The mind numbing boredom of infertility III

[icy121]

Are you Barren & Bored? You've come to the right place!

We do: swearing, empathy, bitterness, tears, sardonic laughter, glittery shit and mocking idiots who know nothing jon snow.

We don't do: baby dust, relentless positivity, "u ok hun", "I had a friend who..", pithy advice or sentimentality generally.

Previous threads 1 and 2.

Now that you've got all that down, welcome to the barren ghetto.

OMG Fourpaws it's like magic realism! I want to put that in a short story. It's life imitating art...me I think you should have a symbolic bonfire party, put it at the top. I hope you keep fighting your corner though it must be draining. Going to 3 days sounds excellent. I do 4 days and was my best move ever. When people say stress is irrelevant to this as rape victims get pregnant they don't realise that that's acute stress. The ongoing low level stress is the one that messes with us and releases immune suppressing hormones and I do think that has an effect. Less work is less chronic stress. Food for thought.

Icy - you are a poet - my fave line ever from you has to be, "your friend is clearly a cunt, disengage." Fucking fantastic stuff.
I am due for egg collection on wed so far so good but from what I've read on here I know there's lots of hoops still. I am assuming it won't work - nurse at clinic said today, "yes it will." Which I thought was a bit dismissive of reality. I an 39, never been preg, and it's the first go.Roll on this time next week.

Omg fourpaws
That is freaky!

I've got a piece of wedding cake hanging around!! I'm going to throw it away immediately!!!!

But when we got married people were shocked we didn't keep our top tier 'for the christening' (cos obv it was going to just happen). We decided not to do it as the cake was way too tasty to put away!

On the other hand, I feel that we could have a lot of fun with a Viking burial - cathartic perhaps? I'm in and would bring cake...

peaop a militant barren burial dance to burn the cake! I imagine we will all be pregnant within the month!

Count me in☺

I am now totally planning a fire burning ceremony for the cake. I know deep down everyone is laughing at this, and me, but hey, this is me clinging to the last embers of hope I have left.

So, dh is on board, we are expedition cake burning. He did not want to bury it anyway as the sheep will dig it up. Let's do this billy Connolly style.

The thing that spooked me, in all seriousness was, how does she know I don't have ten babies. she literally looked at me and said, you need to get rid of the cake. I'm not very good at writing because I, swinging between FFS, I need to get rid of the stinking cake which I totally forgot about, and omg, this may work. . I'm so normal in real life. I think this is exactly why I hesitate to post sometimes, because I sound unstable....

I don't mean you guys are laughing at me, but I'm sure everyone else is. I don't actually think infertility threads should be in trending, puh. I need to rant sometimes, and still have not conquered my Facebook fear.

Our cake was so boozy it was inhaled by guests and the people who came to our bbq the next day. If we'd burnt any leftovers the resulting fireball would have obliterated the neighbourhood!

Fourpaws she doesn't know. People with dementia slip between time - so for that moment, it was 12 years ago and she was telling you the same thing she told you then. But don't let that stop your ceremony, it sounds cathartic!

Banana and Tiger thanks for your test advice and support. I'm pretty sure I won't do hidden C, I googled lots and could find only one woman who hasn't been told she had hidden C, which seems a bit suspicious. I'm going to have a crack at getting my GP to test me for all STIs, then see what comes back.

I'm on day 7, round 2 of ovulation induction with menopur, after 6 failed rounds of Clomid. Does anyone else find themselves internally talking about fertility treatment in either a David Attenborough style or a Big Brother narrator style, or just me? "It is day 7 in the house. After flicking airbubbles out of the syringe a-la-Trainspotting, the female housemate has stabbed herself in the belly. The male housemate is grumpily contemplating performing on demand for the next week and a half, and considering whether a hot tub will help."

Oh robber, absolutely. I do speak in big brother voice. And I am to admit that I actually bought a hot tub. I've totally outed myself anyway previously so fuck it........

Not been in it yet, but hey, it is sitting there. I have an unexpected lodger, which is causing raised eyebrows within the family. No reason, just they think we need time alone. In actual fact dh and I agree it's been a nice distraction, and had given me something else to worry about.

And yes, our cake was the same, what do I do, watch this space for news reports of fireball. Hence I like the raft idea, and a lot of water,

I don't care who's laughing!
Burn the cake!
I'm going to burn my cake!
Finally - someting I haven't tried

Fourpaws thank you, I really needed a good laugh, and your Big-Brother-hot-tub-fireball confessions did the trick. So glad it isn't just me!

Please can you film this ceremony and if we both ever join the FB group, you can share it there?!

I'm going to have to make a cake tomorrow just so I can burn something too.

Yesdh is incredibly excited about our fire burning ceremony, due to harvest it may not be as spectacular as he would like.

I use his Facebook for general browsing but will set up my own one and share the video. In tribute to you all, because I can't get through this without you all.

Ps. Dh wants to open the sealed container and look at the cake we are now arguing about that. Fourteen years, wtf was I thinking......... I really did forget

Hot tub has also brought a new meaning to stick testing, I am no frantically waving ph level sticks in the air on about the same frequency as I am waving ovulation ones. So if anything, it's given me something else to worry about.

