Tamoxigang thread 49 when Sumer is y cumen in and we get out the Pimms

[Lilymaid]

New thread!

If you can't knit,you can donate wool for others to do so!

Oh, how would I do that?

I can knit. What do I have to do?

I can't knit but would like to donate...how?

Hi wee I would like to knit a square, is there a thread you can link to, that gives the info.
nelson no scar or blue dye here, either, again mine was done at the same time as my BMX, and was still blooming painful afterwards.
mrs partly cast iron stomach but mostly absolute fear of vomiting, because it hurts so much, because of afore mentioned cast iron stomach, so they put me on strong meds from the start. I do feel a little nauseous in the morning for about 5 mins but that has been it. Was given a packet of pills to take (on top of stronger stuff) for any time I feel at all sick during the whole cycle, did take 2 last time, but only as I was going out to lunch and had a tiny bit of nausea. I might be lucky, might be the meds, or a combination.

Here's a link to the Woolly Hugs thread for knittingnovice:

www.mumsnet.com/Talk/_chat/2130270-Woolly-Hugs-A-Blanket-for-the-very-lovely-Knittingnovice-crafters-and-donors-we-need-your-help

Thanks Zombie, not quite worked out how to post links. I do hope you are being good !
We fly home tomorrow,have had a great holiday, baby barra is nearly walking.

wee! Zombie is always good! Well, some of the time at least.

Energy levels are starting to plummet. I expect the Tax truck to hit tomorrow. Then I will have no choice but to behave.

Hello new & old just wanted to drop in.

It's been a busy week, also done 10 rads wine and so far skin is a little pink but okay otherwise

Talking about funerals - while I was having rads today I was listening to a song which I thought I would like at mine.

Nelson, as Wee says they can (no idea how) remove the nodes through the incision for the mastectomy. Clever stuff. I didn't have an extra scar for my node clearance when I had my mastectomy.

I love the idea of the happy book, Speedy. It's also more cheery than the bit of funeral planning I can't let go of which is to hoard all the cards the children have made me so that I can take them with me. Bit weepy making, but we've had quite a bit of sad loss in our family over the past three years and cards in the coffin have been important to my children.

Wee the squares are lovely idea; I wish I could knit.

Hi all, just checking in before another (mainly sleepless I expect) night of worrying

Went to the zoo today with the DC and my mum which took my mind off it for about 4 hours, but then I sort of collapsed and went home. My nurse called this evening at about 7.30pm bless her, she is being so amazingly supportive, I feel like I will do literally anything she tells me at this point. Hoping to get through the weekend alright, fighting fit for more tests next week. 12 more days til I get my full diagnosis and treatment plan - seems like a bloody lifetime at the moment

Hi elporto, as others have said I've found the waiting between each appointment difficult, particularly when we were waiting to find out the treatment plan. It does get easier and I've now accepted that this is a process with different stages to go through - I focus on getting through the next step and try not to think too far ahead.

The good news for us is that we've booked a holiday - just a week in Spain but a change of scenery and some guaranteed sunshine (and maybe a or two)! The school have authorised the absence (not that it would have made a difference) - I was a bit worried as we took the DCs out of school in October for a trip to Florida but the HT was supportive so one less thing to worry about.

Hi elporto, I hope you manage to sleep tonight. Can you do anything to distract yourself, listen to some podcasts on an iPod perhaps? That helps me when I'm restless, I have taught myself to just listen to the words and it works, I still do it now. Your bc nurse sounds like a gem.

lady very pleased you have managed to arrange a holiday. We have one coming up in three weeks when I finish rads.

wine rads are ok but I'm quite tired. My appts are, by choice, between 8 - 8.30 each morning and its taking 35 -50 minutes to get to the hospital depending on traffic, so we've had early starts all week. But we're home by 9 ish and DH gets a full days work done, luckily he works from home. I've got a rather sore nipple, which I'm a bit concerned about with 10 more sessions to go. My skin is absolutely fine though. In the last week I have a treatment review, not sure what that is. I assumed it was just to check I was still in one piece but maybe it's more, anyone know?

Morning all, thanks for your kind words. I was up at 3am and as you can see, up again now in a cold sweat of worry. Have completely convinced myself it has spread to my liver and those kind of thoughts haunt me through the darkest hours of the night.

My DD1 has a music performance today and I have no idea how I will get through it without howling. My DM and DMIL will be there too to help, perhaps I should stay at home this morning and try to gather myself so I can cope later.

I like the advice about a podcast, thank you - I am often tempted to move to the sofa in the middle of the night and have the tv on low so I don't feel so alone.

PS Ladytubbles, your hol in Spain sounds awesome - great news.

Morning elporto. Sorry to see you had a bad night again but perfectly understandable. Until you know what you're dealing with it is natural to think the worst. Waiting for test results is very scary, I was shaking when I went in to get my surgery results. We all know how you're feeling. But it does subside, your body won't take this level of stress forever. Whatever the results there will be a plan if action to get you well again, which is crazy, as you probably feel physically fine.

