desperate fag quitter! Anyone similar, fancy mutual support group?!

[fionagib]

To my shame it's about my 167th attempt to quit fags... anyone out there trying the same who would like to start a support thingie here where we can rant and vent our frustrations and praise each other? I'm starting tomorrow...

Bonusprint is a shop in my town, I went in and asked and you can also burn 50 to disk and they will do it like that.
In jessops its 6.99 for 50...
Must dash, dreadful backache and i cant sit here anylonger...

Thanks for doing that cc, it's a hell of a lot cheaper than boots!! off for a shower...

mm your reasons for giving up are so identical to mine it's spooky - and one thing you said really digs in my mind - I am sick of putting my kids second to a cigarette.

cc you're probably dealing with a teeny trickle of nicotine - a few days and it'll be out of your system. I do hear what you're saying about having a few days of guilt free smoking but I would really like to make a proper attempt tomorrow as this race is looming on sunday and I KNOW i can't just have the odd one. It's all or nothing. I have to remind myself what you're always saying - THAT FAGS DO NOTHING FOR YOU!! I have your oils, mm, which help massively, loads of work to take my mind off it, kids fine, no major stresses...

I'm going to do it tomorrow. If I don't I am gonna stop myselrf from coming on here and I'd really miss you both

I do remember the kids being little and clattering on the keys when I was trying to type!!

cc - you have been caught on cctv with your funny neck & shoulder postures!!

when I am jittery and withdrawing tomorrow I am gonna read mm's reasons for quitting and think YES!

As for work hours dh is out from 7.30 till 7 every week day, not a job he loves (computing...)

My secret mantra: 'I am running fast and strong!' (as suggested by author of a how to run a marathon book) and also - 'smoke and you have to leave the thread, dumbo!!!'

feel a bit self obsessed girls, so sorry, pls excuse rant...

speak tomorrow xxxx

well first of all you can't leave since you started this and since you can't leave, you can't smoke

it's not a pretty sight when you're sitting/standing there waving the damaging smoke away from your little ones and the idea that i put my cravings ahead of their health was something that made me feel quite crap. i'm glad you made us do this cc as it has abolished any craving i had today, remembering my little maxi's face, so innocent and playing around me then wanting a cuddle or something and me saying 'no, wait till mummy's finished this'...terrible isn't it?

anyhow, on a lighter note, I CANNOT BELIEVE IT IS THIS SUNDAY!!! you must be really excited, we'll be thinking of you.

night night, see you tomorrow x

This is going to very self indulged...went to bed at 9.30 great, fell asleep, woke up at 10.45...couldnt get to sleep till.......2.30ish am...at 3.10 Tanya trots into the bedroom saying something about a spider web and she wasnt getting back into bed OMG my eyeballs are falling out. How typical is that??????
Thankfully my neighbour banged me out of bed..one good thing, at somepoint I realised for all those hours laying in bed I hadnt been laying there thinking about fags.
Fiona Ill be cheering for you from down here, Ricki Lake Style, Go Fiona, Go Fiona!!!!
I used to park the kids on a bench or wherever when we were waiting for trains and then leave them sitting there bewildered while I got 3 metres away to smoke out of thier way....totally normal behaviour eventually.
The station bloke did a bomb alert once when I did it, id left the kids surrounded by tescos carrier bags and wandered a few feet away and he said would all people stand beside thier luggage, I must stress any unattended bags will be destroyed..an I thought ffs...Im having a fag out of the way of my kids...and he was looking right at me...GGGRRRRRRR

morning girls - sorry you had such a crappy might cc, bet your eyes feel like sandpaper. I really relate to the way you say 'bewildered' re your girls on the bench while you chuffed a fag, know exactly what you mean - how small and foolish and cruddy those moments can make us feel. I once put erin on a huge old fashioned roundabout in edinburgh (so I could smoke) and was chuffing like mad when she was out of sight, then every time she came around on her big golden horse, a huge smile on her face, it was fag behind back, big smiley mummy wave - pathetic!!!

