the 16th ***TAMOXIFEN***thread

[MaryAnnSingleton]

...here we go again

MS -I think the funeral is tomorrow, but I was just catching everyone in one go in case I drown in work in the meantime.

One client just got made redundant.

oh don't drown..and v sorry to hear about your client

Thanks.

It's horrid isn't it. I worry about things like this - so horrible for anyone, and she isn't in the first flush of youth, which makes it more complex.

Hope 1in8's lump is firmly in the hands of the lab already and she's snoozing on a haze of blissful drugs.

Cat, fingers are crossed for a set of Radiologists who know how to add up.

NK, sorry you're in the waiting bit. Amber will be along in a bit with her reassuring stats for you I'm sure, but the others are right, call GP and stick with us too. We all know how scary it is. Tell your Aunt I had cancer in nodes and am a year on from end of treatment now, and feeling fine and feisty.

Cakes, having the back op on the horizon must weigh you down a bit. I thought they'd told you it would be done by Christmas? Very sad about your client. Seems even more cruel at this time of year somehow.

I have just had my hair cut - yes more work avoidance! The post chemo curl is very nearly gone, as I have had it cut short again. Hairdresser said it was pixie like. Not sure she's right, but it feels nice to have normal hair again.

Funeral's definitely tomorrow. Hope she's okay. Must be a huge thing to get through.

NK, hi from me. Have some reassuring statistics: Only 1 in 10 lumps is cancer. Even if it is, only 1 in 10 breast cancers is rudely behaved and can't be reasoned with by modern treatments. So the odds of it being a lifethreatening situation are about 1 in 100. Hope that helps a bit.

Smee, hurrah for the lack of curl to the hair. Mine is still Shirley Temple

KK, if you're reading, hugs. Oh, and some for anyone else in need. Another easy radiotherapy session today, hurrah.

Can we have a photo of this new non curly you smee?

NK hi, I am sorry you are having to wait such a long time...I too thought there was a two week referral window, either way it won't change the outcome, just means you have a horrid time waiting for it....I am so sorry. If it helps my lump/mass/thingy was precancerous! I had to have it removed, but to all intents and purposes, I am an usurper here...but they let me stay

Cat I am impressed by your walking, I too do not know the calorific value of rolos, or any other FBS (Fat Boy Snack, to interpret for newbies), but I am happy in this lack of knowledge, so please don't tell me

Ds has to go to Birmingham Children's Hospital cardiac unit tomorrow.....arghh.....Did I tell you all that already, have a worrying feeling that I am forgetting everything.

Sorry about the tears Cat. The guy sounds good though. No I don't think you will be able to walk there and back each day, sorry. Radio is very tiring, not sure why, you only lie there but the energy sort of drains away. Cut yourself some slack. The wobbly bits can wait. (Mine are still waiting but you will be able to sort yours quicker than I am).

Smee - I bet your hair looks fab - and so nice to have your own stuff back again, you know how to deal with it.

Hooray, amber, for a straightforward appointment.

Smee - they did say autumn for the surgery but no news yet. I keep meaning to chase up, but never get round to it. It would be nice to know, even just for a date to work around.

Two latest domestic disasters from the cakes household:

1. Bulb in bathroom went. Bugger - shade is a sod to get off and has five screws in. Aha! thinks cakes, I'll put the loo lid down so the screws can't fall in when I drop them. They fell down the plughole instead

1. Man comes to help us open the garage door that DH has managed to jam. He opens it straight away, with one simple turn. We have been fighting with it since Monday night. He investigates further, sticks some WD40 on it and says the reason it jammed is because dh didn't put the car in far enough and the door was catching on the bumper. We can't find the invoice to prove they installed it so that's £59.

We are in Staffordshire, so it will take just over an hour....I think, and then probably another hour to park!

Cross post Sparkles. Good luck for tomorrow at the hospital, I will have the candle lit again....

Birmingham is a sod to park in these days

Oh cakes...not fair, so not fair! You will have to take the ubend out (lovely job) the screws will be waiting for you....although with other unspeakables. As for garage door, is your dh actually related to me...just the kind of thing I would do. at call out charge....couldn't he let you off for amusement value only!!!!

xpost cakes, I would go by train, he loves trains, but it is 15 min walk to hospital from train station, and there is no way he would manage that! Plus will have dd2 with me anyway, so I have devised parking plans A,B and C...A try for disabled parking at front of hospital, then when established they are full, will try B NHS car park and then c multistorey NCP nearby, after that shall just keep driving between those three! Sounds like fun eh!

