right, I'm back on it today. I've put on 2kg in one week of relaxed eating. I know most of this is water retention. I'm also late for AF.
I have found it a very interesting experiment and learned a lot this week. Grah style!
I have confirmed to myself that I am a sugaholic. I found I really craved sweet things the more I had of them. I also wanted sweet things more when it was late at night about 2 hours after dinner. I also seem to put on weight/water immediately on my waist and face. I also found that I quickly got used to sweet tasting things and stopped finding them too sickly sweet as I have done on BC.
This all sounds like i have been on a massive binge all week. Since Xmas Eve i have had the following high carb food: 5 roast potatoes across several meals, carrots, couple of parsnips, stuffing, 2 small slivers of pannetone, 3 mince pies, small portion of Xmas pudding, 3 tortilla chips, handful of skinny fries, a toffee latte, copious amounts of Bailey's, 2 slices of pear, handful of macadamia nuts, small portion of peas, and 4 very small slices of chocolate cheesecake. And a partridge in a pear tree!
I'm finding it a helpful exercise to list here.
I declined: pizza, garlic bread, bread, crackers, cake, jelly, millionaire tablet, chocolates, toast, extra roasties, yorkies, Yule log and muffins.
On the whole I'm not feeling guilty. I enjoyed most of what I ate. Some things i felt were worth it, and some not. i have learned what it has done to my body and my mind. I ache all over, feel fat and bloated, have bad back pain and am heavier. I know I can lose the extra weight gain and start feeling physically and mentally better within a few days or weeks. It feels so achievable now.
In past years, I would be drowning in chocolate, guilt and self loathing. Which would mean I then ate more chocolate, cakes etc. I would bury my head in the sand and start the new year with vaguely good intentions that would never be put into action. Not this year.
I'm looking forward to the ongoing support of you lovely bootcampers. And 2018 is going to be wonderful. I have some emotional relationship issues going on which will get worse this year as changes are made and I will need to curb my emotional eating response. But I'm not daunted by this challenge. It will be managed.
I have bought some clothes in the sale in sizes 14 and 16. 16 fit now and 14 will soon.
Onwards bootcamp soldiers!!