Thank you for your kind words yesterday mm! How were things with your in laws, did you have a good time? Hope you were chuffed with yourself for not having to sneak off & puff & coming back in paranoid about smelling faggy...

Feel good & motivated today. Have emptied ashtrays into outside bin, cleared up brekky debris, got ruddy car tax disc, etc etc, now sat down to start work... deep breath, 'mood swings' oil slathered on, race on sunday, orange gazelle, clean lungs, mm and cc to banter with...

LIFE IS GOOD!!!!

MY NAME IS FIONAGIB AND I AM A NON SMOKER

have a good day girls xxx

Hope your doing ok FG......Its Sunday soon you will need your lungs clean for that!
Im rattling along here....I want to free of thoughts of cigarettes, but like every attempt before my brain is really comsumed by ...fags...not burning desires to smoke, just a havent quite forgot and always in my mind lingering on way.
Just reread that. I lucky to be free of cigarettes. I will stop whinging now!!!!!!!!!
MM have you booked yourself into all the Mother and Toddler groups at out insistence???!!!!
I used to go to something called Hop Skip and Jump and all the mummys and little ones sat round in a circle singing songs and clapping hands and the babys in rockers were plonked next to mummy mesmerised. Then there was a 20 min supervised play session and thats when mummys got 5 mins to chat when the kids were in the ball bit. It was from 9m-3.5years.
Does that sound better than your standard MandT where noone knows where their kids are and your is being bullied by the ugly snot infested one???!!!
Actually, sounds like an hour of torture written down!
Have you tracked any more sales of oils by any other Ebayers btw?

OMG, what a sh@t afternoon. Started at lunch when DS1 decided not eat. i think i mentioned before that he was always an erratic eater and anytime he has a meal is a Godsend. He's been really good lately, but just recently since yesterday, he's been striking at lunch. The in-laws are coming tomorrow or Sat and i got really stressed about his not eating as i know they worry about it and his eczema and you know the well-meant suggestions you get, well i can't be doing with that right now. he ended up eating something tho not much. then..tried to hoover downstairs and he messed up everything i tidied and then went upstairs and emptied out ds2's clothes into the dirty laundry basket. now, he's not napping and i'm exhausted.

during all the havoc, ds2 was screaming and that just added to my then numb head that i needed a fag. was determined to go out to hte shops to buy some and couldn't care less. was debating in my head, kept remembering what i'd said to you about contractions and hills and kept telling myself it would pass. it did. although i am now physically and mentally shattered, i have managed to avoid a horrendous afternoon of screaming and all sorts. if i can get through this, then i should be able to get through anything! please pray that the in-laws don't start on this weekend, because if they do,i'll get depressed and cry and you know what that leads to! i make them sound horrible, they're not, they're the best and i think that's what makes it worse.

Sorry girls, v. long rant, wouldn't blame you if you didn't come back till this evening!

cc - i did look at some oils but none of them really sold. miscalculated my profit margin can sell them for less after all. oh and got my materials, just waiting for labels and we're off!

Cant stop but big hugs MM well done for getting throughxx

Well done you supreme mistress of willpower, mm! Do sympathise with the eating thing, and feeling like you're on show in front of the in laws - it can make you feel quite exposed can't it - at least I used to feel that (still do, at times like when the boys trashed my mum's flower bed which she had grown from seed!!)

Please don't stress about it mm. Imagine it can be awful when he won't touch his food - a friend of mine had a little girl who ate virtually nothing from about 18 months to 3 or 4, just teeny snacks through the day, then gradually the situation improved - but during one v bad moment my friend ripped the high chair tray off the high chair and flung it across the room!

Our children's eating can be so emotive can't it. Absolutely draining. So horrible when these things happen in front of family too - when my boys went through a terrible barly eating phase my mum used to say, You never did that! You always cleared your plate!!

grrrrrrrrr....

anyway great that even tho you had the internal debate you stayed strong!

how was your day cc? Feeling less vulnerable I hope...

have had a good productive work day today and am doing a lot of the tortoise neck movements, snacking bit too much on hummous etc, but apart from that, not too bad.

I AM FIONAGIB AND I AM A NON SMOKER.

