Im deeply ashamed to say that sometimes I even feel a tiny bit of relief when I hear about someone younger than DF dying, as if it alleviates some of his tragedy somewhat. Which is a shitty thing to admit, and not something I consciously do or take pleasure in.
Lotsofpots, I do the same comparing game. When I'm walking my dogs, we go through a graveyard to get to the footpath. I find myself scanning the graves, and comparing their ages to my mum's, establishing whether they were lucky or unlucky - i.e. got more or less life than she is likely to get. I'm early 30s, and also find myself reminding myself that I have several friends who lost parents in their teens, and that they got through it, so I should be able to as well.
I'm very sorry you had bad news about your dad's treatment.
Cocolapew it sounds like a nightmare. I know it's not as simple as this, but try to get some sleep. You can't run on when you're exhausted.
Winterfairy23, its awful how slow things move. Fingers crossed the next appointment goes okay and things speed up a bit.
Elizacrempog of course you can join. That all sounds hugely difficult, and the waiting is awful. Do you live nearby?
My oldest brother is continuing to be a grasping, selfish arsehole about everything. His idea of helping mum is to freely offer to do a task and then try and delegate it to me (in a really domineering way) when the time comes to actually do it. I'm so annoyed with him.