Evening all,
I found out about my mmc on weds aft after some very heavy and completely unexpected bleeding with heavy clotting. After rushed hospital visits and checks but unfortunately no scans (didn't seem to b any sonographers working weds pm anywhere) we managed to find a private scan that evening at 8.30pm as we just wanted to know. I shouldve been 11+3 but my fetal pole was tiny and was only about 6 weeks so we think she died around 8.5 weeks and started shrinking. Absolutely heartbreaking when you don't even realise anything is wrong at all.
After hardly sleeping, I woke up at 6am and continually bled and cramped for over 3 hours and spent the whole time on the toilet - I think this was my body passing it all through. It was extremely painful at some points. We headed back to the hospital at 10am, in the half hour drive, I managed to soak through 2 pads and my leggings with some serious heavy clotting. Got checked out again and the doctors said my cervix was only open a small amount so they don't think I've even really started mc.
Since coming home and over the past 48 hours, I'm still bleeding a little bit but more like spotting, nothing anywhere near as bad as those 3 hours on Thur. Do you think I've mc naturally? I have a scan on weds to see what's left. I'm hoping it's already happened.
My dp is taking it hard, trying to bottle things up which is difficult. I've told some people, a couple at work and then a couple of close friends. We were due our scan next week and were so looking forward to tell people our news. We hadn't told parents or anything until mmc, it was heartbreaking telling them.
reading up on mmc, I can't believe it happens in 1% of pregnancies, that's such a small number and I'm now part of that statistic. It's just so sh**ty and Mother Nature can be so cruel. My baby had died and my body didn't know. I still had my bump up to Thursday, now my body is slowly going back to normal but I feel so betrayed by it.
God this is so hard ladies xxx