Hi Sara, so very sorry you find yourself here, but you’re very very welcome - it’s a lovely bunch of women, with tonnes of shared knowledge, and hope that we can support you through your journey
Emotional rollercoaster doesn’t even begin to cover it! You mentioned your first appointment - is this the first appt to discuss getting referred, or the first appointment at the clinic to get the ball rolling?
It’s SO overwhelming and there’s so much information out there, I found two books really helpful when I was starting out, which I can’t recommend enough:
Get A Life: His & Hers Survival Guide to IVF by Rosie Bray and Richard Mackney —> I CANNOT recommend this book enough. It’s a first person account written by a couple about their journey through infertility and IVF; it’s v funny, straight talking, tells it like it is, and for me it was so so helpful to read about the experience from the man’s POV.
The Complete Guide To Ivf: An inside view of fertility clinics and treatment by Kate Brian —> another first person POV, very thorough and takes you through the journey step by step.
I’ve got the most tremendous support from the MN community - don’t know how I’d have got through the last year without the amazing women on this (and other) threads
Shellster keeping everything crossed for your boobs!
Well, the PGS results for the biopsies came through unexpectedly quickly - we’d been told 2 weeks, but I got a call just 5 days later!
We had a total of 12 blasts biopsied for PGS testing
9 of these came from this most recent fresh cycle
Of our 4 frosties, 3 of them were able to be biopsied. Although the fourth did thaw, it didn’t successfully re-expand and progress to hatching blast stage, and therefore wasn’t suitable for biopsy.
Although we won’t ever know for sure, the lab say in general that euploid embryos do generally survive the freeze / thaw process, and those that don’t are generally aneuploid - so it’s likely that this embryo was a dud and just weeded itself out
Unbelievably, out of 12 tested, 6 came back as euploid!!
DH and I both wept and wept for joy
The really interesting thing is that NONE of the frosties from Cycle #2 were genetically normal. The only competent embryo from that cycle was the one we transferred (and miscarried) - which tissue testing subsequently identified as chromosomally normal.
The 6 euploid embryos all came from this 3rd cycle.
If we hadn’t had the frosties tested, we’d have had 4 failed FET or more miscarriages - and I don’t know if we would have had the emotional strength to carry on.
We don't know if any of our 6 euploid embryos will turn into a take home baby - but we do know our chances would have been nil if we hadn't done this third round. And that thanks to PGS, we are still very much in the game.
Unfortunately the transfer side is rather more tricky. We now know that the embryo we transferred last time was genetically normal - and that the miscarriage was due to the soil, not the seed.
We were hoping that because I’d grown all this fantastic lining, I’d have a proper period and a much needed clear out (as I hadn’t had a bleed since October, and hysteroscopy showed there was still some old blood from the pregnancy)
Unfortunately, nearly 3 weeks post EC and no period, my Dr got me in for bloods and a scan
Hormones were all normal, progesterone was low so basically the 2 days of black clots I had at 14/15 days post EC was my period. Scan showed no thickened lining, but visible 8mm old blood clot, so Dr is equally frustrated as my uterus just doesn't seem to want to give stuff up.
He thinks the lining I grew this cycle was probably not good quality, as he's concerned about the blood flow if I've only had a clotty bleed. So we're back to needing a good clear out first before we can start a FET
Sigh.
Plan A is a week of Provera to try and induce a bleed (last pill tomorrow, so Weds onwards I’ll be on knicker watch)
I’m booked in for a HyCoSy in a weeks time (which we will cancel if by some miracle the Provera works) to have a clearer look at the uterine cavity before we start
Plan B - a month of cyclo-progynova (ie an HRT cycle),where we build fresh lining up with oestrogen and then try to have a withdrawal bleed off that.
Plan C is another hysteroscopy, but he's keen to avoid another op.
It's just really sad. The uterine artery blood flow was terrific. The thrombophilia tests showed no evidence of any underlying clotting disorders. But we don't know why I'm just clotting and not having bleeds.
We have 6 perfect embryos but no idea when we might be able to even start a FET, as there’s no point putting anything back until we’re as confident as we can be in the quality of the endometrium
I’m just so so scared of miscarrying another healthy baby 
waiting big hugs, I know we’ve been chatting but just wanted to send you extra love and strength, we are all here for you and have everything crossable crossed for you