Ah, so it is him. And yes, it very clearly was for someone else. You wrote multiple threads and everyone told you so, and you kept creating additional threads trying to find just one person to say "ah, he obviously loves you".... Which didn't happen.
The obsession you have is so very very unhealthy.
As per every thread you write, multiple times a year, you ignore everything. And spend the entire thread trying to convince yourself and every other poster of any reason to keep trailing after him.
It's honestly really sad, because you don't sound like a bad person. He blocks you for months, he barely sees his children. To the point of a few hours a month. Has never had them overnight. Doesn't give you any money. Has had several relationships in the last 7 yrs. But yes OP, he absolutely loves you. Can't you see how much.
You're worth so much more than this. He throws any crumb your way, not out of any genuine interest, but when he's bored, because he knows you'll act like this giddy school girl. It's actually horrible. It's like entertainment for him.
Being on your own, is better than this.