Recurrent miscarriage testing and beyond.. Part 6.. Over here!

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We have filled up the last thread so here is the next.. Deep breath and grit your teeth for the roller coaster of emotions that continues... Hope tea and butterfly and all find it!

Well ladies I now know what all the spotting was...just got a bfp! Not too sure how I feel at the minute of course I'm pleased but I'm petrified, can't help but think that the fact I spotted for 10 days isn't a good sign I'm not very hopeful it will all work out. The good thing is it's good timing at least I have an app with the consultant on tuesday so we will see if she wants to do anything or not x

Yeah congratulations butterfly so pleased for u I am sure it will all be fine :)

Thanks Lands I hope so x

Amazing butterfly! I was wanting to say that was a possibility bit didnt want to tempt fate!

Really good you have your appointment.

I know those excited but filled with dread feelings so well. Got to be in it to win it as I think tea said to me and I still remember well!

I know I need to try and be more positive but it's hard, it's ok when I'm saying it to everyone else!
I said to dp "guess what I'm pregnant" he just said are you? Lol. Then we just sat there like normal I said to him isn't it strange most people who had just got a bfp would be over the moon and we are just sitting here. It's like groundhog day..

I'm feeling mild little twingy cramps and I'm petrified it's going to end up a chemical an af is going to come. Can somebody sedate me for a few weeks please!! X

I know how u feel my oh was the same and mentions it to other people but not me and his mum pointed out he is as scared as I am I have started to relax a bit now done another digital today and its gone up to 2-3 so at least hormone still rising :) as for mild cramps I have had exactly the same we need to remember our bodies have been getting ready for a couple of weeks so due to the fact so much is going on in there I feel it's a positive sign especially as I have had no other symptoms yet good luck and hope all goes well for us all xxxx

I know it's hard for the men too but I don't. think they let on whereas I say what I'm thinking. That's a good sign Lands :) I haven't used digital this time I used first response, I over analyse the 1-2/2-3 thing so I'm not going to get one.
I'm having promising symptoms my boobs are unbearable this is the worst they've been out of all my pg, I'm a bit tired but not too bad, and I've felt queasy all day that's what made me buy the test. I hope it works out for all of us we really deserve it x

My oh is really not good at the emotional stuff and if I try talking too much he might as well put his fingers in his ears and shout la la la till I stop, lol we all definitely deserve it 2013 is gonna b the year fingers crossed x

Hey butterfly has it sunk in yet :) how r u feeling today xx

Wow Butterfly that's fab news. Must be really scary but its definitely better than not being pregnant and one step closer to having a baby. Really hope it all works out. I had twingy cramps with all my pregnancies, even the good one!!

I have nothing to report. Still no ovulation signs and got my clearblue kit and no smiley face. Going to have more acupuncture tomorrow and hope it happens this week!!

By the way did anyone see this article in Daily Mail the other day about a lady who is pregnant after 3 mc. Thought might give some hope www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-2281631/Hotel-Inspector-Alex-Polizzi-heartache-miscarriages.html

Wow there is hope thanks for sharing that x

Hi Ladies i think it has sunk in because I'm knicker checking every 5 minutes!! But I'm trying not to get too attatched I'm just scared. Does anybody honestly think all that spotting was just implantation? I'm worrying myself sick it's low progesterone or ectopic or it's gonna end up a chemical so pleased I can bombard my consultant with all these questions in a couple of days!
It's gonna be a long few weeks...

Hi how is everybody today?

I'm having a panic don't know how I'm going to do this :( when I wiped earlier I thought it had a "tinge" I've been checking all day and I think it's just a bit creamy (tmi). If this is how long one day feels how will I ever even get to 12 weeks never mind full term! God I'm so stressed.

I think it's in your mind I have been the same convincedyslf I was bleeding walking round ASDA today but was not have totally stressed myself out trying to sort consultant today as hospital said they not received the referral so gp sent it again which guess what they didn't get lucky I got through to a lovely lady who is going to sort it by phoning my gp and she is going to phone me back tomorrow once she has sorted it defo need relaxation tonight once dc's are asleep, fingers crossed tomorrow will bring some news from hospital x

Don't panic butterfly (easy to say i know). If nothing there now it was really probably nothing. Do you have an appointment tomorrow or did I make that up?

