YoLo you deserve a separate post because you need to know how much your honesty affected me, and probably others. I think it's also inspiring that you were affected by OldBooks. I think we have a very supportive group here and this has made a huge difference to my maintaining the commitment to LCHF.
Don't get me wrongI was going to do it anywaybut you lot help me do it better and faster and funnier.
All I can say about the wanting to jump out a window thing is that I see it as an "I don't want this to be happening, I want this to stop, make it go away" moment.
We all have them. We deal with them differently. Now, you're dealing better than you have in the past, I believe, which is the right direction.
It could be worse. You could be