I am an Alcoholic

[ghengis]

Today I have finally admitted to myself that I am an Alcoholic.

I don't have booze first thing in the morning or (usually) during the day but I drink to excess in the evening and wake up in the morning determined not to drink that evening. Only I always do and now it's making me and DH miserable.

I could really do with some support and advice from any recovering alcoholics. Help.

good luck this evening
take it easy and keep it simple

When I first joined Mumsnet I worried a little about the nicknames and anonimity. The fact that Ghengis can be honest and get support here without having to reveal everything else about herself and her life just proves that its a very good thing. I hope tonight goes well G.

I used to drink just over half a bottle of wine each night. I really felt I needed it after a day of work. It was expensive and soon half a bottle did not seem enough. I only stopped because I wanted to conceive and after 2 mcs I did. Am convinced that it was due to alcohol that we took so long to conceive and possibly had the 2 mc. In order to stop I ensured no alcohol in house but lots of fancy fruit juices and shakes as treats. Having a nice bath and a pamper helps. Good luck.

Ghengis - how did it go mate? No judging going on here, just interested in how last night went for you?

I did it! I was very junpy and fidgety but drank lots of fizzy water and had a really tasty curry followed by bath and bed. Boy, did I feel good this morning! DH hasn't said anything but he was lovely and warm and cuddly so I know he noticed.

DH of Caroline18 thanks so much for your kind words. I know you are there if I need you.

Pinetree, it sounds like you are me! It's a vicious circle and you need to do something about it when you are ready.

I went food shopping this morning and didn't even look in the wine and spirits area. Now, I've just got to get through today!

Again, thank you all so much.

ghengis - well done.
I'm delighted you feel good today too - that's gotta help.

Good on you Ghengis!

Keep remembering how good you felt this morning and use that to spur yourself on but don't forget to take it one step at a time.

Brilliant well done you!
How about puting the money you save from buying a couple of bottles of wine a night into a box and seeing what you can buy with it after a week / 2 weeks / a month. It'll be a nice way to treat yourself to something for doing so well, when you get there.
So tonight - keep yourself busy again - cook a meal maybe which takes a lot of fine chopping various ingrediants!
Well done for Tuesday night, good luck for Wednesday night.

So pleased to hear your news, well done! And it is obvious you are not alone with this struggle, others are admitting the same thing because you had the courage to do so first.

If you ever feel weak, why not come on line and wait for someone to help talk you out of it. I am sure everyone will want to help.

Hi Ghengis ! I've only just spotted your post and wanted to say a huge CONGRATULATIONS ! You should be very proud of yourself. Every step you take, no matter how small, is a step in the right direction

Ghengis, you brave, brave woman, keep it up, the rewards will be plentliful. Be strong for you!

ghengis, you are doing really well and I think you are very brave to admit to yourself (and us) that you have a problem and to do something about it. so many people never even get that far. best of luck.

Congrats from me too, Ghengis. Well done.

Love Thomcat's idea of putting 'booze money' into a pot for non-alcoholic treats!

Well done, Ghengis Thomcat's "booze money" idea seems like a good one to me too.

Good luck for tonight too.

Thanks again to everyone. Feeling nervous but committed(!) about this evening. I had really bad stomach cramps earlier and haven't felt like eating, although I made myself have a sandwich. I can do it .

Of course you can do it, just don't beat yourself up over anything. Sorry you had cramps - we've probably all made you a nervous wreck by popping onto Mumsnet every minute to see how you are etc!!!! Well i look forward to your repoirt tomorrow!! Keep occupied, keep strong, you CAn do this, just take it slow. Good luck.

Well done Genghis - and good luck for tonight.

Well done ghengis, you spurred me into action too and I didn't have a drink last nigh either. Paced about alot and drove DH mad as couldn't sit still but feel good this morning. Good luck for tonight.

hi caroline18s husband again
very well done on keeping your sobriety
those cramps and feelings will soon disappear
trust me
now for today,,, if you have to just live it one hour at a time -try not to look at things too far in advance as that is what gets "the washing machine head" going
keep it simple -nice and easy
if you need my help you only need ask
no problem at all
good luck not that i think you need it after taking the biggest most important step .
the first on the road to recovery and your full life back again
i know how hard it is but one day at a time and just keep everything simple
congratulations
welcome back to life

sorry pinetree
caroline18s husband again
the same applies as to genghis if you need my help you only need ask
i have plenty of experience of alcoholism and its effects on your whole life
good luck

keep it simple -nice and easy

Ghengis, I just wanted to say I've been thinking of you today. I think you are so brave, and I'm so impressed.

Well done pinetree. It's hard, isn't it? I am more 'twitchy' tonight and have definitely found it harder but I have stuck to fizzy water. I'm going to bed now to read Harry Potter and hope tomorrow comes soon.

DH of Caroline18, you are a great help. I particularly liked your comment "welcome back to life". That really hit home.

Night all!