really This is a supportive thread where people can come to share experiences and information, vent their feelings and know they will find empathy and understanding, above all support. It is a great resource for women (and occasionally men) going through this horrible experience to come here and discover they are not alone, there is a land of the new normal, and a virtual tea trolley, where they can find reassurance.
I am sorry if you feel you are being doubted, this is a place for trust not doubt, but if you have a problem with anyone highlighting that your experience has been exceptional and really unacceptable then you are being oversensitive. I am not surprised, to have gone through what you have gone through would take someone with a will of iron not to be traumatised and to be struggling to cope. I remember after my infection on my second cycle my usual onc was away and I got the grumpy wonky onc who made me feel as if my wbc being so low again was a major problem with treatment and I was responsible for it. I went away feeling that I should organise my funeral then and there and I wept buckets. That was just one slight and isolated failure to provide support, but you are very vulnerable. I can't imagine what state I would be in if I had had my confidence and trust undermined again and again. However I am sure you will agree that it is important that the new people coming on here know that the sum of all your awful experiences is very very unusual, contemplating having to face even a fraction of it on top of Cancer will be distressing.
I would also say that if you are feeling very sensitive and struggling with mood and other issues, and can't find a way through with other coping strategies, there are plenty on here who can vouch for how important it is to get help from the doctor. A lot of us have had Counselling or temporary help with medication to help us get through those low points.