desperate fag quitter! Anyone similar, fancy mutual support group?!

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To my shame it's about my 167th attempt to quit fags... anyone out there trying the same who would like to start a support thingie here where we can rant and vent our frustrations and praise each other? I'm starting tomorrow...

The party was fine thanks mink, helped to organise it with a friend for 22 kids to cheer them up through all this torrential rain - a kinda end of summer hols do (in scotland our kids go back to school on tue!) So too busy to think about fags...

Am now getting really weird hot sweaty thing. Also woke up in night and dh remarked that I was drenched with sweat. Sheets and pillow soaking, literally drenched with toxins. Niiiice!

mink - what's really helping me is envisaging this fag free, gazelle like creature (haha) running a half marathon with my best pal next spring... sure you can't get out for a run or two a week, might make you feel so much better... but I do know that sometimes things just really are impossible, there really isn't the time, and when people push things, it's just ruddy annoying.

poor charlie - c getting horrible cravings again... am sure it'll pass, just hang on it there! This might be psychological but am starting to feel less polluted already.

Good luck mm and cc... this is really saving my bacon, talking to you. We've done day 3 yey!! xx

Excellent girls, arent we doing well?!
Im looking to the future as well thinking I wont be dreading going to nursery and having to spend 4 hours without a fag, I will go and feel proud that ive finally stopped
Hope your ds copes ok with his jab MM and you cope with the after effects, which are iirc are screaming and hot temperature arent they? Poor both of you.
FG I feel less polluted too, I woke up with the greasy face this morning and my temperature seems to be up and down a lot, sweating then chilly...must be the body adjusting.
Going to pour myself a vodka when the kids have gone to bed. I deserve it!

Fg you're not being annoying at all! I find it quite inspiring thinking about the running and perhaps after the next couple of weekends are out of the way (busy), I might try again. Although this means looking for my running trainers and I haven't a clue where they are. Do you think 3 days off the puff warrant a new pair

DS2 didn't take too kindly to the polio juice and kept looking at me and the nurse as if to say 'what the hell have to put into my mouth?!!' He thought that was bad, but then we stuck the needles into him and i think you could hear him from the other end of the road!! Luckily he appears to be okay now, in bed and fed some Calpol.

HOW FUNNY about the sweats! I wasn't aware of that side effect and last night I was drenched! My chest feels less congested and I feel as though I have more energy. Fantastic.

I will join you CC and have a glass of something evil, not sure what I have, but you're right, we definitely deserve it. Chin chin

Hope you get an ok night after the jab mink, like you two am gonna pour myself a big glass of something, white wine prob, have a bath then do a late shift in front of pc (work not pleasure sadly).

DD has been billion times more trying than usual and when I tell dh he looks at me as if to say: hmmm, this couldn't be anything to do with you not smoking, could it? I really don't think it is! Bugger, it probably is tho... I hate that - it's like when men say, 'Are you premenstrual?' and you yell: NO AM BL@@DY NOT!!

cc your nusery comment made me thing of the blimmin rigmarole I'd have to go through before picking up dd from her nursery - having last fag of the afternoon, then brushing teeth, checking breath, breathing deeply in and out on short walk to nursery so the teachers didn't whiff me and think ew!

What a palava. Am getting hint of 'we're free!' in typical allan car style...

Seriously am vv proud of all of us and think you def need new running shopes mink if your old ones are lost. Maybe there's a 10k you could train for??? Did you do races when you were running before? I don't like the training massively but I do love the races, something to work for...

Cor i had a moment earlier, dps fags were on the kitchen table, as id been frantically cleaning earlier they were the only thing ON THE TABLE>>>> and I picked them up and thought Just one>>>but thank god my IDOWANTTOSTOP brain kicked in and I chucked them back down and came and folded some clothes. Very close call but feel ok now.
Its like a rollercoaster of ups and downs i feel, do either of you?
I have 2 mails, im just going to read them now.
I survived and that will be oh 62+ hours now???? quick probably wrong calculation!

Wow, well done CC!! I'm not sure i would have avoided that kind of temptation. I probably forgot that your DP was a smoker, so double well done for tackling THAT If you can manage that after just 3 days, then it can only get easier.

