Pamela thread 6 - Bile Duct Cancer, Continued

[WilsonMilson]

Hi all

It’s Kerr here, I wanted to post a quick update as I’m conscious Pamela hasn’t been on for a few days and the thread seems to have reached its limit.

Pamela hasn’t been feeling so good over the last few days - on a positive note, her bloods seem to have stabilised and, all being well, she might be ok for chemo round 2 in the next couple of days. She had a blood transfusion yesterday which, we hope, will also boost her energy levels. On the downside, her jaundice has returned, the bilirubin levels are increasing significantly. The CT scan at the beginning of the week showed no new blockages and our Consultant thought that some early necrosis of the tumour after the last chemo might be contributing, but nobody really knows what’s causing it. Further discussion to take place tomorrow. Seeing the jaundice is one of the worst parts of this, it’s so clear and obvious when it’s happening yet there’s nothing we can do to alleviate it.

Just wanted to let you know the latest. Please, please keep praying for her - she’s my everything, my world, and every thought and prayer is deeply appreciated.

Kerr

RIP Pamela.
I have been moved to tears many times by her words, inspired by her strength and determination and, as others have said, reminded of the fragility of life and to make the most of the small things; even in the depths of pain and uncertainty she was able to do this. Sending strength and love to you Kerr and your boy.

If there is a charity that was close to her heart I would love to donate 🩷

Pure love. Nobody can ever take that away.

So sorry to read that Pamela passed away. I followed her posts from the beginning and she was such a strong, brave woman. I checked for updates every day and she was never far from my thoughts. That's a lovely photo of you both, she was so beautiful. I'm glad she is now at peace and free from pain. Much love to you all.

What a beautiful photo of you both and I’m so sorry for your loss. The love you have for each other shone through in every post. I hope this thread will give you some comfort that even though we are just strangers on the internet who didn’t know Pamela personally, her warm, loving, brave, positive personality shone through in every post she wrote and reminded us all not to take anything for granted. 💕

Oh Kerr, that photo is just gorgeous. She was so beautiful. I was struck by her first post once she knew how dire her situation was.

"please pray for my boys"
It spoke to her character and I knew exactly who she was from those few words.
May her memory be a blessing ❤️❤️

Thank you for sharing such a beautiful photo of you both. Sending love.

Still can't quite believe it but so glad you've taken some comfort from these threads though Kerr and hope Jacob and Pamela's mum may well do too. We will always think of you all and hope that you get through the coming months/years stronger together, much love xxx
Jenny

Dear Kerr I have followed Pamela’s story from the start and think about you often - but especially yesterday when my son got his AS results and I thought of Jacob and said a quiet prayer for both of you on what I know must have been another difficult day. As another NI mum, of similar age to Pamela and with our sons the same age, her story touched me deeply. May you both take strength from your happy memories of Pamela who was clearly an exceptional person x

What a lovely photo - you look so happy together. Thinking of you and Jacob daily.

That’s a really lovely photo of you both.

I hope the memories you have and are able to look back on, will help to at least bring some comfort to you and Jacob over the years to come.

it’s so unfair, the hand you’ve all been given.

I think of Pamela almost daily - she reminds me to just try my best and do what I can with what I’ve got.

xx

Take Care Kerr & Jacob ❤️

Sending you and Jacob and the rest of your family my deepest condolences and love. Pamela was so inspirational, strong, articulate and radiated a beautiful and positive soul. I will never forget her🩷

All the best, she sounded wonderful.

Aah only just checked in after thinking you all needed some space. I loved Pamela's inspirational if at times hearr rending posts and supportive replies, best of MN for sure. I work for a cancer charity with people with this awful illness and the bravery and love never ceases to amaze me, from the sufferers themselves to their families via the professionals involved. I wish you and your son all the best in this difficult time.

Dear Kerr, I thought of Pamela today after a period of time as I had to go through some scans myself and remember her words. Thank you for sharing the beautiful photo of you both.

Dear Pamela .Today I was thinking about you and imagining how today would have been for Jacob exam results,hope Jacob is out having fun 🤩 Sending so much love to Kerr and Jacob .Xxx

Rest easy Pamela xx
Much love to Kerr and Jacob...
You lose a star but she's right there above you and in your hearts xx

Thinking about you all. What a wonderful woman she was, to you and all the people on here. I wish you and Jacob well on your journey and this new part of your life. You will survive this. You have her love and strength. Goodbye and Good Luck. xxx

Thinking of you often, Pamela, Kerr and family. Sending you all love and the very best wishes x

I also think of you and Jacob often Kerr. I hope life is becoming more bearable and that you feel lovely Pamela within your hearts and around you always x

Just to let you know I was thinking of you all this morning. This is a really difficult part of the journey. Initial adrenalin dropped, shock slightly worn off, calls of support possibly a bit less and outside the window life seemingly just going on without Pamela in it.

You will find your way, but in the meantime, be kind to yourselves and remember that somewhere down the road is a time when you can talk about Pamela, think about her, remember her - without your heart ripping out of your chest. I promise.

Sending so much love to you Kerr and to Jacob x

Thinking of you and Jacob and your beautiful Pamela

Hi all

I see there are 2 posts left before the thread reaches its end and I was determined the last one would be a photo, or photos of Pamela. Thought I would grab both posts in case I miss the opportunity.

I’ve continued to read all the comments, thank you again for your kind wishes during the dark days. The funeral took place on 16th August and it was beautiful, the service included some recordings of Pamela’s piano pieces - she taught herself how to play piano during the first lockdown, such was her determination. The days have been difficult for Jacob and I, we loved her so so much, I’m simply lost without her. At times though, I’ve felt her presence guiding me through anxious or difficult days which has been an emotional, yet wonderful, feeling.

I wish you all every kindness and good health.

Kerr

Some photos to end the thread