How are you feeling after MC?

[freelancegirl]

Hello everyone,

I though I would start a new thread for all of us who have been through a mc recently or not so recently and want to carry on swapping stories, bitching about crap feelings, celebrating any good feelings etc etc.

I will kick off, but I hope some of you will join me.

Bleeding has more or less stopped so am still worried about that 'last 2cm of product' the scan revealed still needed to emerge. Docs have given me antibiotics to ward off infection and am due back for another scan around 12th April.

Today I woke up feeling like shit! Emotionally I am still getting better but I feel so tired at times. I woke up feeling exhausted today, but there are other times during the day when I will be walking around fine and then suddenly feel totally knackered. No idea why. Hormones shifting? It's almost the same tiredness as had when pg. Sometimes I feel a bit sick too and am having the odd dizzy spell. I don't think there's any infection but like I said am already on antibiotics.

I am also really annoyed about my weight. I haven't weighed myself since the mc as don't have any scales at home but I go away at weekend so I can weigh myself tomorrow. But I know I had put on about 5lbs in the first trimester and my small jeans are still not fitting me. I was a bit of a gym bunny before getting pg (which coincided with xmas so I was eating more/exercising less anyway and had put on 3lbs, which I wasn't then bothered about as I knew I could shift it after xmas - not expecting to be a) pg and b) have an mc). Now I feel bloated and miserable about my weight because am guessing am around 8lbs heavier than my best. I realise there are other priorities but now there's no baby I would like to have my size and my energy back!

As regards moving forward and possibly ttc again, I have bought two cheap pg tests and when I am brave enough am going to see if I get a BFN. I feel that would be a step in the right direction to start with.

Hope all are well and feeling positive. Feel free to join in xxx

Evening all. Am here! I have been reading every post, mainly on my mobile over the weekend. Didn?t respond on Saturday as I was too busy travelling from Brighton to Surrey and back for a baby naming ceremony. Yes, challenging given the circumstances! Four newborns there ? very weird experience. Found myself overly teary at the lovely speeches about babies and becoming parents etc etc. It was also when we were planning to tell DH?s family about my pg, but they now all knew about the mc. So I had lots of champagne and had a nice time anyway. Sunday was spent having very lovely garden lunch with friends who are expecting a baby any day and their 3 year old. This wasn?t traumatic at all as she had been very helpful for me when going through mc (am I still going through mc?) as she has had one just weeks before her current pg and spent the whole of this one terrified. We were able to speak freely about our feelings with everything which was really nice.

Really, I completely forgot to think of you on my Friday?s and Saturday?s (yes I have been drinking quite consistently) 5am Fear Sessions but remembered to consider you this morning when I did the same. I think it helped, but I did imagine that you had probably (unlike me) had a sober day on Sunday so were probably not going through the same thing. But it helps to think you were the night before :)

Before I get on to everyone else though I have to add to what everyone has said about Michy needing to get help with her situation. Michy you must get help honey. IC and Pixie put some very useful links up for you so please do seek support through these and any other means you can.

I am really rather tempted by the mooncup. Well sold! We can add thread shares to our Korean Blanket investment. It does really sound a lot more environmentally sound and also less hassle and less expense in the long run.

Pixie they are indeed lovely wishes. Being kinder to ourselves particularly. I have been beating myself about various issues and really need to stop.

WLMum Foresight looks really interesting. And it?s great to hear how they have helped you! I had a good look at the website earlier and might look further into it at some point.

Really ? hope DS is better now. My DH is from Yorkshire too! What with that and our 5am sessions we really do have a lot in common. To think we are both lying there next to Yorkshiremen mentally beating ourselves up . Love the sound of your renovation project! Am very jealous indeed. I want to come round to check it out and have cake. Actually all I want to do right now is drink wine and eat cake. Not doing my weight loss efforts any good.

Talking of jealousy, just as we had worked out that Diamonds watched paint dry/quality controlled holes punched for a living she goes and tells us she?s a lawyer and has just jetted back from LA! Really very sorry to hear about your dad though Diamonds ? you don?t mention how he is? I do hope he is going to be ok. Do let us all know. We are all thinking of you.