Gazelle! Oils! Lungs! No telling kids to go away till the fag is finished!

Poor MM, sounds like you had a dreadful day....I know just how you feel, my dd was a dreadful eater and if she had 4 mouthfuls of something at a meal it was A Job Well Done.
I ended up leaving little plates with bits and bobs on it, cheese, cracker, cucumber etc and she could nibble at her leisure. At least then you would know hed had something

Those well meaning comments OMG...Dont I know, when I dropped dd2 off at my mums the other week to go to Thorpe Park i thought I was going to get a mouthful as she was covered in that rash but I KNEW there was nothing I could do about it....but I was waiting for the "I would never leave my kids if they looked like that...have you seen her...poor little thing...rah rah..."

You know your doing your best, let them drop hints and suggest other things for your ds just hum and hah and nod in agreement so they feel they have done thier bit and then forget it!!

Do your in laws smoke?
Your house is like a hotel! Do you go visiting all these people in return for free b and b???!!!

Fiona...I was beaten up a hill and along a straight by a runner whenI was peddling my hardest on my bike....HOW EMBARRASING
I felt like shouting, Ive not long stopped smoking...ill beat you next time!

Nearly a month girls!!!!

Think pc has a virus, pressed this to send and it came up a different page...oh no!!!...

Okay, i'm sorry girls, you know what's coming next...had 2 of those wicked sticks at dinnertime well, you know what my 'excuse' was, so i don't need to dwell on it. the good news is that i didn't enjoy them at all. the first one tasted like an ashtray and i didn't even get that high feeling! Perhaps it's been too long. the second was the usual 'need to have a second one' and even that wasn't nice, so i'm not missing them anymore. i'm glad in a way that i did this because my fantasised memory was that i actually enjoyed them, but now i realise that that's not def the case. and since i was in dire need and they still did nothing, well that's a good memory to think about from now on.

ho hum what a day. ds1 continued to be demanding and i ended up cleaning the kitchen at 11pm and am absolutely wasted now.

cc, my parents stay with us whenever they come since they're homeless until they leave for Thailand, and DH's family book a place nearby cos there are too many of them! and they're non-smokers so i have to hide my nicontinells away tomorrow and pretend that i'm sucking mints or something! good news is that we'll be able to go to the cinema on Sat.

Sorry for my rants and tremendous posts, but at least it all came to a head and now i'm fine. Thanks so much for your kind words, it made a real difference. all i thought about in those hours was you two!!

OMG...youve probably smoked the packet now with all our support in a big deafning silence!!!!
Are you ok this morning? Its sort of good that you now have it firmly locked in your head that it does nothing for you, and even when you do have one its not that nice anyway.
I have had nearly a joint a night for the last week and I feel as if I am cheating...I know I am so we have all failed along the line but we all still have the same focus which is to give them up for good.
Hope you got a good nights sleep, not sure how possible that is with 2 little uns, but I hope you did. xx
And how are you FG?
P.S any smokers peeking in with half a thought to join will go elsewhere doing great arent we lol!!!

Doing gret sitting here with a lightly done herbal and ive gave the last bit to my neighbour.....

mm please don't give yourself a hard time for this. Looks at all my blips lately. Think cc made a good point when she said all we're doing is feeding mr nicotine - maybe you're having a few ithcy scratchy moments today? But please just put it behind you, big breaths, and congratulate yourself on the fact that it was a teeny blip-ette - 2 fags, 5 fags, whatever, rather than the TWO HUNDRED (three weeks, average 10 a day - is that what you were on before?) you would have had if you hadn't quit.

That's 200 fags you've managed to resist!

Am only on day two today (having cracked that night I slapped the shower cubicle with a towel) so let's get our heads straight & do this!!

As you say they tasted pretty horrible & didn't improve a damn thing. They didn't even tidy the kitchen.

how are you today cc? At least you were out on your bike! Hills are hellish on bikes aren't they. It's easier to run than cycle up a hill, really!

mm hope things are much rosier today...

speak later tonight girls - will pop in for catch up before dh cooks me prawn curry with loads of spices to zing away cravings... xxxx our 'friday' date - but can't get too piddled due to sunday's race...