Oh FG, I'm no way as big a runner as you. I just did it for the usual lose weight reason, but then found it enjoyable. Never did any races though, not sure i would be that confident. I was always a slow coach at school because of my teeny (short, not slim I hasten to add) legs - am only 5'2". I DO like the whole stamina run though; I find that once you get past the initial 'pain', then the high of doing a long run is actually one of the best things (also need to mention that a long run is in my experience, a v. slow jog for 40 mins ).

oh and btw CC, I also did A LOT of clothes folding .

Night night ladies!

Well done CC! Was the big SMOKING KILLS sticker on the packet flashing at you as you glimpsed it? My dh's was - he's carelessly leaving packets of fags all over the house...

still working here at pc... no desire for one right at the mo (my v worst time is about 4 pm till the kids go to bed, around 9 pm. A mere 5 hours of hell!!)

Minkmama, I am so non sporty. Am 5 foot 3, with biggish butt, and could only run 45 mins at a slow jog when a friend forced me to enter a 10k run, in glasgow (women's 10k, 12,000 people entered!) which I did in just over an hour - having all those people around you and the brilliant atmosphere seems to 'carry' you further than you've ever run in your life. I was sick with nerves the whole week before it, honestly thought I'd be stretchered off or at least would have to walk some of it, and it was one of the most exhilerating things I ever did.

Will stop banging on about running now! Oh, except to say that now after my fagging it up all summer and doing bugger all running I can now manage only 20 mins...

gotta build up slowly I suppose... cc and mm, are you getting lots of encouragement re not smoking from friends and partners?

Off for bath... night night

Morning girls! Think I was dreaming about them last night.
Going out this morning so im pleased about that as it means ive only time ofr 10 mins on here a coffee and a bath.
No support here, my best friend asks once a day, you had any fags, she must really care as everyone else is sssssooooo used to me trying and failing they dont even mention it anymore, but thats a good thing really, as I can wait to say I havent had a fag for 3 months and you havent even noticed.
When dp comes in I just say No Fags and he says well done and lights one up lol. Are you getting any support from anyone?
I will be taking my bike out when my lungs have recovered a bit more, I prefer cycling to running, well never ran im my life really, its my prefered choice.
Lungs feeling fresh and decongested now...wwwohhhhoooooooo!

Morning cc and mm! You sound in good spirits cc - me too, am feeling more energetic, less poisoned, and (the biggie for me) less furtive and ashamed of myself and my general stinkiness.

Not much support around here - my dh just says a brief 'well done' too, when he gets home, then fags it up in the yard, same story as you tho - he (and everyone) is sick to the teeth of me being on and off fags so am gonna just keep it quiet until I'm that clean-lunged gazelle, streaking ahead at the great western run in may!!

Cycling sounds like a good idea, I have knackered old bike that I haven't touched since having kids seven years ago... we live in the country & there's lovely places to cycle so no excuse really..

You know what's funny this time, maybe cos I have you folks to talk so, am less inclined to cram food into my god every minute of the delay to replace fags. So big thank you...

am taking kids to mum's this eve and may stay a day or two so please don't think I've fallen back into an ashtray if I don't manage to post until weekend... promise I won't crack!

Good luck over next coupla days... hey, we'll be a nearly a week of fags by then! xx

Everyone sounds really chipper this morning, it's great!

You guys have the worst end of the deal as my DH doesn't smoke and never has. However he and my sister (who's staying with me at the mo) didn't even realise I'd come off completely and assumed I'd been having a sneaky one when they weren't looking. DH was really nice last night when he did realise.

My mum and dad smoke and they're coming tonight for a few nights, so that'll be hard. Pray hard for me!!

Hope you have a good time at your mum's fg!