So ? to answer my own initial question about how are we all feeling after mc ? I have been feeling pretty low again today. It seems to go in such strange swathes of feelings. I have had a really lovely, sunny weekend and just a silly joke by DH this morning put me on such a downer. I was feeling so awful that I was worrying that the pg had triggered some sort of depression. But it lifted later and I feel determined to try to remain upbeat when I can. The trouble with me is although I am indeed very lucky to have a work/life balance that is definitely more weighted in the Life direction, if I had a day job I wouldn?t have so much time to sit and try to figure out whether I am miserable or not. One of my continuing gripes is my body not being what is was. It might sound silly to me in a few weeks time but at the moment I worry I will never feel normal again. I also worry, having gone from feeling so strong and fit last year, that maybe my body isn?t strong enough to actually cope well with having a baby! This is absolute rubbish I know as plenty of people who are a lot less fit and healthy have kids all the time, but it is just something that goes through my mind.

I think today however I MIGHT have finally stopped bleeding (halle-flippin-lujah). Still no idea whether the slightly heavier and darker brown stuff was an af but I am going to be flexing my season ticket to EPU and heading up there tomorrow morning to sit and wait for a scan again. Questions to ask will be ? can they tell whether I have had af or not, has the last of the ?products of conception? indeed now be expelled and why the hell am I so damn bloated. Then after that I am heading straight for the gym. And after that round to Really?s for some cake? Or maybe home to get some work done.

Thanks everyone for all your messages of support... I've already contacted the DV helpline... And I've had meetings with my local support group based in London... I can't really get into it right now as he his sitting right beside me but I will be back as soon as he is in bed... Thank you all so much again... And I know everyone thinks I should just get away but the Physical side of things is the least of my worries... I will explain more later

I'm very relieved to hear from you again michy. And glad to hear you've contacted those people. I hope they can help.
You don't need to explain everything to us (unless you want to of course!) but please come and vent as often as you need to. Keep safe, if you can.

freelance sorry to hear you've been feeling low, but pleased to hear you had a good weekend.
You WILL feel normal again, I promise. Probably quite soon. But that's one of the things about pregnancy, whether successful or not, your body does all these surprising things (well, to us! the medical profession probably reckon it's all pretty mundane...) and you feel a bit like a bystander to your own natural processes. They are alien and fascinating and not always welcome. Tis strange. But TTSP (This Too Shall Pass).

Good morning all,

Just had a terrible night's sleep, I kept waking up feeling worried and panicky - and I hadn't drunk anything yesterday so think it might be just one of those things. I was hoping Easter wouldn't make me feel sad, but i think it did and I find myself thinking of the m/c all the time, all over again. Flipping heck. I keep thinking I'm making wonderful progress and then find I'm re-running it all in my head. Am really hoping that now I've got my birthday, Mother's day and Easter out of the way in the last month that hopefully I'll feel calmer. If I find myself dwelling on things on the Royal Wedding day I will be seriously worried .

Freelance I did drink alot on Easter Sunday so did my 5am wake up too! Am so sorry you had a tricky time this weekend. Your weekend sounds lovely, but it's funny how one little comment or even just a thought can make you feel down. I'm exactly the same. If I think of it, it takes me about an hour to feel part of the world again. That sorrow just ends up being my priority. And it makes me feel hopeless. I don't know if it would be any better if we have jobs that required us to be out of the house all day - I still imagine i would be off, staring into space. Perhaps it's good to grieve as much as possible now. Who knows.

I have decided that this week I have to get fitter and start eating healthier and quit smoking - I have been smoking loads, which obviously is freaking me out and not helping me feel strong or in control. So, I have decided to join Weight Watchers today - there's a local meeting. I reckon if I can make a start on losing this 8/9lbs then that will help. I feel flabby and weak. And I am planning to go back to the gym too - I'm going to ask DH, who is on leave, to walk up there with me and leave me at the door. I know, I sound like a 5 yr old. As Freelance mentioned, I feel like I'm physically a shadow of my former self, and it's getting me down. I too also worry that it'll have an impact on getting pregnant again.

I think this all fits in Pixie's list that we should all stop beating ourselves up .

Freelance That is great news that the bleeding has stopped. At long last. Always Ultra will have to lay off staff and I imagine Record Breakers will be in touch . I have fx that you will get the all clear at the EPU.

diamond's How is your dad doing? I feel bad for bleating on, since you have a real worry to contend with right now, as well as getting over the m/c.

I wish you were all here for cake and tea and cornflakes and maybe 'breakfast wine'. Am pretty sure somewhere in the world that exists

Oh darn, xed posts.

