Pamela thread 6 - Bile Duct Cancer, Continued

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Hi all

It’s Kerr here, I wanted to post a quick update as I’m conscious Pamela hasn’t been on for a few days and the thread seems to have reached its limit.

Pamela hasn’t been feeling so good over the last few days - on a positive note, her bloods seem to have stabilised and, all being well, she might be ok for chemo round 2 in the next couple of days. She had a blood transfusion yesterday which, we hope, will also boost her energy levels. On the downside, her jaundice has returned, the bilirubin levels are increasing significantly. The CT scan at the beginning of the week showed no new blockages and our Consultant thought that some early necrosis of the tumour after the last chemo might be contributing, but nobody really knows what’s causing it. Further discussion to take place tomorrow. Seeing the jaundice is one of the worst parts of this, it’s so clear and obvious when it’s happening yet there’s nothing we can do to alleviate it.

Just wanted to let you know the latest. Please, please keep praying for her - she’s my everything, my world, and every thought and prayer is deeply appreciated.

Kerr

That's a lovely photo Kerr 💝

Good Morning Kerr,So very sorry to read that Pamela lost her fight to that terrible cruel disease.I too have followed her story,and am deeply saddened by the ending.Thank you for posting the beautiful picture of you both..a fitting end to this thread.i will bow out now and leave you and your dear family to grieve in peace.Dear Pamela,her life on this earth ended far too soon,but she was surrounded by so much love.She will live on for eternity in your,and many more peoples hearts.Much love to you and your family.xx

Beautiful photo - thank you for sharing. I think it’s lovely how a complete stranger can have so much impact on other people’s lives. I think of you all often and hope that you’re all as good as you possibly can be.

Dear Kerr, thank you for sharing your beautiful photo with us. Losing someone so special is so hard, but to be loved and to love someone as you and Pamela did and alway will, is the greatest gift for life and beyond.

Take Care and know there are people who truly care! 🌈🍀

That's such a lovely photo. I still think of Pamela, you Kerr and Jacob.

So much love in that photo. You and Jacob have a hard path to walk now. I hope you can find a tiny bit of comfort in the respect and care Pamela inspired in so many people through her threads here.

What a beautiful photo of you both. Thank you for sharing. Even though I never met Pamela, she had such an impact on me and I’ll never forget. Sending much love to you and your family ❤️x

Wonderful photo Kerr and thankyou for sharing. Like lots of us on here I still think of Pamela and what a fighter she was. Sending much love to you, Jacob and all the family 💕

What a beautiful photo. I'm another poster who has felt such an impact from Pamela's story and her profound love for you and Jacob. She was such a shining light. The local prayer group continue to pray for you and Jacob and we hold you in our hearts and hope that Pamela is looking down on you and continues to fill you with love x

Kerr the photo is absolutely stunning.Every day I think of you all and cannot imagine the sadness you ,Jacob and Pamela’s Mum are having to deal with. Pamela was clearly beautiful , inside and out . 💕Xx

Hi Kerr
That photo just exudes happiness - what a beautiful couple.
I'm glad you and Pamela both found some comfort from strangers.
When I first started reading it was the gall stones that caught my interest but you both have given me so much - thank you.

Dear Kerr, thank you for sharing your photo. Pamela affected me very much like so many mums netters here and reminded me that life is so uncertain and we never really are in control (even though we like to think we are). And how to be thankful for every day and the people in our life's. Also how little acts of kindness can mean so much. And also that even though we are all strangers in different parts of the world we are all connected and how love connects us all. She also inspired me also that despite it all she remained strong and joyful and managed to smile and make a joke in the hard times(even though she was suffering greatly.) May she rest in peace and I wish the best for you and Jacob.

Hi Kerr,

I would like to say that, as many people already mentioned, Pamela has a huge impact on me. This is the first time I feel anything like it from someone i haven't met in real life.
I keep thinking on her words every day. We are many people touched by her incredible will to live, her kindness, sense of humour and infinite love for her family.
Before this thread closes, I want to say I will keep having Pamela's words present in any difficult moment in the future.
Sending you and Jacob love and strength. ❤

I second this - it would be lovely for something positive to come from such a sad situation, and it would be another tangible way for people to "be kind" if their financial circumstances allowed. I continue to remember Kerr, Jacob and the wider family in my prayers, and to give thanks for Pamela's life. x x

Lovely photo ❤️

Pamela would have been so worried about Jacob. I know it was my children I was most concerned about when I was first diagnosed with cancer. I do hope he is relatively ok. It’s such a tender age. I hope these threads really help him in the future to know what a wonderful woman his mum was. You too of course. All the best for all your futures, once the immediate heartbreak lessens just a bit.

Gosh she is beautiful, bless her

much love to you and your son. Hold each other tight x

Still thinking of you all every day. That's a perfect photograph of you both. Her writing will save someone, maybe many people. What an extraordinary person she was, I won't forget her.

Kerr, I am so so sorry for the loss, and for what you, Jacob (and all that loved Pamela) are going though.

She was quite inspirational, and the clarity and articulate nature of her writing connected with people at even her darkest moments. I can only imagine what a force she was to know and love in real life.

Wishing you strength, and peace.

Oh bless you. What a wonderful photograph. I also think of you every day. In everything Pamela said, her strength and love shone through. She was such an inspirational person and even though I knew her but for a moment, she definitely is someone truly unforgettable. Xx

Oh Kerr, what an absolutely radiant photo. I know this thread is almost done, and it's probably already broken the mumsnet- if you get the chance to set up another one for details of any charity or donations I'm sure I won't be alone in wanting to pay respects in a practical way- if that's even allowed on here. Having just lost my only and much younger sister to the same thing as your lovely Pamela, I also just wanted to encourage you to keep your faith- it takes a real battering at times like this and there will be a very long road ahead but you are not alone, and I really pray you will know God's presence in a real and tangible way in the days and months ahead. Some people you thought were close won't be able to deal with it, and some strangers will step up in ways you cannot imagine. Love and best wishes to you as you face the future together . Chris from Rickmansworth

Beautiful photo ❤️ your love shines through. I hope the memories of an amazing love and family keep you going through the grief xx

Dear Kerr
My heart goes out to you and your Jacob
Pamela has left an indelible mark on my mind and she has genuinely changed my outlook on life,to slow down and enjoy the simple pleasures such as the flower that bloom and the sun on my face
She wrote so articulately, despite being so very unwell that I could almost hear her speaking her wise warm words
The love shines out from your beautiful photo
Sending love to you and Jacob
Judith in Wiltshire

Will never forget this lady or your family x

Thank you for writing EXACTLY what i wanted to say to Kerr. You just put it so much better than i ever could. <3

I will be thinking of you all later today as you lay your beloved Pamela to rest. Take good care of each other at this sad time in your lives. You and Jacob will become an indomitable force. Pamela will live on in you both x