Scintillating one, you are a strong and brave mule and for what it's worth, some stranger is proud of how well you're sticking to it.
You saw today that the cigarettes are NOT the tool which gets you through tricky situations. Possible dead dog on hands is not funny, and would have stressed you out immensely. You DIDN'T turn to the fags, so now you KNOW you don't need them as a crutch in any stressful situation or just because you may have a more stressful life than many others.
Good on you.
Stinky Minky: your dh doesn't have the heart to be tough to you ? To straight talk with you about what you do ? Dear me.
Allow me. Please.
Hey, maybe there's something there he likes: the smoke blowing in his face, or the fact that you are vulnerable to an addiction (hence not perfect, also hence need protecting / looking after, or maybe it's that dark edgy femme fatale thing - tough pyscho chick like in the flicks ?). I dunno. I'm no shrink. But from my scant knowledge, it's not doing your health any good at all and probably setting a terribly irresponsible example to any kids you might have.
Seriously, smelling that shite in your hair is disgusting, and tasting it in your mouth when you kiss is gross. And that smell on your skin lingers despite washing, and your nails and teeth might also be a little mingin'.
I'm relieved my rather fierce rant earlier would have angered you / others, and it wasn't meant to abuse / insult, but to try and reinforce some of the reasons you may want to become a non-smoker - cos as far as I'm concerned, I can't see many positives.
Perhaps it's sweet your dh is not giving you permanent grief for your fags, you'd accuse him of being an nag otherwise, but purlease, find it in you to sort this addiction out.
You're reading how sparkly is coping with it, and she's doing pretty bloody well as far as I can see with some headaches and not a lot else. Is she any different / stronger / more determined than you ???