Got a non delivery of post notice for something for parent of ds, which menas letter from hospital, have to wait 5 days for it to be delivered and have had to pay to get it out of hock, so to speak. Will now have to spend afternoon ringing round hospital departments, trying to find who sent the letter, and if it needs acting on before end of next week, when it will arrive! Don't know who I am more annoyed with NHS or PO.

He was sniggering a bit, but no....

I should go to Brum soon and visit my Mum, but think I will delay a few more days.

My dsis is expecting any day now - they will induce if baby does not make an appearance soon. Dd home from school and we have an open evening to wizz to.

Cat, do some walking but not every day, you will tire yourself out!

Pub later, it's medicinal :)

Oh blimey about the letter.

Good luck with the parking...

These things are sent to try us.....my dad would have said it is all "character building", but yet again I would feel the need to point out to him......I HAVE ENOUGH CHARACTER ALREADY THANK YOU!!! Yep I think that reached him, in his little box inside my mum's wardrobe (true....strange but true) and I can hear him laughing. I do miss him so, and he has been gone 8 years this xmas...hope Kurri is ok.

Fingers crossed for you 1in8. Best wishes to KK for her dad's funeral tomorrow, such a big event in a woman's life, I lost my darling dad 7 years ago, we were a 5 generational family at that time and to lose my dad before darling Grannie was hard on her. Smee - glad to hear you are pleased with your hair, that good for the morale! I've still got both grandmothers' Singer sewing machines, one a 1939 model which I've used quite a bit and will hang onto, as it's a superb piece of engineering and totally mechanical. The other a 1929 model with the shuttle style bobbin, in mint condition. I was willing to give that one away to someone who expressed an interest, thought I better check with DD first, (25) and very much the professional young woman about town. Well, she very much wants us to hang onto it. How much do these things weigh!!

FIL is in MIL's bedroom in a carrier bag- I say hello to him when I'm there.
Loads of good thoughts for tomorrow for hospital and successful parking (so stressful; in itself)
cakes we had a bathroom light that had several screws (in fact we do in this house too) I always put the plug in the bath (smug emoticon) as they are sure to fall in.
cat I think the whole rads thing seems to stir up emotions - not sure why- maybe it's the end of active treatment thing- the abandonment of being left on your own in the room,as well as by the team who've been looking after you so intensely for the past few months... The whole thing stirs up all kinds of feelings I'm realising even now, two and a half years on. I am often turning to my bcn for advice or comfort because she has been a constant throughout and has really helped me deal with loads of psychological stuff which has surfaced - I feel often that I should get on with it on my own,but can't.
A bit of a walk every so often would be good,but not too much,otherwise you'll be worn out.

smee bet your hair looks fabby !
We could have a vigil for kk tomorrow to send her love to get through her dad's funeral..

Sparkle - I'm travelling by train to my regional hospital too, as I just cann't face the parking problem at the other end. Arriving at the train station, it really is too far to walk. However I found out that there is a 20 min interval bus service, marked with H for hospital, directly outside the station, it goes into the hospital grounds and the stop is directly outside the main entrance. No one volunteered this information, but I did ask at the main reception of the hospital, and was kindly told about this, and given a timetable. I've got my rads planning appointment tomorrow, letter arrived on Monday, feel quite neutral about it, as in, not dreading it. Some said here that once treatment begins some of the stress goes.

Thanks for that tip Drift, I will give the hospital a quick ring in the morning, and ask if they do the same kind of shuttle service. I hope tomorrow goes ok for you, I guess there is something quite positive to have it all planned out, so you know what is happening....I hope so anyway.

MAS I am glad I am not the only one to say hello to a loved one stashed away in a bedroom......

I will light another candle tonight for Kurri, as I won't be able to tomorrow, but I will be thinking of you my dear.

Found out by ringing all ds' various hospitals that the letter held by the PO is almost certainly from Birmingham CH, but no-one can tell me what is says.....so I guess I will find out tomorrow...or not.

Just thought, I could drive and detour through Acocks Green, show ds where he was born, and give the Westley Arms a drive by....or alternatively I could just come straight home to lovely rural Staffs.....what do you think?