Michy It's lovely to hear from you again and am so glad you have made contact with people who can help. I hope it isn't frustrating that we are all pleading with you to leave, we're not in your situation so probably don't understand. But I for one just want you and DD to be safe. Let us know how you're doing, won't you. big hugs xx

IC Hello early bird, I like what you wrote. It is very true. Sigh.

We're an hour ahead here, Really

I'm sorry to hear you've been feeling low too.

Morning everyone.
michymum. DV is such an extremely complicated situation-so I'm so glad u managed to speak to someone x I'm sending gentle hugs yr way x I'm here when you need it x

I'm gonna repeat my wishes today as there seems to be lots of people suffering ... plus sending gentle hugs to you all x x please please please be nice to yrselves today. I'm so sad when I read how you are suffering...
please could you post what you think is one good thing about yourself today& then keep telling yourself this...???

I'll start:

Pixie: I'm a... oh (this is so much more difficult than I imagined).... mmmmm.
I am a lovely person & I'm good at playing the piano.
(There...Fhew)...

If this has been mentioned before-my apologies ... for all of us who are (still) bleeding, taking Iron supplements &/or b vitamins/helps. Also eating (small-ish) regular meals.

Also I'm quite excited today as the whole focus of my day is going to buy the mooncup thing. I'm kind-of hoping I don't stop bleeding for few days (hehehhaha) so I can it out ;o) x I know I know - strange things make me happy/smile . I'm weird.

If u r an Hour ahead IC, where r u?
I love the idea of doing up you own house.
Really: hugs sent you way too x ;o)

It seems to me that, if not at any other time, then it should be totally allowed after a m/c - that we allow ourselves plenty of time to, eat exactly what we want & when, drink what we want & when & how much, feel like shite when we do & allow ourselves to ...

Any way, enough of my rant...
(It's my way to cope)...

Pixie

I'm very excited at all the new Mooncup recruits!!

That's a good idea, pixie - you do come across as a lovely person, I must say!

OK, here's mine:

(ponders...)

Continuing on pixie's musical theme:

I sing and play the guitar - I'm generally popular around the campfire!

PS I live in Madrid.

I love a gathering around guitar and a bit of a sing. Haven't done that for ages. Ic and you camper van- guitar etc sounds such fun! Greetings live from EPU again. Have been here so often my iPhone automatically capitals it for me! Taking ages today, but just had ultrasound and the good news is that everything has gone! Finally!!! It's a funny moment actually. They couldn't tell me whether or not had had a period. Lining was 6mm, not sure what that means and there was still a trace of a follicle left, not sure what that means either, and there was a small cyst on my left ovary that had 'got smaller since the last time' despite it having never been mentioned to me before. But apart from all that I am 'normal' after mc and that, my fellow ex Nazi nuns and wonderful support group over the last 6 quite hideous weeks, can only be a good thing. Am off to the gym xx

Hello all.

Hope you all had good weekends. I'm back at work which is surprisingly quite enjoyable - I am determined to get back into work and get rid of the backlog before I go out off the office next week.

Really I am now in Guildford now but given up with selling our place and we are now renting our place out and renting another Redhill way.

Diamonds sorry to hear about your dad - it sounds like you are going through alot at the moment.

Well done on the scan free - i think the lining is to do with the thickness and it needs to be the right thickness to get pregnant. I was looking it up after my last scan but i think it varies with the time of the month getting thicker and thicker till it finally sheds and you get your AF. I have had trouble finding out what is normal as it can be too thick/thin but you need to know your days in your cycle. (You can see I have too much time with Dr Google looking up each word on my scan reports!!) Been thinking about your concerns about getting back to your pre-pre-pregnancy weight as I am back to my finding I was pregnant weight but not my normal weight (almost half a stone lighter) and I am not sure whether I should try and get back to that. Like you, I love the gym but when my AF didn't come back properly after stopping the pill, I got worried and a friend who is a nutritionist and my DH (who was a gym instructor before becoming a police officer) both suggested it was too much exercise and too low a body fat percentage. I then cut down on my gym and put some weight on and found out I was pregnant 3 weeks later - not sure if it was linked or not. Also, sorry you feel low - I just keep thinking I am doing well then something throws me off again!

Finished bleeding yesterday which was very exciting. Now got to think about whether I want to wait before TTC as reccomended or just go for it. (Seems sort of wrong using contraception when I really want to get pregnant again.) Luckily the DH is working lates this week so I won't get tempted to be naughty for a few days. Starting to think about looking at the conception boards.

