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Hello all! New thread as we have almost filled the last one. Help yourself to chocolate chip muffins from the trolley! :)

oooo - I forgot about Smee's shed - are we expecting to hear from her tonight with a shed update?

Kitkat not sure, she might not be able to update until she gets home?

gigs going to Cotswolds :)

Ruby and gigs glad youre both getting away a change of scenery will be good

Evening all (waves to everyone). My hair is coming out. I know if it wasn't I would be worried the chemo wasn't doing its job but now it is all very very real, the mastectomy scar I can look at but the hairloss..... Everyone keeps saying what a wonderful Positive Mental Attitude I have which is driving me nuts. The way I see it I had breast cancer, I had a mastectomy and some nodes removed, clear CT, now it's belt and braces surely, or am I missing something. Sorry for the rant, I'm just fucked off with this sodding disease.

You know, I think I may go swimming too. I might get one of those vintage looking swimming hats, you know the ones with the flowers on. Something to hide my very soon to be baldy bonce. Amoena still have a 50% off sale on so will go looking for a swimsuit.
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Picture you are very much allowed to be fucked off !
If anyone is going to "get it" , its us .

I'm off to a very rural Tesco in the west of Ireland on the 17th .
So looking forward to it !

Oh the hair loss thing is upsetting and anger making. It made me have to think I was looking at someone with cancer.

I did get used to it tho and didn't mind after a while - honest.

New swim hat sounds great plan .

That's exactly it Gigs, it will make me think I am looking at someone with cancer and what is worse, the head tilting by others will go into complete overdrive. I think chemo is turning me into a cantankerous mare with an itchy head and itchy fooff. Bizarrely I hadn't reckoned on the deforestation hair loss in the Ladygarden. I love that phrase. We once had a bet with a Consultant at work that he wouldn't include it in a handover. He did. Childish I know but it was funny.

arf picture !! and def. get a flowery swimming hat !
I am very determined to go swimming- I shall quote that everyone I know on chemo went...
We are off to Tesco in the not quite north (E Midlands) to see MIL - not a holiday,just a courtesy visit. I am awful
Bloods tomorrow then the whole meds cycle begins- I've had 2 weeks off and loved it.
Nighty night all - hope you sleep malt

PictureThis sorry you are loosing your hair. It is ok to swear at head tilters.

Having a bald ladygarden was amusing for the novelty value. I can't believe grown women pay people in salons to de forest their foof. It made me feel like a seven year old actually, not remotely sexy. But it takes all sorts etc.

Oops I appear to have slept the evening and wide awake now. Kk has an amusing citrus thread on the go . Are pineapples citrus??
Rotten neck ache. Maybe set up of computer. Had foot scan. Maybe tendon related. Must get back to gp.

Hope gp can suggest something for your foot jchoc as it has been niggling you for a while. My right knee feels sore and puffy -seems to be worse where have slept on it as in habit of going on one side. Suppose ought to add that to get it checked list .

The whole sympathy thing irritated me too picture -cancer Tourette's was never far away when people did that . To be fair tho there Was only one mum like that at school gate and she was a royal pain generally.

Going up town today to see dietician , dressing check (leg healing quite well so not long til I can swim) and see Therapist. Taking big gig as she is meeting my mum for special day out (it's a treat for being good this week). Think they are off to summer exhibition then lunch. Am -big gig been up since 6 as so excited.

? May check out kurri thread as they are always corkers.

Morning gigs! grabs . Have day off work but no car. Am not going to mn all day weather forecast hot so sofa covers in machine. Friend over later so incentive to clean house
of big gigs day out too :)

Yes looks like a hot day here. Shame to waste it tidying.

I'm not so fussed by tidyness but whatever possessed my mil to buy white sofas? which somehow I have inherrited Cat playing in mud + sofas = grime :(

morning all - I've got 3rd chemo cycle today. Didn't sleep that well last night which is now unusual for me - must be the anticipation. Prior to diagnosis i did have sleep issues but now I sleep really well . I know the steriods will have me up for the next 5 nights but will conitnue to work my way through Grey's Anataomy - nearly at the end of series 2.

DS off to club and DH and DD are taking me in then going out to lunch and Gromit hunting (big clue to where I live). Last time they found 8 but they will go to a different part of the trail today.

Morning kitkat. Hope it goes ok today. No idea where gromit lives. I know the Wednesdale cheese place in Hawes used to use w+g branding. Hope they have a grand day out.

Ohh kitkat I will have to catch up as am halfway thru series 2. How annoying is Meredith..

Pre chemo nerves is good but you know drill now so should be easier.

Jchoc we also have (pre kids) white sofa. It's filthy...

Gig - it's sort of nerves mixed with excitement as I cannot wait to be half way

Yes, Meredith is annoying but I love Bailey - watched 1 episode yesterday and she has just been sent home ready to have the baby. will watch a few more whilst sitting through the cold cap.

Yes I love bailey too.

That's exactly how I used to feel. Also I used to welcome first bit of chemo going in (and sing "hit me with your best shot" in my head) as I like the idea of chemo destroying cancer and making me well.

DS2's birthday today but he is 3k miles away working having fun as a camp counsellor at a summer camp. We will try to phone him later as he has virtually no Internet access ( yes even students can live without it for short periods of time). Birthday present still to be discussed but we have sent him a cheesy Moonpig card.

Just popping on to wish kitkat good luck for today - half way :)

Will catch up properly later.

Kitkat hope it all goes ok today
Lily happy birthday to your ds when will you get to see him again?
Morning to everyone else. Slept much better last night with sleeping tablet, dh relieved I didn't wake him for daring to be asleep again !

Malt DS2 is due home on 20th ... but I'm going away on a course that day so may not see him until the weekend. DH is going to have to tell him the news as he (and DS1) doesn't yet know.

Congratulations to Kitkat on getting to half way through chemo - next week it will be my turn!

That will be a hard conversation lily but at least you're part way through and know what's what. Bet you can't wait to see him
Normal morning here, ds out with friends on his bike, dd in bed, me watching Jeremy Kyle. I have friend coming for coffee this afternoon though