First Pregnancy Missed Miscarriage

[sadtoday21]

Hi ladies! Our last thread was automatically closed because we reached the 1,000 post limit. I was hoping we would be able to start a new thread called First Pregnancy Post-MMC, but unfortunately we are not quite there yet. I know we will be someday soon! In the meantime, I hope you will all join me on here as we continue on this journey together. You have all been an invaluable source of inspiration, support, and kindness for me and I want to thank you for making me feel less alone in this.

About me, for any newcomers: First MMC in February at 12 weeks (baby passed at nine), D&C the next day, found out five weeks later that it was a partial molar pregnancy and currently undergoing follow-up with CX. Second early mc in April. Now impatiently waiting to be cleared from CX before ttc again.

@Amanda81 yea, the dating is going to be a bit tricky! I also just add two weeks to O, even if that is not totally accurate. I think I might wait to scan towards the end of week 6/beginning of week 7, just in case you are off by a few days and so you don't freak yourself out if there is not much to see on the scan. After that, you should have a better idea based on measurements (exciting!) xxx.

It's so exciting @Amanda81 I'm planning on waiting until week 7 I think. So much more chance of seeing a heartbeat etc. I don't think I could cope with another horrible wait. Xx

Completely agreed @sadtoday21 I think it's best to avoid as much stress as possible. Xx

Hi All, hope you are having a lovely weekend.

@Amanda81, I hope you are feeling a bit better. I think I would be the same so just be kind to yourself.

Thanks for asking about my temps. They were above the line for most of the last cycle and were a bit all over the place which I now think could have been a sign of hormonal imbalance. They are now well below the line and seem a bit more consistent so I think that's a good thing and maybe things are settling down.

Got all emotional watching the London marathon (much more frequent since the pregnancy). So I have entered the ballot for next year!!!! That way, if nothing happens, at least I can feel like I haven't stopped living my life. I know I'm unlikely to get a place but you have have to be in it to win it right!?!?

I think it would be very sensible to wait until wk 7, or even 8 if I can make it that far @sadtoday21 @Catconfusion. Thanks for coming back to me. I hope the midwife considers that I might be eligible for an early scan. Xx

Gosh...the London marathon would be a massive achievement @zoomies1. I know somebody who has run the London marathon 21 times and he did it today aswell, he's 59! He loves a run. Xx

@Amanda81 I think you're doing amazingly well with your journey. You're so entitled to a wobble, as we all are, but try and see each day as a step closer to a successful scan and pregnancy and baby. Really so happy for you...you've given me hope that hopefully soon it'll be my turn 🤞🏼 it's been 4 months since my mmc and I can't help but feel a little impatient. Quick question, did you have the same early symptoms this time around as you did the first time? Are they as strong now? Do you feel the same? Just interested about how things could be next time around...🤔

Hope you've all enjoyed your weekends? I feel like I've blinked and it's already Sunday evening!
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They're meant to be xxx's but actually quite accurate for how I'm feeling right now 😴 zzzzzzz

Hey @LMLP91 - thanks for your kind words. The first time round I didn't have many symptoms until 6 weeks and then they all hit me at once And continued up until 11weeks which must have been when the HB stopped. This time round I have had bearable symptoms which are familiar (sore bbs, nauseous and fatigue) they appear to be lighter, but have started earlier. So I guess similar. However, I would say that I am much more aware this time round and am searching for every little twinge. I had severe cramps this time round when I was expecting AF, which I didn't get last time and chalked this down to the MC last cycle.

I really hope you get your BFP soon. I know the wait and how frustrating it can be. Xx

@Amanda81 thanks lovely. I feel like every month I'm symptom spotting and hoping that every little twinge or ache could mean something, yet month by month it comes to nothing. That being said, I definitely still feel more positive and determined to carry on with life, I don't want to wish it away with what could be. I just hope that one day soon, the stars align and my body becomes ready to go again 🤞🏼

I wish you all the happiness and success on your journey and thank you again for sharing it with us ❤️

Xxx

Ahh think I messed up with my clear blue ov test! I have quite long cycles!

So dtd Wednesday night, Thursday morning took the test said I was not fertile so thought I would test again on sat. Dtd sat morning so decided not to do the test. Did the test Sunday morning and it's now showing as peak! Worried I should of dtd Thursday or Friday eve! Am I going to have missed the window? Should of kept doing those bloody tests!

@wanderlustgirl I wouldn't worry about it - you are fertile in the 3-5 days leading up to the peak as well. If you dtd on Saturday and had the peak on Sunday you should be totally covered. I got actually got pregnant from dtd five days before peak last cycle! Best of luck in the tww!

@LMLP91 it must be hard to be going on four months without being pregnant again. I am going on three months now since the mmc and can totally relate. You are very wise not to let life pass you by though and I am trying to do the same. Where are you now in the cycle? I hope you get your bfp soon! xxx

@wanderlustgirl I agree with @sadtoday21 sounds like timing was good. Xx

@LMLP91 I think you're really wise for getting on with life. None of us have any guarantees. I don't want to have regrets either. Xx

So I've woken up today to feeling sick after having a really vivid dream. It's so hard not to get excited with this chart. It's looking triphasic. The dip is where I vomited so could be implantation. I need to keep super busy this week. Just trying not to assume this is it! Xx

Also @Amanda81 do you think Ovusense got my ovulation day right?