I remember the panic well eloporto but it does get better honestly. As you start treatment and feel like you are doing something about it it does get easier. It's very surreal knowing you have cancer but feeling absolutely fine, you sort of feel that you should have known somehow that something was wrong. Do whatever you need to to get through these days and we will be here holding your hand through it

I'm off to an 80s concert today, bananarama, billy ocean, heaven 17, brother beyond, nick heyward and lots more. I'll have a little dance for all of you

Hi Mrsrhod and malteserzz - the idea of an 80s concert did make me giggle, thank you! You'll have an awesome time I'm sure.

I am trying to stay strong and focus. DH has taken the kids out so I can get myself together this morning and stop crying. The house is a tip and I have laundry etc to do.

Right. Instead of moping I am going to make a plan for the day and stick to it, one hour at a time. If you lot can get through this shit with such optimism and good humour then so can I, right?

maltzerzz no doubt you'll have a fabulous time
mrsrhodgilbert you're so right in saying the body won't take this level of stress forever. As I said,people have been saying I looked so much better after just having gone through surgery than I did in the run up to it.I have been telling everyone I am NOT ill,I happen to have a disease and we are all working hard to get rid of it.Step by step.
elporto try and find something every day that makes you laugh out loud.It really helps,that and taking a really deep breath in and out a few times a day.Is there something you really enjoy doing? Find and make time for it.It won't make your worries go away,but it will help distract your thoughts for a little while. for all,to brighten your day

malt very of your 80's concert sounds like a perfect antidote to any cancer blues.
elporto you may not be feeling it yet, but I can tell from your posts that you are getting stronger already. You will have fears about it spreading, only natural, for most of us, it won't have, for those where it has, there is still really effective treatment and great odds for a long life, just a prolonging of the whole irksome business. Have they given you any indication of the size of your lump?
speedy meant to say, your happy book sounds fab. I have been writing a weekly blog for my work colleagues, trying to show the funny and poignant side of the whole business, it helps me in writing things down and keeps a record for the future. I have also been keeping a photographic record of my treatment using a teddy bear, so that I can share things with my younger relatives when they ask - got a bit tough now I have lost my hair, not prepared to shave my lovely teddy!
mrs getting the rads out the way first thing sounds like a great plan but the early mornings day after day must catch up with you and ouch about your sore nipple - hope that gets better for you, brought back memories of very painful breast feeding.
I kept myself very busy yesterday, was Knackered by the time I went to bed so actually had a fairly decent night which was useful as SEs just kicking in now - lethargy, achy and a bit light headed.
lady a holiday is lovely to look forward to, I am trying to decide whether to book something for Easter or October next year. Easter would be good but DD1 has GCSEs next year, so not sure that is good timing.
Hope everybody has a least one thing to laugh about today, great advice from nelson, unfortunately! definitely not the weather here in Cornwall, which is fairly reflective of how I am feeling - a little bit grim (but hopefully some sunny spells, although a worsening front in the horizon for a couple of days)!

malt Billy Ocean lives in my village! Have fun with all those oldies.

Hi all,

Thanks Buns, I had a good day today went out with the DC and had a fun afternoon, then it was DD1's music performance this evening which was so lovely and I only cried once. Have had a good chat with my mate up the road and also didn't cry, and have now had dinner with my DH and MIL, again without melting.

The one thing which has got me weeping today is that my bone scan is on the same day as DD2's nursery 'graduation' where she is singing a little solo, and I can't go because of the radiation from the bone scan. This really tipped me over the edge and has made me very cross.

DD1 has clocked that something is wrong, this evening she said she had heard me crying in the night on Thursday which is true, I had woken at 3am and been very weepy. We are talking to them tomorrow so please send me lots of 'happy face' vibes so we can do a good job of it

Buns, I didn't answer your question: the lump is small but aggressive and there is lymph node involvement, hence all the additional tests. It's very heartening to hear you say I sound stronger, massive thank you for that boost xx

Eloporto I'm sorry you will miss the concert that's tough, however there will be lots more opportunities to watch things like that in the future don't forget

80s concert was fab and it was a lovely sunny day. So many acts, ABC, nick heyward, Howard jones, altered images etc and billy ocean rounded off the night and was fab, can't believe you live near him foo foo

Elporto, There is nothing harder in all of this than seeing the upset to one's children. Good luck with telling them. I found it helpful to tell mine how excellent the treatments are nowadays, how it is a very treatable disease with great survival rates. I also asked them not to google for information as it is all so out of date online. Definitely sending positive vibes to you. And I'm so sorry about the clash between the bone scan and your daughter's solo; I broke down utterly when I learned that my (first) op was on the day of my son's A level choice evening - it was just one thing too many. (And then my second op was on Christmas Eve - howled when I was told that too).