Absolutely loving the idea of a cake burning ceremony 🔥 Seems as likely to work as anything if you ask me! We didn't have a cake, maybe that's what's wrong here?! I highly
recommend joining the Facebook group guys, I was hesitant too but I did recently and it's brilliant.

That is a very spooky story four! I would definitely be getting rid of the cake, crazy or otherwise. Look forward to the details of the ceremonial burning! Also good luck with the appeal appointment.

No cake burning here, but I think I'll bake one in solidarity too! Need to get on a health kick pre-FET but I have no motivation at the moment. Finally getting back to exercise post surgery, did a metafit class on Tuesday and have been ridiculously sore ever since. Keep telling myself that the lifestyle and woo shit is just tinkering around the edges but I still feel guilty if I don't try to do these things. Also called up my acupuncture lady and booked in for a session.

I haven't done hidden c for much the same reasons robber. That has reminded me though - has anyone had level one immunes done, and did you manage to get your GP to do any of the tests?

How are you doing pea? Sorry about the baby bomb. Same thing happened to me with my little brother during my first IVF cycle and I found it really hard.

Sounds like all is going well sara. good luck for EC on weds. That's a very good point about the low level stress. I now work from home a couple of days a week and that definitely helps the stress levels.

AF arrived this week, so I'll be downregging from the end of the month. Seems to be taking an age to get there...

What ho fiends

I can’t bake for shit and we don’t have any wedding cake left (we never even got to eat any of our own cake, everyone scoffed it! Luckily it was just M&S - we spent the money behind the bar instead), but I’m fucking LOVING the imagine of burning cakes and viking send offs

Also hot tub OPKs. The shit sequel to Hot Tub Time Machine

Robber I frequently imagine the running commentary. TBH you lot are the equivalent of me going to the diary room, you poor bastards

pea sorry about the baby bomb

icy I used a hard sunglasses case for stabbing on the go, but fuck it, I like your style

Good luck for EC sara

tiger hope D/R rolls around soon. I did level 1 immunes but I can’t get anything out of my GP - they won’t do ANYTHING for me that relates to fertility, because I’m having private fertility treatment. Wouldn’t even test my thyroid after my miscarriage as they said my clinic should do it. Twats. I got them all done via Blue Horizon. Cost a frigging fortune

So, wonder of wonders, my hysteroscopy is cancelled. I’m not getting an IUD put in. I only went and got an actual period (of sorts). Enough of one to count

I started stims this morning! I can’t believe we’re doing an entire fresh cycle with EC just to try and grow my bastard lining, but there you go

Oh and my vag is getting the gold star treatment. We have managed to find a pharmacy who will make up the vaginal viagra pessaries - cannot believe how much they charge for crushing up some boner pills and smushing them into vag bullets. My fanjo doesn't know how special it is.

Hope the fire burning is going well - remember the golden rule: PIX OR IT DIDN'T HAPPEN

We also have no cake left - otherwise I'd totally be up for trying this.
I can attest to both the goodness of banana's cake but more importantly to the cocktails (at least I think I can, memory a little fuzzy due to the latter).
Afm baseline scan pre dr showed no cysts so starting on 2nd sept. Icsi this time so hoping we get some fertilisation and actually are able to transfer something that even has the possibility of a good outcome.

Hello all

Have been out so haven't burnt the cake but am going to do it and post a pic! It's making me think of Friends and the Valentines boyfriend burning

Bean - so that's next week you start? Good luck. I'm mustering the energy to cycle in November. It's nice to see others starting, is helping me build up to it. Icy, good to hear from you too.

Yes potatoes I guess it is next Friday. It's suddenly appeared quite quickly. We weren't ready in July when we could have gone. The extra 2 months have been needed to get my head ready.

Yeah it does come out of nowhere when you start doesn't it. I know what you mean about getting your head ready. That's really important. I hope you're feeling in a good place.

Hello

Your cake burning support has made me smile, I have still not burnt the cake though. It's on a to do list somewhere.

Had appointment today. Much much worse than we expected. Not prepared to fund ANY more off for me. Would do one donor cycle. That's all. My chances of ever conceiving naturally are less than five percent, should just give up trying.

Amh now dropped to 2, so seems to be falling all the time. Got fairly heated when she shot me down re low amh and long protocol and said I was completely wrong and not a doctor.

Have spent some time looking for a private clinic this afternoon but can't find any within a reasonable distance to get an initial second opinion. Dh not keen on donor route at all, especially with someone we know. I am of course happy to travel but having just been battered by one round, anything over two hours away is tricky realistically.

Not sure what to do now really, had been feeling a little stronger and now feel all smashed up again.

Thinking of all you wonderful fiends and thank you for being there.

Hi fourpaws - delurking to try and offer some barren solidarity. That's absolutely shocking, I'm so so sorry. Is there anyone you can make a complaint to? It sounds like they haven't listened to you at all.

I will log-on later and catch-up on the thread / respond properly but just wanted to give you a virtual hug. I'm sure some of the extremely knowledgeable and fantastic fiends on this thread will be along soon with some more useful advice xxxxxx

Hi four, so sorry to hear about the tough appointment. Just a quick one to say that I think that GCRM have a satellite clinic in Edinburgh so might be worth looking into (Someone else I know mentioned them the other day, I have no direct experience).