Deep breaths as much as you can. X

It's hard isn't it! It's because you constantly feel wet, I go to the loo then it calms me down for ten minutes then I start worrying again. Just as well you phoned up today if they hadn't recieved it hope you get it sorted out tomorrow :). How many weeks are you? Are you going to get an early scan? I'm at hospital tomorrow which I hope might settle me down a bit as consultant puts me at ease not that she can change the outcome mind! Xx

Sorry school cross posts! Yes I have app tomorrow. You have done unbelievably well getting so far under this amount of stress I think this is the worst one of them all x

I don't know if they will scan or not I am 5 + 4 I really hope they do though I need to see for myself that its all ok I am seeing midwife again tomorrow had a stitch like pain on the right of my belly button today think I might mention it tomorrow to b safe, I have convinced myself almost everyday that something is wrong and so far got past everyday just hope that does not change x good luck tomorrow hope it all goes well xx

I hope they do scan you with my 2nd pg I begged mw for a scan and she said no I did start spotting in the end but I rang epu myself and got a scan so you could always ring them. I have had the stitch pain with every pg and if I sneeze or cough it's really sharp so it's probably ligaments but worth a mention xx

Ok cool was not too worried as its too high to be ovary and not period like pain I phoned epu today but had to be referred by gp which they didn't have I am going to beg for one though definitely want one x

Wow, so much going on here since I last looked! Butterfly, congrats on BFP. It's great that you've got there, but I can totally understand your nerves. I hope they can offer you a scan soon to help with your fears.

School, really pleased things are still going well for you too. I do love reading your updates and your 'If it can happen for me then it can for us all.. ' post made me smile :-)

Tea, I think we are in a similar boat at the moment. I wasn't successful last month and on day 9 of cycle now. I've started testing using Persona this month - used to use the monitor as contraceptive, oh how long ago it seemed I didn't want to be pregnant!! - as last month my ovulation sticks seemed a bit random. I'm already getting paranoid using it though as I remember the lines on the sticks used to be quite clear and they seem very faint now. Like you, it doesn't feel like it matters as we're going to just try to dtd every other day too, but I'd like to understand what my cycles are up to and seeing the ovulation symbol appear would put my mind at rest I am actually ovulating...

We moved into a new house we've bought the weekend just gone from a rented flat. It feels like a palace compared to our little flat but I guess the discussions about what to do with the second bedroom - have it as an office, put a bed in it for guests, leave it 'just in case' - have made me a bit mopey. Plus, another pregnancy announcement from a friend at the weekend and baby born today - pictures on Facebook and the congrats messages. Oh, and other half's mum was down at weekend too and came to Ikea with us, then proceeded to look at baby stuff for her daughter who got pregnant with first just after my third miscarriage. It's all so hurtful, but difficult to know what people are meant to do really. Life goes on. I guess you just have to take the hurt on the chin and find a way of finding peace with the jealousy.

Hi everyone.

Butterfly I completely sympathise. Being pregnant is just awful now and so stressful! I don't really have any words of wisdom as I am a totally stress head and have no idea how I'm going to get through all this but we are here with you!! Can you have a massage or reflexology or something? I'm sure seeing the consultant will help put your mind at ease. And monitored pregnancies are supposed to be more successful - the 'tender loving care' theory. Oh and fwiw my friend spotted loads in her pregnancy and had her baby a few weeks ago. Not a huge amount if comfort as we were pregnant at the same time and my pregnancy obviously didn't end well but they're not all the same.

Hi Guppie! I was wondering where you'd been!! It is depressing isn't it. I'm going loopy already and no sniff of a bfp. No sign of ovulation for me and already day 21. Getting very frustrated as think my pcos is playing up, maybe because I'm stressed but how do I not stress?!?! Having acupuncture every week and really hoping it does something! Have got a stash of opks now but worried they'll make me more depressed/stressed? Might try using them in earnest tomorrow morning as I'm sure a smiley face would perk me up!! Also trying to reduce caffeine & sugar and cut out alcohol so all in all having a brilliant time...!!

Oh and Lands I hope you get to see someone soon. Sounds very frustrating. You could try ringing the EPU and saying you've had pain (maybe say in one side?) to try and wangle a scan. Although I thought they were supposed to offer them if you've had recurrent miscarriages?? I don't think they can see much until about 7 weeks but would be good to get in the system. I know how slowly those weeks go....but fingers crossed for you.

I just feel like nobody cares (hormones I think lol) I did think about doing that I just want to tempt fate really just want to get the ball rolling and know that it's all ok feel like time is going so slowly