Good Luck MM for tonight, how do you feel about your parents smoking? My dad died of lung cancer, I wasnt close to him though, but my mums always smoked and I hate it. I just think how stupid she is, I remember when my nephew was born and we were being taught at school how bad it was and all the family used to sit with him with a fag in thier hands and i was 10-11 and id say Can you not hold him when your smoking, its really bad for you and him. And noone would listen, and id burn with frustration...strangely didnt stop me from developing the same habit though.
My mum hides from me to smoke and comes back in coughing she stopped with me for my first attempt...that lasted 101 days for her and about 120 for me. She didnt miss them, neither did I actually, but ask her now and youdd think shedd had the most dreadful 101 days of her life!
Anyway, havent been able to think of much else today, except when i was occupied in a bookshop, but not in a id love to smoke one way, more in a im so sick of thinking about them but cant stop way.
How are you? FGs gone to get some coastal air, lucky thing!

Hi CC,
They haven't arrived yet and luckily they'll be doing the pongy bin smoke so i'll be able to avoid them (at night anyway). I also used to hate smoking as a teenager. Actually started when I was 18 which is a bit strange since you're supposed to know better by then. I get on really well with mum and dad so it's quite hard to watch them now in their early retirement and still puffing away. Had hoped they'd have an epiphany and realise the benefits of starting a new life together, but alas not yet.

To be fair, they have just sold their house which is traumatic at the best of times and are living in limbo between my aunt's and mine before they return to Thailand.

Fat chance my mum EVER giving up though. Dad's been an on/off giver-upper, so there may be hope.

Parents eh, much more difficult to look after than kids

Hi again, I guess your parents have arrived by now, I hope your not out at the wheelie bin with them!!!
Yes, my mums one of those people who would let in a couple of conmen and they would rob her blind and she would be like "oh they seemed so nice"...and since shes twice my age its hard to say, Mum you should be careful lol! Parents often are harder than the kiddies.
Had a long but ok day here, fancied a few but managed to tell myself not to be silly, I dont really, and I certainly dont want to go back to square one again.
Still feeling gunge free which is good, well see how I am in the morning!
My little sis started when she was 17, she was 21 and struggling up hills and of course I was saying I told you so...after discovering Allen Carr I told her she had a week to open her mind, i dropped the video through her door and she watched it that night and hasnt had a fag since.
Lucky cow, I have felt sssssoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ashamed when shes came round here and shes clean and gunk free and im sitting with my baccy rolling a fag. EEWWW! Theraputic this thread is, my life story will be here by the end of it!
Wonder how Fionas getting on?

They're here now and i sat outside with them (not by the bin, but in a civilised manner on the garden furniture) whilst they had a fag and coffee. Did I buckle....NO!! Had my tea and cake and then ran inside for my suck. Did spend most of the conversation eyeing up the packet though and am actually slobbering at the thought of it this minute .

You know, I've actually lost count of how many days...this is the best sign ever!!! Fiona's probably fantastic, can you imagine that lovely fresh air in our now semi-clean lungs? Not quite like muggy Surrey air

Glad to know you had a successful day, you certainly started it in the right frame of mind Allen Have a good night, check in with you tomorrow!

Morning CC (STF are you still there?)! Have a chance to go on machine today cos mum and dad are looking after DS1 and DS2 is sleeping.

Just wanted to wish you a good day - what are you up to?

Hi MM, it was my 2nd thought today, not my first which was good. Glad you were civalised while your parents hovered round the bin, you must feel smug at these times!
Enjoy your babysitting service today!
I am going to have a great day going shopping for...wait for it...kiddies toothpaste and some toothbrushes..such fun.
If it doesnt rain I will take the girls to the park.
Your doing very well with 2 people around smoking and a packet nearby. Keep it up.
Youve got to remember thats not REALLY what you want to be doing, yes one would be nice but it never just is one, and if you had one youdd be straight back to a pack a day and youdd have to go back through all this again. RAAAAHHHHH.
I feel this time, like this is the one, the one where I wont balls it up. Very positive, even when my jaws are clenched together, I get the idea we all do, must be the support group factor!
Oh yes, ebay-addicted, have feedback of 541. Love it!

541?!!! Jesus, that's not addicted, that's doing business I've only got about 12!

I'm off now to go shopping (again), so speak to you later. Might be a while because I've also got to paint the skirting boards, make chicken fajitas and go out and see Spiderman 2.

Have a great day!

