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I can't remember the last time something went right for me

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IllegallyBrunette · 09/08/2008 15:57

Don't get me wrong, I know that there are people worse off than me, but it just struck me today that I now can't remember the last time something that I/we really needed or wanted went right.

It's got so that I don't even expect anything good to happen anymore and never expect things to work out be it job applications or whatever.

It is making me have a really negative view on absolutly everything I do tbh.

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allgonebellyup · 09/08/2008 16:41

nutty, i dont want you to feel like we're ganging up on you, but it is your attitude that is bad, and i do agree with what TBGP and the others have been saying.

I think you have to focus on something, maybe step away from MN and look forward to college, look forward to bettering yourself - feel excited about it!!!!!!!
Try to feel like you are going up in the world and things will only get better!
the more you tell yourself this, the more chance there is of it happening.

You do start a lot of negative threads, and i know you think the world is against you, but its not - you sound like you are being your own worst enemy at the moment, and you should be nice to yourself!!

ThatBigGermanPrison · 09/08/2008 16:41

No I don't. I mean stop pretending your life is practically over. It may get better, it may not. But you have a lot of it left to live, so it would be a good idea for the sake of your own mental health to make the decision to stop hating it.

allgonebellyup · 09/08/2008 16:42

What are you going to be doing at college? (cant remember, sorry!)

moondog · 09/08/2008 16:43

That is why you need qualifications, to make you employable.
You have plenty of brains, that much is obvious.

charliecat · 09/08/2008 16:43

You made friends at wilkos? You will make friends at college, and from there your life will get better.
I think a trip to the docs would be a good move.

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IllegallyBrunette · 09/08/2008 16:44

Childcare diploma.

I shouldn't have started this thread, sorry.

I know people are sick of me moaning and that they don't think I am doing enough to change things, so won't bother posting about it again.

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allgonebellyup · 09/08/2008 16:45

Can you get some CBT through your doctor?

(cognitive behavioural therapy - to change the way you see things, and the way you always see the negative)

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IllegallyBrunette · 09/08/2008 16:45

I didn't CC, haven't spoken/seen any of them since.

Anyway i said i'd shut up so I will.

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misdee · 09/08/2008 16:45

Nutty you a re a gorgeous young woman, with loads of your life left in front of you.

The weather today is grey and quite honestly shit. it has bought my mood down badly. when the weather is like this i feel like life is rubbish. (i need one of those sun light lamps really)

I do think you have some form of depression or self esteem issue, and i think a trip to the GP would help you. even if you decide against perscription AD's, things like st johns wort and other remedies may help as well.

allgonebellyup · 09/08/2008 16:46

We are trying to help, nutty, dont be a martyr.

You obviously posted on here for advice. So we are giving you some.

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IllegallyBrunette · 09/08/2008 16:47

I didn't CC, haven't spoken/seen any of them since.

Anyway i said i'd shut up so I will.

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tiredemma · 09/08/2008 16:48

Emma - why are you reluctant to take AD's?

charliecat · 09/08/2008 16:48

Dont go, lets chew through this.
You certainly talked about people there, if you had swapped numbers etc im sure you would have stayed in touch with them?
Anyway, you are going to college, cheer yourself up with some new stationary, start looking forward to it, new clothes maybe, nice pencil case.
Little things like that.
Get your house perfect so that you start off on a good foot for the term ahead, for all of you, as you will be really busy I imagine.
Focus on the good.
Google moodgym. Its online CBT.

Lol25 · 09/08/2008 16:49

Hi Illegally Brunette, I split up with my 3 yr old daughter's father just over a week ago (we'd been together 6 years which is pretty much my entire adult life) and people are already telling me to get over it!! I haven't moped about in front of anyone or attached myself to any mate's shoulder or anything of the sort!! I just haven't said "yeah I'm doing great!" when people have asked how I am...instead I've just said "yeah I'm doing ok" and I guess I've looked a bit down and not been very chatty and brushed a couple of escaped tears away!! My point is, that when people aren't feeling really depressed or having a tough time, all they can think of to say is "thing's will get better" or "keep ya chin up" or "just focus on the good things"....coz I guess they've forgotten (or are fortunate enough not to know) what it's like to feel like this. But although I know that my life is absolutely fucking brilliant compared to millions of people's, I also know that I, like all of us, have the right to feel sad when things go wrong...we are only human I'm afraid. All I can suggest is to keep trying...find things to do that make u smile, just little things every day, maybe try a class or group like yoga or keep fit (exercise gets the endorphins pumping so that should make you feel more positive!) and it'll be a slow-ish process but positive thinking will be possible again. I know what TBGP is trying to do...but tough love doesn't work on everyone! It's not working on me!! And although I don't wanna wallow in self pitty, I also want people to allow me to be sad for a while! However, I don't know how long u've felt like this so if it has been dragging on, maybe now is a good time to start trying to work on doing things to lift your mood...?? I wish you luck, love and happiness

allgonebellyup · 09/08/2008 16:50

ditto what charliecat said

you should be preparing for college, and looking forward to meeting a lot of new friends

piratecat · 09/08/2008 16:51

ib, i hope you can trust me. i can see that you are trying, and that you know what's what.

You are sinking into depression, i have a degree in it. No anitdepressents can't 'give' you all you want, feel you deserve. But they can help you out of this sadness, and feeling of its all you.

like i said, trust me. i have struggled with it all my life.

allgonebellyup · 09/08/2008 16:52

lol25, your sadness is brand new!!! Of course you need time to grieve!

i think IB has been feeling this way for 3yrs??
(sorry IB, not that i need to answer for you, but dont know if you have gone now??)

Lol25 · 09/08/2008 16:58

sorry, I didn't read the whole page...didn't realise it had been going on for so long....IB, this is serious, hun...you need help more proffessional than other single mum's xx

misdee · 09/08/2008 17:00

IB you are right Ad's wont get you a job etc etc but it will give you wour spark back.

turquoise · 09/08/2008 17:09

I really agree with those who have suggested CBT Nutty, I often lurk but can't post (at work) and have really noticed your threads going into a terrible downward spiral of negativity.

I think CBT is the one thing that might make a difference at the moment - far more effective than ADs for your situation.

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IllegallyBrunette · 09/08/2008 17:12

Thanks for the replies, not being ignorant on purpose, my internet connection keeps going today for some reason.

As I said, I know how boring and frustrating it must be to read these threads from me time and time again, it must be like being in my head and i'd not wish that on anyone LOL.

So anyway, i'll not post about it again,
I will be fine, things will carry on as they are, I will carry on as I am and maybe one day I might even get used to it.

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tiredemma · 09/08/2008 17:13

You cant mask over things Emma. You sound depressed and need to address this before you have any chance of getting on in life.

Lol25 · 09/08/2008 17:13

yes! CBT is perfect 4u by the sounds of it! I'm going soon...already got an appointment...I'm studying psychology at the mo and when we did about CBT it made perfect sense that it was just what I needed! (Not with regards to the break-up...it's something else)...I really would look into it if I were u x

charliecat · 09/08/2008 17:13

mood gym

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IllegallyBrunette · 09/08/2008 17:16

Argh, I keep losing my posts.

Have had counselling before, twice infact. It was shite both times.

I won't be masking it emma, I will just be accepting it i suppose.

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