Finally pixie trying to think of one good thing about myself and it is really difficult but a brilliant idea. i keep thinking of things but the last few weeks I have been useless at everything. i am determined this week to be a good friend, employee, boss, wife etc. but the last few weeks i have been so me me me. but i have been really good at one thing......drinking wine and eating ice cream! does that count? Glad you are feeling optimistic and I have been going with your idea of doing what I want after mc - been really hedonistic for the last few weeks but starting to think I should look after myself better and do some things that aren't fun like need to be done.

Hello to everyone else x x

Still posting from phone, so please bear with me.
Michy: very pleased that you're seeking help.
Pixie: fantastic ideas.
Immaculada: Madrid sounds lovely. Are you originally from there or not? My bil lives in Barcelona- how many hours away are you from him by car, train, plane?
Reallyuseful and Freelance, sorry you've been feeling a bit blue. It is normal. It's all part of the healing process. I self medicate with plenty of wine too, if it helps :-)hope your dc is better now Reallyuseful- any signs of new teeth?
Freelance: good news about your scan hon. Was it an internal one then?
My dad was stable until last night, we were on tenterhooks. This morning, thank goodness there's a vast improvement. He's sitting up talking and sipping his water. Huge sigh of relief from all the family this end.
Will post later. Take care girlies x

LIG: sorry Hun, crossed posts! Glad you're enjoying work. Ice cream and wine seem to be common theme here! I think it's all good. I've been told the same thing here, keep some weight on, ease up on the exercise to conceive successfully. That helped us fall last time. But didn't last, so who knows. Good to know the bleeding has stopped. What type of contraception are you considering using: pill or barrier? We are not sure just now. So will be interesting to compare. Don't want to go through an early mc again just cos we couldn't wait a few weeks IYKWIM x

thanks for your kind words about me IC - like many people I torture myself about many, many things (my m/c being the latest) but Know that it doesn't do me any good -so it's lovely to hear nice things from people. thnx.

its incredibly difficult to write something nice about yourself - I didn't realise that until I tried to do it - it took me ages and ages

LIG - I think the icecream & wine is just perfect & it most definately counts. it sounds like it's your time to be me-me-me - isn't it? as for being a good friend, employee, boss, wife etc, i bet your not actually 'bad' at any of them - just need to be on the me-me-me phase at the moment? I've read your posts on here & you've been extremely helpful for me to read your posts, at least.

sorry if it seems like I'm preaching ! I just want to help & reading about when people are suffering & depressed makes my blood boil that nature is something that cruel.

OK - just to let you all know more about me - I told about my 2nd m/c (the anembryotic pregnancy thing). Well I've actually had 2 m/c's - the 1st was 15 yrs ago, at 7 weeks, was v.painful, long & I got an infection/more pain from the d&c, given wrong antibiotics, took ages to stop bleeding, rubbish hospital, terrible 'care', plus was alone (no father) & no family support - this was a long time ago and just awful - I suffered from depression from that, so recognise some of that from the posts on here as simillar to the feelings/reactions/actions I had.

I wouldn't wish those feeling on anyone! posting/preaching/ranting on here helps me to ward off those feelings as somewhere in me, I think I'm slightly terrified they might come back!!!!!

anyway, thnx for listening.x pixie

Pixie: sorry that you have been through so much Hun. Hope you can put that behind you now. Feel free to come and share here whenever. That's what we're all here for. Ice cream and wine ARE the most beneficial remedy IMO! X

Ah, pixie, what a nightmare for you. I'm sure it'll be different this time - very different circumstances. You'll be okay and you've got a great attitude to it.

Hoorah, you've officially stopped mc'ing, free!

Good news the work is proving pleasantly distracting, LIG

I've lived in Madrid for 2 years or so, Diamonds (good news on your dad, btw), prior to that, mostly in the west country.
It's about 7 hours to Barca by car, 2 hours on the fast train and about the same on a plane from Madrid (when you factor in boarding etc.)

Hello everyone

Freelance That is really lovely news, am so glad that that part has ended for you. Gosh, it must feel strange after so many weeks. You really deserve a good day today, your strength and courage since I came on this thread has been such an inspiration. I hope you do something small (or big!) to mark the day.

