please help me, don't let me do anything

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please help me
I want to die so much
I can't talk to ring up the samaritans because I can only cry
i know this looks like a stupid attention seeking thread but if I move away from the computer i;m scared of what i will do.

And its normal to feel shaken and fragile for quite a while after an episode... take it easy on yourself..

cup of tea (decaff)....
dh has made me docs appointment

Excellent well done.

You're going to be fine, you're clearly a very brave lady

no I;m not brave.
you are all being so kind.

You blummin' are brave love, I frankly can't bring myself to ask for the help I need.

I accept there may be a different perspective from where you are sitting, but hey I'm entitled to an opinion about it over here

So glad you managed to get through today, it will get easier now.

Be kind to yourself

have ordered that Mastering Anxiety book on Amazon & done some of the breathing exercises on the thread.

I feel so trapped, which I suppose is the fight or flight thing going wrong (ie wanting to flee but can't). But whoever said before that I don't have to see any of these people again is right.

I am now going to put into practice my own unique way of cheering myself up, which consists of scraping chicken poo off the lawn with a trowel.

If anyone wants to check in on me on the thread later I would really appreciate it.

xxx

Agree with the above - distraction is good now you are feeling better.

Is there a "comfort" film or DVD which is relaxing for you? I alsways watch agatha Christie's Poirot with David Suchet!!!
Well done on getting through the worst today. You made some great strides!

Seeing your GP about these anxiety issues will be really helpful I expect. There is often not much they can "do" beyond suggesting the techniques suggested on this thread, but I think it will be really helpful to hear that how you feel is normal and ok and, ideally, to get a referral to some CBT. You'll probably also get some leaflets etc about anxiety attacks, and these often contain really helpful advice for breathing etc.

x x

And also - fantastic that your instincts were so positive today. As swallowedafly said, you automatically sought help, calmed yourself down and brought up your blood sugar levels. GREAT first steps to getting over anxiety and a really good indicator that CBT type techniques will really work for you.

Hello OP. You're doing well. Well done asking DP to make the doctor's apt. Have you managed to eat anything else? Might be an idea.

there, I've de-pooed the lawn and done various chicken-house-cleaning things even though it didn't really need it. Best of all, dinner is in the oven for tonight - lamb shanks pot-roast in port, dh's favourite, so the house will smell warm and comforting for the rest of the evening.
I have to go and get dd from after-school club in half an hour and I can go, it will be ok, I will put a nice top on and brush my hair first.

thank you all so much for your hand-holding today. You have made such a difference. DH is wonderful (as you can tell from the thread) but he has no personal experience of these things and it makes such a difference to have people say they understand what you are going through. Plus as a result of your advice I have more of a clue how to tackle it, I have the doctor's appointment and the book is on order.

I'm so pleased - I'd say 'well done' done again but don't want to sound like I'm patronising you. Go You!

You're amazing! I'm so impressed. I don't have experience of this, but it sounds as though speaking to the doctor and the book are such a good idea - it'll give you some perspective and practical help.

Oh and lamb shanks pot roast in port - can I come for dinner?

Check in with us later, if you're able.

yes please do come for dinner, we have 4 lamb shanks and they are all huge!

Hi - have just read back through your thread and you have done brilliantly today.
I have recurrent episodes of panic & depression. (When Im well Im very capable, have a senior job, look after my children, happy marriage. When Im not Im just a total wreck.)

If youre anything like me you will feel really shaken for a while after this has happened - physically the anxiety really takes it out of you. So keep being kind to yourself!

Take Care x

Just wanted to add another "well done". I saw this earlier but didn't have anything to give.

Be kind to yourself x

Swallowedafly - you were kind about my name, that earns you handholding whenever you need it ...

how odd that was a very close second when choosing my name...

My two favourtie expressions for how I feel I live my life

hi all. just checking back in (sorry, internet was down before).
very drained but almost cheerful when I don't think about the thing that triggered it!
am glad we've got the doctor booked.

hope you're all having a nice evening.

will change my name back to normal now and go and chat.

thanks again.
xxxx