The mind numbing boredom of infertility III

[icy121]

Are you Barren & Bored? You've come to the right place!

We do: swearing, empathy, bitterness, tears, sardonic laughter, glittery shit and mocking idiots who know nothing jon snow.

We don't do: baby dust, relentless positivity, "u ok hun", "I had a friend who..", pithy advice or sentimentality generally.

Previous threads 1 and 2.

Now that you've got all that down, welcome to the barren ghetto.

Ugh sitting on the train (escapes early!) and hot flashing like a bastard. Christ my body is absolutely fucked.

Oh god icy I am also hot flashing like a motherfucker. Plus, I got an elbow in the tit from some business suit douche who wanted onto the train before me.

Quick question before I catch up - is it normal to be bloating up on day 5 of stabbing ? I look about 3 months pregnant..

Watching with interest Wizzi, as 'go out and buy some elastic waist trousers' has been on my to do list but ok haven't got around to it.

In reading this thread more and more I've realised I have no idea what most of you are talking about re ivf. Even though I'm doing ivf! Feeling dim. (But not too concerned because frankly, my brain is full).

What are you stabbing at the moment wizzi? Are you stimming? I definitely got bloated during stims, and also pre-af whilst down regging, sounds normal to me!

Hope your body is just getting all the drugs out of your system icy, prior to the FET.

I'm getting the gift of spots this month, cheers body. Not sure what my hormones are up, think they're still a bit all over the place.!

Yes to bloating. I was massive.

It gets worse when you start taking progesterone as it slows down your digestive processes.

I was left with max three outfits I could wear to work. I was so uncomfortable. And not even pregnant! Urgh.

Hello fiends! Having a mid morning rant as I've been baby bombed twice this week and been subjected to an idiotic discussion about IVF being a lifestyle choice. I work in the NHS and at a meeting this morning 2 GP's, a practice nurse and my close colleague at work (who knows I've had 3 failed cycles) ended up having a bizaare discussion about how Ivf needs to be restricted and how people who truly want a baby will lose weight and quit smoking. its shocking to think how poor people's knowledge is, even bloody health professionals. I'm seething. Felt like taking my colleague to one side and decking her!

In other non-ranty news, banana, that's amazing news! Without sounding like too much of a fan girl, you were so supportive and lovely on the thread we were on earlier this year. I'm in awe of how much you've gone through and how approachable and helpful you've always been. Sending lots of glittery shit and keeping everything crossed for your FET.

A big hello to grumpel too, it's pants that we find ourselves back here again but onwards and upwards

Hey fellow fiends. Just checking into say hi and well done banana - I'm still lurking about the place, licking wounds and psychicing myself up for round 2.
Had busy weekend off the diet and on the beer. Back to reality now.👎

pink if it meant widening access (so I'd qualify despite OHs kids !!) /increasing the number of funded cycles to IVF then yeah making people quit smoking & get to appropriate BMI would be okay, but frok what the sounds of what your shithead colleagues were saying, that's not what they meant eh?! Easy to say when you're fucking fertile the smug sodding bastard cunts.

karla you doing another stim stale or do you have any frozens to use?

icy back to the drawing board for us as no Frosties.
We have a follow up appointment on 24th June where I assume they will talk us through what they think may have gone wrong.We may go the whole hog this time and have endo scratch and glue. Hoping they will allow us to do another stimming cycle and not go down the natural route. But in the meantime, I'm trying damn hard to live 'normally' for the next few weeks. We may even go crazy and book a holiday! 😱

pinkheels rant away...your colleagues are dickheads if they think that's the case...unbelievable to think they are healthcare professionals.

Yes stimming with menopur at the mo tiger. Proper bloating now and pretty obvious which is difficult because we haven't told anyone workwise , family or friends. I find it too difficult to talk about and most people try to dole out shit advice regardless.

Book that holiday karla so well deserved after what shit you've been through.

Fellow stabbers any scans yet zenzie fourpaws anyone else?

Evening fiends.

No wizzi, I don't really understand my plan. I don't have an appointment or a scan till 30 junethat's going to mean 25 days of burserelin injections prior to that.

Why am I different? Well, you know what I mean, but everyone else see,so to get scans along the way, I just do stabbing for weeks and weeks. They said they scan 30th, then there will be a week of two injections with scans that week, aiming for collection around 8 July. Is this making sense to anyone?

Hi Fiends..... I've been burying my head in the sand. This IVF shite is a real roller coaster!
Will start by asking what does BESH stand for? I am unaware of our competition

banana was pleased to read the good news you and DH received. Hoping it continues every step of the way for you.
icy you must be frustrated now with those shitty symptoms! Glad to see your staying sane with a sugar binge.
karla a holiday sounds like a great idea! Why not have some normality in all of this ay!
pink your colleagues sound like they are up their own arses because they have the "professional" name tag...ignorant bastards!
potatoes how you doing? Had to laugh at your lack of clothes due to bloating. Is there any area of life this shit doesn't affect?
I love buying new clothes (a bit too much) so suppose it's a good excuse.
Fellow stabbers, well done on getting this far! Hope you are all getting used to it by now and are progressing nicely.
Anyone had any scans yet?
On my first scan not much was going on, lots of follies but all too small. So my dose was upped to 225 merional and my 2nd scan has showed a lot of progressive. The nurse was really pleased with how much the follies had grown and my lining is 11mm. I was so releaved and happy that EC will be taking place either sun/mon, if things continue as they have.
Anyone used to the cetrotide yet? I was shocked at the size of the needle but found it ok and not too painful. I am a stabbing pro now.
Anyone else got a scan or EC on the cards?

