Whooping cough potatoes, bloody hell. Hope you're not feeling too poorly. It's on the rise at the moment. I didn't realise until I worked in a community hospital that the vaccine wears off after a few years, so even if you were vaccinated as a child, you can still be at risk. I also read a similar article about IVF, one that referenced a danish study that said 71% of those undergoing IVF does eventually get pregnant. Whilst that is great, I still imagined a group of four ladies, three holding their babies and one who never will. At least a one in four chance of it never happening is probably not the right way to look at it, but I am at a stage where I feel that I need to start being realistic.
Robber I totally agree, I think infertility warps everything. I am feeling quite numb about ttc at the moment after a couple of years of being distraught to the verge of tears almost 24 hours a day. But just yesterday I couldn't stop crying because I suddenly thought about my (perfectly healthy but now senior) dog dying before we have the chance to become the family imagined we would have, when we got her a few years ago. This is clearly not normal behaviour.
What living with infertility reminds me of is Narnia at the beginning of The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe. Always winter but never Christmas.
Peaop, fingers crossed they let you go from here. Your clinic sounds like my clinic. Are you in London? Mine have a number where you leave a voicemail and it is impossible to get through. I now email /call a specific person directly as I am very impatient! Probably not supposed to, but they seem to be OK with it. Why is that bodies are completely predictable until the moment when you need to rely on them?! I was 9 days late, which completely stuffed my scratch appointment and delays my FET too. It has never happened before!
welcome boggle, you're in the right place for boredom and bitterness!
OMG choc your friend deserves a smack in the mouth for that comment. I would be fuming. For what it is worth, I tried relentless positivity for a while and it did fuck all!
icy I know where you are coming from too. I think that is all part of the trying to find a reason, which can include trying to blame yourself in some way for not being positive enough, drinking too much, not relaxing, you name it really.
Thing is, even the best chance is not 100% guaranteed, so it is hard to have that sort of blind faith in anything working. You do stand a very good chance though, you have lots of things in your favour that add to those chances.
I was very hopeful and positive to start with. During my first IVF 2ww, we took some time off, went away to the new forest, listened to calming meditations every day and ate healthy food, practiced visualising the positive test etc. When I did get a positive test, I was over the moon with excitement, but after the crushing disappointment of a short lived chemical pregnancy, I am not sure I can trust myself to be positive about it all again. Same with my last cycle. The timing would have been so amazing....we allowed ourselves to dream about it working and then felt like twats when it didn't.
kiwi I am sorry you are struggling. I know what you mean about being emotional and unmotivated. I have no interest in my job anymore, and I used to love work.
zippy it is all so bloody exhausting isn't it. Your post from the other day was spot on - my mind churns all the same stuff so often. Hope you're feeling better today.
bean hope you're ok?
Well, that turned into a bit of a miserable old mega post. Best get on with some work. Am working from home today, still in PJs and not achieving much work either!