I can't remember the last time something went right for me

[IllegallyBrunette]

Don't get me wrong, I know that there are people worse off than me, but it just struck me today that I now can't remember the last time something that I/we really needed or wanted went right.

It's got so that I don't even expect anything good to happen anymore and never expect things to work out be it job applications or whatever.

It is making me have a really negative view on absolutly everything I do tbh.

Yeah, gonna go to tesco express, tis open till 11! Might drag the kids blackberrting myself.

How do you know where the blackberry bushes are ? I'd have no clue where to start looking LOL.

Theres woods up the street and they are a good place to start There used to be a load directly across the street from me but there isnt anymore

Hmmm not sure where there would be any around here, will have a think.

I do vaguely remeber one of the dc asking me if something was a blackberry the other week, but I can't remember where we were now.

Ask the kids they might have remember...

I have, dd1 said 'what are you on about'.

So i tried Ds, he said 'it was in the street', when asked which street, he said 'the one with the houses'.

So helpful aren't they LOL.

lol

There are tons of blackberry bushes round here.

go to the local park or woods and you will see them.

You dont need many to make a crumble or pie.

and it is very rewarding to know it cost nothing!!

Some fantastic advice here.
Just doing a couple of things a week to take you out of your comfort zone can do wonders for your self esteem.
I have had days where I can't bear to leave the house but once I have forced myself out I feel so much better for it.

Could you get xp to have 2 of the children mid week and alternate weeks to do something special with one of them. You could go to the cinema, go out for a walk and have a special tea, video and pop corn etc.

I find writing a plan for the week helps and also writing goals down.
In life it's not what happens to you it's how you deal with it.

You are a great mum but you need to concentrate on enjoying the last fews of the holiday.
Focus on the wonderful holiday you are going to have abroad and what you can do to change your life. Good luck x

Arent you going away soon nutty?

Or have you been?

Myalias, yes list-writing great. Even if it's only "floor washed" "bin liner changed", "dishwasher unloaded", you do get some satisfaction from crossing them off. it reminds you of what you've accomplished that day.

The way I look at it is this.

Life can be a bucket of shit sometimes. And christ alone knows I've had more than my fair share over the last 2 years.

But do you know what? It is my shit and my fecking bucket. No-one will make things better for me. No-one will step in and ask me, before the shit falls if I can cope of not. So do you know what, I'll make it bloody work.

Cant agree more, MB!!!!!!!!!!

We go away on Sept 7th

Very excited about that

I think I will do a list as I love ticking things off when done LOL.

I haven't actually asked anyone to make things better for me. I do know what you mean MB, but it's not like I haven't tried.

YAY!!!
thats the FIRST time ive seen you excited!

Where are you going, and for how long?

We are going to Salou for one week. Kids have never flown before so I am intrigued as to who will like it and who won't.

Life can be awful at times.
Split with dp 7 months ago. Really bad split had no money didn't think it could get any worse.
Then I get a flat, fantastic and then a job fantastic I thought. Then the boss got rid of me after a month as he knew I was bored there but now refuses to pay me. I have bills and debt mounting all because he refuses to pay me.
And I really thought it couldn't get worse that a few months ago, but it has, can't ssee a way out atm.
But I still carry on regardless because you have to.
With any luck, it really CAN'T get any worse, surley ???

No I can understand that you've not been asking for a magic wand, but somehow it helps me to take 'ownership' of the shit, because when it stops being quite so shitty, I can take pleasure that I did that.

Just like you can over arranging the holiday.

Your shit, Your solution and the kudos goes to you and no-one else.

Great do the list - I am a listoholic

ooh I love lists too!

i love lists because i have a dodgy memory .

and, erm, Organised Mum.

glad we cheered you up nutty

i had a good day thanks to a generous friend with a tax rebate taking myself and the kids on a spending spree, my feet are throbbing and i have cash left over as well

am not allowed to spend it on anything but nice things for me though, that is the condition

i wont find that too much of a chore i dont think

at holiday im going to pretend you arent going so I dont turn green with envy!

MB talks a lot of sense, as do all the the other bucket of shit people. I text someone the other night saying This bloody having to do everything by myself for myself is really trying to bring me down but feck me every bloody day I feel stronger for it.

And I do.

Its my shit and I will mould it into the shape I want it to be.

Try it.

Am feeling alot more positive today, even though my kids are trying to drive me nuts.

We didn't go blackberry picking but we did have to go to the shops so we went the long way round much to their confusion.

I have spent the rest of the day trying to catch up with my washing and have cleaned all of my kitchen cupboards out . Going to see if I can scrape enough money together for a tin of paint next week and give the kitchen a bit of a new look.

Also going to stick some stuff on ebay and see if I can make a bit of money.

You are all right that I just need to make the best of what I have now and stop dwelling on what i'd like my life to be like, or else before I know it my life will of past me by and i'll still be sat there thinking about what I should instead of doing it.

Right, must get back to it.