How are you feeling today? Love how you did taxes to keep occupied. I had my tax return the day after my surgery and it really helped to add up the numbers and get lost in something. Not long until the midwife appointment now. You're doing really well! Xx

Hey @Catconfusion you could have ovulated earlier, say around cd31! This is very exciting. My first symptom was vivid dreams!!! Do your temps usually go up so quick post o?

I'm doing okay. Got a list of work things to do today, so hopefully this will keep my mind out of trouble xx

Thanks @sadtoday21 and @Amanda81 for your good luck wishes. It's 4 weeks today since my erpc and I've just done two tests, one ic and one frer. The ic was a definite bfn but there was still a super faint line on the frer. I'm not sure how to feel about it. It seems that I'm getting there slowly. My temp went back up today as well so no af unfortunately ☹️

I would take it as a positive @AnnaMC214. When I got my bfn after erpc i used a cb HPT and got a negative. At the time I didn't know about the different levels of detection in tests! I went in to ovulate pretty quickly after getting the bfn. Xxx

@Amanda81 ok I will, thank you 😊 I nearly didn't even do the frer but wanted to compare with last week. I need something positive to cling to as the darkness has really crept back in the last few days. I had a complete meltdown and sobbed on my poor dh over the weekend. I think he was quite shocked. xx

@AnnaMC214 sounds all good to me. I was still getting a faint line on a clear blue test right up until AF but got the BFN on the IC about 2 weeks before. Hope that helps and really hope AF shows up soon. It was a huge relief for me when it did and almost felt like a bit of closure on what had happened and the start of the next chapter.

@Catconfusion you chart is looking great! Are you still tracking on FF as well as ovusenue? Mine is still on the up as well. Yesterday was a blip because I was away and forgot my thermometer! I didn't temp until I got home which was a couple of hours after waking up!

@Amanda81 hope you are feeling better and keeping distracted and having DH home is helping. X

I am sorry that the darkness has crept in @AnnaMC214 - it's so hard to keep it at bay. Try and take some positivity that things are heading in the right direction and your body IS healing. Like @3204ECL you will be getting some closure to all of this soon when AF arrives. Take care of yourself and keep that chin up 😘 xx

@3204ECL thank you, that is a big help. I feel the same about af so I wish it would just hurry up. I know 4 weeks isn't that long really so I just need to be patient.

Thanks @Amanda81 I don't know what I'd do without this lovely thread. I hope you have a brighter day today too and manage to keep your mind well occupied. xx

That's what I was thinking @Amanda81 which would account for the early symptoms. Though I did get a peak Opk on cd 35. Glad you've got lots to do. Xx

@AnnaMC214 I'm sorry you're still getting a faint positive on an FRER. Those things are so sensitive. I just used the standard test and assumed negative so I'd have probably had a positive FRER too. Hcg can be totally gone very quickly so you're nearly there! I remember feeling very upset and it came in waves. I'd spend weekends very tearful too. It's frustrating but it will get easier. I couldn't find anything that would take it away but the lighter moments will get more frequent with time. Sending you love today! Xx

Wow@3204ECL Yours is looking really good too. Are you getting any symptoms? My nausea is getting worse and I feel exhausted. I woke up did the last post and crashed again until now. Still trying not to assume it'll be a bfp. Yes Ovusense chart below. Xx

Oh @Amanda81 I forgot to say I've had dips before but it's not shot up that much after one. I had a bit of missing data last month but there was definitely a dip. I'm getting excited now so trying to rein it in. Xx

@Catconfusion thank you. I think I need to try and focus on the positive that at least the IC was negative. I really want to feel better now and I think I have it in my head that actively ttc again will do that. It's frustrating me that my dh feels completely fine again (which is unfair to him) and it seems to be taking all my energy just to be ok. On Saturday something tipped me over the edge and it all just poured out. I'm sorry, I know I'm ranting.

On a happier note, it's sensible that you're prepared for either outcome but your chart's looking very good 😉 xx

@AnnaMC214 I had a similar thing. My DH has had a lot of grief in his time. His Dad died when he was 12, also his ex girlfriend passed away very suddenly. He's a very positive person and has learned to carry on in the toughest of circumstances. Of course he was very upset the week it happened but began to move on much quicker. This made me mad because I wanted to grieve for longer, crying over the scan picture etc. He was also happy to let my body heal for longer and I just wanted to get on with trying again. I think I just learned we handle grief very differently. He was obviously still very supportive to me.

I think it's so much harder for us because it's happening to our bodies. Our hormones are all over the place as well to complicate matters more. I know it's a cliche but it just takes time. I'm still having wobbles but then it'll probably always be there to some extent.

Just take each day as it comes and I promise you will feel better! Xx