Pixie What a lovely idea. Bloomin' heck. What a tough one. I will choose 'I always pitch in to help'. I hope that's okay. I love the ones everyone has chosen. I don't have a musical bone in my body, alas. Could I accompany you all on the guitar, the piano and the singing and play the triangle? . I can keep the sausages from burning of the campfire in between each 'ting'!

I read your later post about your earlier miscarriage. It sounds so hard, I am sorry you were alone and going through so much. I hope this time around you had people to look after you in RL and that it didn't bring back the old sad feelings from the first time around. I had an ectopic pregnancy before my DC and it really affected me, so I can understand how scary it is to revisit a similar tragedy. And I am so sorry you have been through this twice . It's lovely that you are fiercely looking after us all and trying to keep us all positive. It is very much appreciated.

Diamonds That is great news about your dad, am glad that he's on the mend. I can't even imagine what a relief that is. Lots of hugs to you and your family. Will you Dad be staying in hospital for a while? I hope you managed to grab some sleep last night. Are you staying up there tonight or heading home? I hope you have a very deserved glass of wine and a 3 scoop cone with a flake as soon as you have the chance.

LIG I am so glad the bleeding has stopped and sorry for totally forgetting that you live in lush lovely surrey. Duh! And you are lovely, so that could be the point you like about yourself. Or the fact that you are working hard AND revising for an exam at the moment!

Well, I went to Weightwatchers and signed up and got weighed. I didn't take off my shoes and obviously couldn't strip down to my pants and I weighed in at 9st 12lbs. Which means I have gained 8/9lbs. Am glad I went and know the damage and can work on it for a few weeks. The booklet did make me laugh. It suggested an ideal evening treat was a beer and a Curly Wurly! A Curly Wurly? Didn't even know they still made them! Then on to the acupuncture where I had a weep and she did a nice shiatsu massage, so I wept a bit more and then walked home and realised I had mad mascara eyes. So clearly walked through the whole of Richmond looking like a loony.

Big hugs and hope I didn't miss anyone xxxx

Hello! 9st 12 is not that bad. Remind me how tall (small...?) you are... I used to go to WW and every now and then, before last year when I thought I had discovered the way to lasting weight loss, chucked out all my roomier clothes thinking I would never have to wear them again, and I am technically a gold member. Like you I used to sometimes go when I only had around half a stone to get back to 'goal' so I could nip it in the bud. You have done the right thing then, going back (she says nipping down to the corner shop for a curly wurly and a beer). Actually I have had a good low carb day so far - eggs for breakfast, protein ball (v nice!) for pre-gym snack, greek salad and toasted seeds at home for lunch and a small yoghurt. I too have 8/9llbs to lose so we can do this together. I would have definitely taken off my shoes though. But do it next week and it might help shift a gram or two extra :)

Continuing on the same theme - what was your body fat percentage LIG? You are right, you don't want to be too low. I had a few people saying I had gone too far around about my wedding time last June (thanks!) but had got down to 8.12 (size 8) and I think I work better at around 9 to 9.3 (am around 5.5lbs and suit having 'tits and ass' rather than being very skinny I think).

Sorry you had another 5am freaky moment Really. Last night was the first time I hadn't had one for a few nights. Mind you it was my first night (and day, all my weekend drinks seemed to start very early!) without drinking so maybe that helped.

Diamonds so pleased to hear there is better news for your Dad.

Pixie love the idea about saying something positive about ourselves. I generally think I quite like myself but when you put that point across I found it hard to think of something that stands out to me as something I really like. I like to think I am quite funny, when not pouring over my pants, moaning about my weight or waiting for a dildo-cam in EPU, but others might disagree

Your first mc experience sounds awful Pixie. No wonder you were depressed after. Did you get your thyroid checked too? Post partum thyroid probs are quite common and do cause depression. I think my thyroid problem kicked in after my first pregnancy (which I now thing was a mmc) when I was 19 but had been lurking before that.

Today I feel like I have more energy than in a long time. I still am not doing very much work at all - er, none so far today, but I am going to get busy in a bit and it felt good to be at the gym. Yes IC I have now stopped miscarrying :) :) :) :) Hurrah!!!

Now just need to get the head and body back to normal.