OMG Im getting cannot find server for Ebay HHEEELLLPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have sold 3 big lots of tat on free listing days and ive usually got 1 or 2 things selling at any given time. ive actually ran out of things now which is quite gutting, trying to urge the kids to grow so I can flog thier clothes! Still cannot find server. Might mean Ill have to do some more housework!

Its friday the 13th isnt it, my brain has been arguing with its self for the past 90 mins about having a fag...its very annoying and i wish it would just GET OVER IT. The strange thing is, this is my brain, but I dont seem to have any control over my own thoughts its just dominating me today.
Madness setting in I think.
I sat out in the rain having a coffee, because as not nipping outside everyhalf hour for a fag I feel a bit suffocated in the house.
Shopping for toothbrushes has been delayed as my mums waiting for a parcel and I was going with her so Im having a clear out behind shelfs etc.
Feel better for writing that down, going back to sh*t shifting now in my living room!
Hope you have a nice day out, going to the cinemas good when you dont smoke, you dont have to miss 10 minutes while you go for a fag!

Didnt feel so bad after ranting on here....talking to myself but never mind!

Hi CC, am back now, sorry I wasn't around for your steam letting off . Hope you're feeling much better now. You've done well, it's so much harder to stay off when you're at home, don't you find? Mum is having a fag outside now, which was quite tempting, but I stuck a lozenge in my mouth instead. It's all wet outside so it's nice to think that I don't have to shove myself outside with all the gunk and night spiders. When I was smoking, I used to get caught in their webs which was quite disturbing and made me puff more

There were lots of kids out watching Spiderman which didn't finish till nearly 11pm. Is that normal? I don't know because my two are still so young.

I'm actually finding it quite hard at the minute. No particular reason, just missing a nice relaxing 10 mins on my own. I guess things were pretty hectic today so that's why. DEEP BREATHS....

How are you doing?

Horror at the spiders! No idea about the cinema, the last time I went was a Sunday morning to go and see Rugrats, or was it Wild Thornberrys.
I was so glad to see you had added to the thread, I got out of bed to check one last time lol!!!!
It seems to go in waves the ok/not ok stages doesnt it? You will get through it, so will I, there is no point in us going back to the weed, we want to stop and we have so theres NO GOING BACK!
Takes your 10 mins peace outside with a cool drink, or a coffee, take the newspaper with you, suck in fresh air and be proud! Well maybe not now its after midnight but sometime tommorow!
Yes worse at home when youve been in ALL DAY and its 10 past 3 and your thinking my gawd.....still got hours till bedtime

Ha ha, I thought I was the only one counting the hours My sister's been staying with me recently, so the day goes a bit quicker, but on my own those luls whilst the boys are asleep are damn hard!

I think I will wait until a.m. to go outside as I seem to have every specie of spider known to man here. Yuk! (Although Spiderman is quite cute - is it weird to find a man in spandex sexy?!!!)

Morning! Again wasnt my first thought and im hoping for a better day than yesterday, given that I couldnt shake it off and it was overtaking my whole mind.
Spandex and Sexy...mmm yes very odd, you poor woman you!!!
We have big monster spiders here, there was one the size of my fist crawling out of one of the girls sleeping bags and thankfully dp came and got it. I used to scream and they used to give me a fright but ive got so used to it now I dont. Cant leave them in the house though they must be chucked out the front door with a bang to say good riddence!
Wondering how Fiona is again.
Meant to be a nice day and this is dps first day off, wonder what we will get up to today, will let you know later xx

Morning! Neither DH nor I are any good with spiders - DH is marginally better and will get rid of them but boy do we know about it. He's a bit of a squeeler

Did you say your DP is on 2 wk holiday now or am I making it up? I love the first day of DH's holiday, so much promise of stuff to do and even if you don't end up doing anything, it's a BIG change from endless days on your own. At least there's another adult to talk to.

I don't have any friends around here bar one across the road who has a DD, so it gets quite lonely sometimes. Fortunately I'm so busy now with 2 that I don't really think about it. I just feel like my brain is slowly fizzling away...

Not a bad start today, did have a craving due to parents and morning coffee (which is worse when i brew fresh stuff).

Hope you have a great first day with DP!

P.s. DH doesn't wear spandex, so you can rest your imagine