**TAMOXIFEN 35**the all dancing,fat boy snacking and drugs thread

[MaryAnnSingleton]

yoo hoo - over here- bring the trolley...

I would love such a garden ornament Copt!

Am I the only one to be shocked by Pan shagging a goat picture ?
I expected to see the goat being taken by the rear .....

Couldn't stare into each others eyes and whisper sweet nothings to each other Topsy

I am far too high minded to laugh at willies . Those ornaments could catch on.

Copt - think meet up is a great idea once dh gets bit calmer.

Had with lovely friend- now to take it easy before the big gig excitement about show later.

Topsy, you aren't alone, no

Poor bloody goat.

I went to the real Pompeii last year it was fab don't remember any willies though !
Had lovely texts and calls from friends and family today and have told dh we mustn't mope around, going to try and walk to the shop for some milk in a minute

Another hug from me, Malteserszz. The others are right, this is the worst time. Once you know the whole picture it's the slog of treatment ahead, but that somehow feels easier once you can know there's a future, you just have to get there. I was 44 when diagnosed, DS was only 5. Three years on though and apart from the ongoing paranoia, have honestly never felt better. Quick thought on DH - me and mine mark each major appointment/ set of results with a bottle of champagne though has ended up as cava as we're cheapskates. There's something wonderful about drinking an up-yours toast to cancer and talking it through. Helped us a lot, so might be worth a go. Also, don't feel the need to rush and tell people. Take your time and do it however you want to. Same with the kids. We all do it different ways, but lots of advice from us all if it helps. Finally stay here - this place has definitely kept me saneish. I think I've been here since the fourth thread.

I really must go to the Pompeii show - live in London and DS did 79AD and all that last term. Am sure we'll laugh at willies, after all DS is 8. My whole life seems to revolve around bottom and fart jokes atm.

Glad DH might return to normal, Copt, though next little while sounds a bit bumpy.

What's big Gig singing in the concert?? Hope it's not one of those epic ones which last for hours..

MAS, hope DS's appt goes well today and they don't need to take bloods.

Sorry not to post to all. Stuffed full of work. Be back later with fb snacks for the trolley.

Smee - you are a total newcomer. Been here since post 2, thread 1

I joined Tamoxifen 10 .
Can't believe I've been on This Journey (snigger) nearly 2 years !
Could we do like AA and award chips for longevity ???

Malteeserzz our Amber coined our catchphrase "The New Normal"
And I think that sums it up perfectly !

You are all giving me a bit of hope and the consultant was positive yesterday but there's still a part of me that thinks he ll say there's nothing he can do next week, is it normal whatever normal is to feel like that ?
Got to have my mirena coil out too I can't remember why ?
Last night was horrendous should I try sleeping tablets or just get through it ?

No, don't 'just get through it' - take the support you need, this is a tough one. You don't have to be Brave

It is totally normal to feel as you do. But you have every reason to be hopeful and, believe me, they err on the side of sounding gloomy until they are sure you have taken on board what's happening. They DON'T give false hope. If he/she was positive, they feel positive.

My GP put me on a low dose of anti depressants when I was first diagnosed .
He said they aren't happy pills , but the would help keep me on an even keel whilst I coped with everything else .
He also gave me sleeping tabs (only 1 weeks worth at a time) .

Sometimes it helps , just to get through the first few weeks .

Good morning all,

malteserzz sorry it was bad news and that you're going to be stuck with us! Don't feel you are hijacking the thread, post as much as you need. When I first started posting all I posted about was me, and probably same with lots of others, it's all new and there's so much to take it. Then gradually you will find yourself giving advice to other people :) also I was very much the strong one with my boyfriend but unfortunately he couldn't handle the cancer thing and we are no longer together :) I had a chat with my aunt who had cancer and she thinks it's definitely harder to be on the outside, at least we can feel some small amount of control as we can take treatment etc whereas there's little that others can do and it's been built up into such a scary disease compared to others!

I'm in bed still feeling a bit iffy but nothing compared to last time I had the infusion :) I've counted and if I take all the extra anti sickness meds, and it's look like I might at this rate, I will be taking over 50 tablets a day I'm a little bit anaemic and so Dr W is trying iron tablets and if they mess up my digestive system too much I will have infusions instead. But tablets probably better as am hoping for some constipation which would make life much easier!

I have very exciting news, the disability lady phoned accommodation and they've now offered me an ensuite room in one of the new ish blocks very close to where my lectures will be. It's the same as I was in in first year so know my way around and what to expect. I'm so excited now

cop hope DH is able to see positives and that he can come up with a plan. It's not the nicest way for it to happen but may make such a difference to his mood/behaviour. My dad was made redundant after 25 ish years a few years ago, he worked long hours, quite stressed etc. but now has started up as a consultant, earns a bit less but sets his own work hours and he is doing so much better mental health wise :) it has worked out well with him chauffeuring me to appointments too!

at the goat statue! Definitely wouldn't be able to keep a straight face at that, or any of the willies!

So many cross posts. It took me 45 minutes to type that

Get some sleeping tabs .anxiety drugs or anti ds if Gp suggests as it does help. It's a year since my mets dx- I am sat in my gardenon Mn studying -this time last year I couldn't eat sleep or get out of bed. I didn't end up using all the sleeping tabs or Valium as I did manage in end.

Topsy-maybe it could be like the stars on badges in macdonalds.

She is dancing and singing some made Up song- it's three years so will be long busy. Dh and my mum going as not sure I can sit comfortably thru it- I get to watch the DVD.

malterserzz, yep totally normal. I'd bet we've all planned our own funerals. No point any of us telling you not to worry, but Amber has already said the odds are still v.much on your side. Takes a very long while to trust again. In a way that's harder than all the treatment put together. Go get some pills - I didn't, wish I had though.

Three years doing concert - not that concert lasts three years.

Morning ash

Sometimes, thread 2?! And you regenerated I seem to remember.

No, not thread 2 - thread 1, post 2.

I did indeed regenerate. I am the Borg.

Meat Loaf, Ash?! Surely that's illegal until you're zonked out on a four pack of cider?? Glad you're feeling a bit better than last time, but you take care now. xx

Hope big Gig dances up a storm, Gig. DS is doing something in June, but he won't tell me what. All I know is it's very embarrassing, he doesn't want to do it, and he's standing at the back.

I want stickers!! Though MAS surely deserves a crown as this is all her fault.

Blimey, you are MAS's able lieutenant! Though is use the term 'able' very loosely..

I wrote, in my head, letters to all my loved ones saying goodbye and also a very profound speech to be read at my funeral

mean't 'I' not 'is'..

Aw concert sounds fun, especially DVD so you can skip all the boring bits of other people's children!