry am feeling sleepy now so I think that's it for scamper