Apologies for the people I have missed or any important details. Lots happening very quickly on here!

Sounds like you're long protocol fourpaws. Are you NHS? Some clinics (like my first NHS fc) were really light touch - I had three weeks of Burserelin without a scan. It should have been two weeks really but they only scanned on Thursdays and I couldn't do the initial one. Some clinics also do less scanning as they work to a less flexible timetable to save money on staffing.

I suspect the bloat will continue wizzi - should be a good sign that the ovaries are producing a load of eggs. Get those comfy trews on!

Urgh what twats pinkheels, I was working in the NHS previously, in a role that is kind of related to funding etc, had to hear some absolute bollocks views on what should or shouldn't be funded in relation to IVF. The whole issue has me fuming, don't get me started on the post code lottery!!

Holiday sounds fab karla, we're off in 2.5 weeks and it is the only thing keeping me sane whilst I deal with the interminable wait for my post cycle follow up. My cycle failed in March and the follow up is mid July - bloody ridiculous.

Good progress pebbles sounds like it's all ticking along as it should.

Hi Pebbles think you are just ahead of me...stabtastic this week on menopur and cetrotide. That is a right mofo of a needle ...I keep drawing blood but other than that not too painful. Next scan on Friday so see how we go and due for EC next Wed/Thurs.

Fourpaws I'm no pro with all this shite but sounds like you are on a longer protocol before you start the stimming drugs. Probably get scanned twice a week once that gets started so don't worry. Someone else maybe able to shed some light or when in doubt there is always Dr Google 😀

Ah, thanks both. Yes, nhs first cycle. (Shitting self). I think that's why I sway to not wanting to do it because if I do it and it fails I can't do it again. If that makes sense.

Sorry fourpaws I have no knowledge of the long protocol. If it's the hospitals standard, then I am sure it won't be a problem to go so long. I imagine it's more frustrating than anything!
GL for Friday wizzi I cannot believe this could actually be happening to me so soon. after 2 years of googling and reading posts about IVF I finally have my own experience of it. All so surreal.
tiger rather jel of tour upcoming hol. Hope the sun is shining and the drinks are flowing, wherever it is you're off to!

Hello. I'm new to this thread and i could do with some advice if possible please? DS nearly 3, all natural. Second round infertility and 2x miscarriages with high killer cells. Two weeks into FET and my question is about oestrogen. Is anyone else feeling really heavy in the bladder like they have a urine infection? Uncomfortable and swollen? I start progesterone tomorrow and transfer Tues. Just feel off!

Fourpaws I had 3 weeks of buserelin too. They did that to me because opf scheduling so that there weren't too many people due for ec in the same day. I actually didn't have a period until day 19 so turned out well for me. From my first scan it was then only 2 weeks to ec with 3 scans in that time. I suspect the folks you see getting more scans are on short protocol so already on the second stage of injections so to speak.

Hi to everyone else. Briefly sticking my head up from lurking. Hate how I'm feeling at the moment - think I'm fine and then getting bloody baby bombed at work in the middle of a meeting and having to pretend to be happy when all I want is to run kicking and screaming out of a room. Oh and someone who I know had Ivf for number one and now has 3 kids (last 2 were accidents apparently) posting about how tired she is. Boo bloody hoo. Consider yourself blocked my friend.

Glittery shit to all fiends.

Hello barrens! I posted a while back and then was too afraid to come back and post my dismal stats - we are on our second natural cycle = one follicle, one egg, one embryo and the potential for total disaster if anything goes wrong along the way Very fortunate to have made it through the assault course and have just had a perfect looking 3day embryo transferred. Sorry to hear about the bloaty barrens, I'm also really bloated/fat and I can't even blame the drugs. And I'm on a gluten free dairy free diet so it wasn't even like I enjoyed gaining it I was wondering has anyone any top tips for staying sane during the tww? The following are the methods I normally use to destress - running/sex/alcohol/hot baths/curling up with a hot water bottle/hanging out with friends. The list of things on my sheet of things not allowed after IVF reads basically the same as above minus the friends - but being a militant barren means I'm an antisocial cow nowadays anyway. I'm trying the ziti west meditation but it's maybe a bit woo for me and not quite the same relaxation wise as a nice big glass of wine. Any tips appreciated.
Well glittery dog shit to all, with an extra sprinkle of glitter to anyone waiting to cycle, as that seems to be the hardest part.

Hey zippy, congrats on the transfer. Fortunately for me "eat sugary foods" was also on my list of stuff that makes me feel good so.... I did that! Didn't help the bloating at all. Sorry to be useless . Good luck for the tww.

OH has to BBQ going. Wine o'clock fiends, fucking wine o'clock

Prosecco, fish n chips for me icy 👌🏻
Feeling outrageous tonight!

Thanks potatoes, cake it is then

zippy GL with your cycle. No tips on how to stay sane in a 2ww! I would also suggest indulging in naughty food.
P.s my IVF info booklet says shagging during 2ww is allowed
icy loving your food and drink choices lately.
Massive huge piles of glittery dog shit to all of you!!!