Pamela thread 6 - Bile Duct Cancer, Continued

[WilsonMilson]

Hi all

It’s Kerr here, I wanted to post a quick update as I’m conscious Pamela hasn’t been on for a few days and the thread seems to have reached its limit.

Pamela hasn’t been feeling so good over the last few days - on a positive note, her bloods seem to have stabilised and, all being well, she might be ok for chemo round 2 in the next couple of days. She had a blood transfusion yesterday which, we hope, will also boost her energy levels. On the downside, her jaundice has returned, the bilirubin levels are increasing significantly. The CT scan at the beginning of the week showed no new blockages and our Consultant thought that some early necrosis of the tumour after the last chemo might be contributing, but nobody really knows what’s causing it. Further discussion to take place tomorrow. Seeing the jaundice is one of the worst parts of this, it’s so clear and obvious when it’s happening yet there’s nothing we can do to alleviate it.

Just wanted to let you know the latest. Please, please keep praying for her - she’s my everything, my world, and every thought and prayer is deeply appreciated.

Kerr

I’m so sorry for your loss. I commented on the fake page this morning - I am gutted to hear it was fake. Pamela was an inspiration to many and all of these threads are testament to how loved she was. Thinking of you all x

So sorry Kerr, and thank you for updating. Like many I was hoping for a miracle. I hope you and Jacob take some solace from the fact that so many people have been genuinely touched by Pamela, and her courage and kick ass attitude all the way through this.
Will still often think of you all, and may you find some comfort that a bunch of strangers hold you in their hearts x

Dear Kerr, Jacob and all the people who knew and loved Pamela.
Thank you for today’s update! I am so sorry to hear that Pamela, has lost her courageous fight for life!
I like a lot of people on here were privileged to read her inspirational updates, her fight for life and her love for her family. May your many wonderful memories of Pamela last forever as no one can take them away.
I didn’t know her, but like a lot of others, on here I cared and wished that wishes and prayers for her were answered. 🌈🍀

In a very short time we got to see Pamela’s beautiful spirit, and the love you and your family shared. She touched many, and I am so sorry for your loss. The consideration she and you have shown is amazing and it seems a testament to her character. Wishing peace and comfort to you and your family.

I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing such a personal journey with us. If you are still reading this thread, I wanted to suggest - if you think it might be helpful or comforting later - that you find a way to preserve these threads, either printing them out or something. I don't know if MN delete threads after a period of time, but just in case, they might be something to look back on later. You are all in my prayers, Pamela too, may she RIP.

I’m so sorry for your loss Kerr. Although I didn’t know Pamela and had only read her recent posts on MN, she seemed like the most wonderful person. Thank you for updating us. Sending you love x

Sending love and thinking of you all. Although we didn't know her, Pamela's kindness and goodness shone through in all her posts. A truly wonderful lady who will be remembered by all the genuine members of MN. Sending hugs and strength. Xxx

I'm so sorry to hear about Pamela. She was a beautiful woman and her personality shone through in her posts. My condolences to you, your son and family at this time.

I'm so sorry for your loss, my thoughts are with you and all of Pamela's family and friends

I'm so sorry to read your update Kerr.

You and Jacob are in my thoughts.

I followed Pamela's posts from her first thread and what remained utterly constant was her love for her family, determination to stay with you as long as possible and the joy she got from things such a walk on the beach, that we are apt to take for granted.

I'm glad she found in these threads a small measure of comfort but I think she also gave back a lot, in making us all appreciate what we have and I for one will be forever thankful for that wake up call.

I didn't see the troll thread and I'm sorry this added to your pain. Please though take comfort that the vast majority of posters here feel a genuine sense of compassion towards you and your family and sought only to offer prayers, support and kindness

I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. Pamela really sounded like a truly wonderful person, and her posts were so honest, really conveyed how much she loved your family, and showed how much she was ready and willing to fight. Honestly, just F* cancer for doing this to another person. I was so badly hoping for a positive outcome. I'm sending all the love to you, and your family.

I am so sorry for your loss Kerr.
We have never met Pamela but she became someone very special for me as well as many many posters around here. I will still think of her. She said we need to pay attention to the beauty around us, I will never forget that. Very sorry. x

Rest in peace, beautiful Pamela. Thoughts, love, prayers and best wishes to your family at this devastating time. Pamela, may angels carry you to eternal peace x

Simply heartbreaking, keeping Pamela and her lovely family in my thoughts

I’m so terribly sorry to hear of Pamela’s passing. I haven’t commented on previous threads but have been reading them and praying for her. I’ve thought of her often and had hoped she would make it through the treatment.
Please know that you are all in my thoughts and I hope all the wonderful memories you have together can bring some comfort to you all at this horrific time.

My deepest condolences to you and your family x

I’m so very sorry for your loss, as others have said, Pamela wrote so brilliantly, she shared her journey and I was so touched by both her fragility, but also her strength. In my years on mumsnet, I have rarely seen somebody who was able to connect with this community in such a powerful way.

I am sure that her spirit will live on, but that is of little comfort to you all now. I hope in time, you will be able to hold happier times in your hearts.

Sending you all strength and love xx

So sorry to hear this news
Pamela will be with you all for ever and her story has reminded me to find joy in the simple things
❤️ to you all xx

I'm so sorry to read this. Pamela was inspirational and I will never forget her threads. May she rest in peace 💐

I am so completely stunned the thread 7 was fake, I also posted on it....
Kerr thank you so much for the update and for letting us all know, sending much love and thoughts to you and your family xx

So very sorry to hear this sad news. I was truly touched by Pamela's eloquence, bravery and honesty about what she was going through. I continue to pray for your family at this most difficult of times, and hope that you will all, in time, find comfort in the happy memories you have of such a very special person. x x

So sorry to hear this heartbreaking update.
Thoughts to you and your family.
Pamela's love for you was evident in every post. X

I am so sorry for your great loss. You were obviously a very close and devoted family. x

So sorry to read this. Pamela was so brave & strong. Her situation was so sad and it is devastating there couldn't have been more time for her with you her family. She is at peace now. Thinking of you all. Realising life is too short for regrets. Thank you Pamela for your courage to share your story.

Kerr I am so very sorry for your loss. Sleep in peace sweet Pamela, safe in the knowledge that your son has an amazing father and will I am very sure, do all he can do to continue raising him as a wonderful young man.