Hello all

And thank you everyone for the lovely messages and handholding. As always it is much appreciated xx

Freelance I'm 5'3 so not very tall and my ideal size is just about 9 stone. If I go under that it doesn't seem to suit me so much and it pretty much impossible to maintain. WW seems to have changed since I last went, they've changed the whole points thing and they are now v. pro protein. All rather wonderful. Am reading through it now... whilst eating a cold roast potato. Hmmm. xxxx

Lovely and warm in here ladies! I'm glad I'm not working today. Staying with parents this week. Work have been fantastic. Let me have a couple of weeks off! Next week we'll head off for Barcelona! Immaculada's neck of the woods. Dh has managed to get some time off work too. We've put the mc behind us remarkably quickly! Can't quite believe it really. Dad's I'll health just made us really grateful for what we DO have: our health and each other. I genuinely am waiting for a case of the blues any day soon, as have been too busy recently to sulk! :-)

afternooon everyone - ooooh - i just wanted to explain my reasons for ranting/going on a bit sometimes - hope I managed to do that ok? & thnx for all the lovely comments. it's inspiring ;o) - hope you don't mind if i go off on one or two rants now & again...?????

My life is sooo very different from my 1st m/c situation. Now I'm with a gorgeous/lovely/wonder DP whom I love with all my heart. we have a great/healthy relationship & I am very well loved & looked after.

I do like this idea of ice-cream & wine - I'd say a sticky belgian choc icecream tub & a large glass (or 2 or 3...hehehehe - oh - bottle...) of a good (french) red will do me nicely this evening - you have no idea how much I am looking forward to it already -

Oh - I forgot to mention - I BOUGHT A MOON CUP ! ! ! ! I've had very light bleeding past couple of days so not sure if I'll get to use it - but it could prove interesting if I decide to try it out this evening.... & I'm looking forward to next w.e. now as we'll be in France & at least I;ll be able to try & swim x yipppppeee.

oh & I love all the good stuff you are saying about yourselves - it's wonderful x

posting on here actually makes me feel better - so good things sent everyones way x

pixie x

PS _ FREELANCE.
do you have any more info about the thyroid thing? No-one ever mentioned it before? I did a Google check & came up with soooo much info I don't knw where to start?
thnx
P x

Hello - hoping i can join in this thread. Not actually 'over' the mc yet as i am having a surgical procedure on Thursday for a mmc (nearly 11 weeks but it stopped growing at 8.5). Still hoping and praying that it may still happen naturally by then. This is my 2nd mc this year. First one was in Feb at 7.5 weeks and happened naturally with no intervention. Only really got over that one by finding out that we were pregant 3.5 weeks after m/c (v surprized as had taken 10 months first time).
Yet now we are back at square one!
Feeling fed up but ok emotionally. I do know from next time that once my hormones drop it will be a shocker though. I am dreading that so much.
It is reassuring to hear some of you getting back to normal and being positive again. Also helps to hear other people's stories too.
x

Pixie: nice to hear you're enjoying the support here! France sounds nice. The wine there is to die for! ( not to mention the cheese, bread, croissants....mmmmm).
Jemima: so sorry you have had such a difficult time recently, very sorry about your losses. It IS hard, and you are definitely in the right place to offload, share and get some first hand advice sought from personal experience unfortunately. Make yourself at home, and feel free to rant, rave, ask or indeed share any/ all advice. Lots of hugs. It is a very terrible time waiting for things to progress, we've all been there. I had an ERPC, less than a couple of weeks ago; seems like such a long time ago now. Once the pregnancy hormones leave your body we all react differently. Hope that you can put this time behind you soon, and in the meantime look after yourself, even better let someone else look after you, if possible. Try to take it easy, have some nice food; be nice to yourself. It's easily overlooked. Your hormones will play havoc with you understandably, so be gentle to yourself and be prepared. Please come on here and let us all alleviate some of your pain as best we can. The girls here have been a godsend to me. They helped my sanity in times when I really couldn't fathom out what I was going through. X

Diamond, thak you very much for your kind words. I am sorry about your loss too. Your advice sounds good, particularly the nice food part. I have been enjoying indulging in brie, crayfish and red wine again!
I hate the waiting part, i think i will feel better and have some sort of (hate this word) 'closure' after the op on Thursday.
I am dreading that part a bit as have opted for a vacuum aspiration under local anaesthetic (i was scared stiff by the thought of general anaesth) but not really sure what to expect at all. Was yours a d&c?
Hugs to you too.
x

Hi there duck. I had d&c on 12april. It was Painless & it put an end to awful waiting game.... I'm sure its gonna help once its over x I've found being on here (I only found this thread few days ago) really really useful/great/supportive etc... good luck x Pixie