I AM FIONAGIB AND I AM A NON SMOKER we will be free of the weed!!!!!!

Hi there, okay had 1 last one this morning and have ordered (something i clearly like ot do) DH to keep them away from me. This morning's one was slightly enjoyable due to it being my ex-fav of the day with coffee and sun shining. last night the nasty spider population in my garden v. much affected my 'enjoyment' which is no bad thing, imagine having to shiver outside come winter with those creatures, which by the way look like they've come from a film, they're all stripey and fat!!

Thank you fg for reminding me about the hundreds i didn't smoke, i felt awful for wanting and giving in (but obviously not that awful ) but like you say, let's re-focus and do this!! i think we've all done really well when you think about how we would have been puffing away unhappily for ages and now okay, we've had a 'few' but at least our minds are in the right order.

Stayed up till 3.30am (!) last night on computer and dh let me sleep in till 12 He's the devil who went and got them for me at 8.30 because he saw my desperate/angry face and felt v. sorry for me. described my failings as 'dessert'!

Feeling much better now tho, still a little tired in the head after such a tiring yester-day. Now just waiting for in-laws to arrive.

CC, can you get hold of the grassy stuff, then you could smoke without the nicotine? might help?

btw, i LOL when i read about the towel/shower incident and also your friend's tray throwing...have def. been that frustrated. am swearing quite a bit more lately too, by the end of the week ds1 will have mastered the f word!!! you look so gentile in your photo, we should send ourselves 'angry' photos so that we can see what we REALLLY look like

Hello folks, hot today it really is...dd2 is knackered and crying over every little thing and dd1 is moping about.
MM Not often we get the grassy stuff, the thing is, its not often I do smoke it, its my excuse for puffing away, no doubt about it. the thought of it, not wrapped up with some baccy, is not appealing at all!!!!!!! All gone now though. now I have no excuse.
FG, even on the straight the bloke was speeding ahead...no hope for me! My whole body went red with the efoort and didnt go back to normal for a good hour!
I swear like a trooper when the nicotine is dangling on fighting for life...

Right my reasons for no smoking are:
I would like to get out of bed in the morning with no desire to sit on the back door step smoking, as when I do sit at the back door smoking i cant help but feel incredibilty stupid and starting the day like that is depressing.
I would like to regain my lungs, for walking the kids to school and everywhere else without feeling the groans of my lungs, even at the thought.
I would like to stop smoking, as I wouldnt have a leg to stand on when my girls are teenagers if I was standing there with a fag telling them it will be the biggest mistake of thier lifes if they experiment with a fag.
I want to stop smoking, just because i have been trying for 2+ years now and I know I can do it.
And so can you two......breathe in...breathe out....I am Charliecat and I dont smoke anymorexx

Well im still hanging on in here.....

juts a quickie folks, hope you survived the heat cc!

and mm am so glad you're shoving this blip behind you & are still in the quitting gang... we'll get there girls! Fri night - my big weekly test - am feeling pretty optimistic... as long as dh bring LOADS of lovely food home

I want to feel in control of my life instead of being controlled by nicotine!

yeah cc - sitting on step - feels so crap doesn't it... we never have to do that again xx

Fiona, you will be fine tonight, a fag is going to depress you, and taste like shit, so dont dwell on it...enjoy your food, gulp mouthfuls of FRESH air and tell yourself you are a gogeous gazelle...
Im huffing and puffing here feeling a bit rattly, all caused by my 10am puff I suspect.

Morning anyone around?

This threads on the home page girls.... dont go all quiet on me!!!!!!!!!

Morning

2 days to go for me then I'll be joining you .

What I will do tomorrow night is list all my reasons for wanting to stop this horrible disgusting habit so that I can look back and remind myself as even though I'm taking zyban it is going to be far from easy to stop

I also have a pic of me that I cannot stand with a fag hanging out my mouth, and I'm thinking of printing it off and sticking it on the fridge so I can see how disgusting I look!

Even though you have all had some minor blips, I think you are all doing extremely well! Keep it up and I shall be back tomorrow night