Insomnia friends - I will sleep well tonight because I have told my unconscious I will

[BeckyBendyLegs]

And here it is!

Actually DH is coming around to the idea of ADs as he sees that I need a bit of a break from this stress I am putting myself under. But I've been skepitcal about them too for ages and ages (partly because I felt so crap taking fluoxitine). I've learnt a lot more about them though and recently found out my niece has taken and is back on the same sort you and CountryLover take as she says she has had big anxiety and insomnia issues. She also said, interestingly, she's never had any problems coming off them (one of my worries).

Becky

R u eating too much cheese or something before you go to bed? lol.

Doesnt sound so bad arcadia.

Looks like we all didnt do too bad last night.

Whats everyones plans today?

I'm at work as usual but got friends coming for t tonight and then DH back but not til about 11pm so will prob be awake until hes in!

Am soooo looking forward to my girly weekend.

becky - ha ha your dreams are as weird as mine very funny - man on stilts?

laura - thanks I slept ok, but back is still really really sore so struggled to get comfy. The best position was flat on my back, but I normally sleep on my side so felt a bit weird.
Jealous about your lovely spa day tomorrow !!

DH left for work at 6:30am this morning
The prospect of a day off for him tomorrow is now remote

arcadia - you're night sounds ok. Strange about being awake so early. Perhaps it's these light mornings waking you up? I would be interested to in your qu. about citalopram. As you know it made my insomnia 100x worse and I had to stop after just 3 days.

I mean on saturday

GetDown

Have you got some painkillers for your back? Poor u, hope it feels better soon. You could probably do with a Spa day too!

Citalopram is very good at lifting mood, makes you quite sleepy and is very difficult to get off.

Av luvly day girlies. X

I'm taking paracetamol, but it's not even touching it. I am walking bent double like an old lady. People at work must think I'm crazy

Oh dear.

You really should get to docs and get something stronger.

How come citalopram makes you feel sleepy and give you insomnia? Fluoxitine gave me terrible insomnia too. Yuckity yuck. Worst three days of my life.

Arcadia I have that problem sometimes (waking in early hours struggling to get off again). I put it down to still not being back to normal after feeding DS3 in the night. I had that problem for months after DS1 was born.

GetDown poor, poor you. It does sound like you need something else. How about ibruprofen as it is anti-inflammatory as well as pain killing?

Becky I found that after it had got into your system (and it takes a while) it does help you to sleep better. But I wouldnt recommend it just for that reason. It worked for me but its not like that for everyone.

The most difficult thing is coming off it. It took me about three attempts but I did finally get there. Trouble is I think I need to be back on it now!

DS3 does not want to sleep today Screaming his little head off. I hate it when he's like this. Usually I put him in the cot and he moans for about five mins and then quiet zzzz.

Oh god I used to hate days like that.

I used to just put mine in the cot too and if they cried they cried I just used to leave them and they soon went off, unless of course they were poorly. God I sound so cruel.

Good luck Becky

Just put mine in her cot and she's gone straight off - amazing! Hope DS3 is asleep now becky

Yes I suppose I could try ibuprofen, have always had to avoid it as you can't take it with lithium, but now I am off the lithium, so I suppose I could! Yay!

Am back from work now. I felt like such a weirdo walking around like the hunchback of notredame....

At least at home there's only DD to laugh at me!

She does kind of understand that "mummy has a sore back" but she keeps saying I need to put a plaster on it If only every pain in live was solved by savlon and plasters

live life

I do leave him to cry to a certain extent but when he's wailing his little head off...I can't. I've given him a dummy and he's asleep now.

I'm the same becky I would really struggle to leave DD crying. We have a really lovely lullaby CD which I often put on for her and it usually does the trick!

Aah bless girls.

I remember those days well. My little one didnt have a dummy but she sucked her thumb. Shes six now and still sucking her thumb.

The time seems to have gone really quickly it just seems like yesterday that they were babies and now they are little mini mes with attitude!

Hope you both have peaceful afternoon. I'm still at work but finished at 2.45 in time to pick kids up from school and do the swimming run, oh the joys!

Off to pick up DS1 and then Tescos. My dad and stepmum have just popped by with a key to their new caravan. It's free this weekend - should I be brave and take DS1 and DS2 (and even perhaps DS3)?

Where is the caravan? Can't DH come too?

He can but he'd prefer to potter about the house plus we have the cats to think about.

It's in Borth, on the coast of mid-Wales near Aberysywth (can't spell!).

DH says we have to go bathroom shopping at the weekend (one of our toilets has broken) and he wants to take DS1 and DS2 to see Shrek! I wonder who wants to see Shrek the most? Hmmm.

how about he goes bathroom shopping with DS1&2, goes to see Shrek, and you take DS3 to the caravan for a lovely weekend away!

I just had a disasterous tea time with DD. She refused her dinner - again - this time it was pasta. Pasta for crying out loud, it was just pasta. It's not like I'm feeding her brussel sprouts with prune sauce.

Ended up crying in front of her. Not good.

Becky

I would go to caravan by yourself and leave kids with DH!

GetDown

Sori to hear bout tea time, try not stress on this it does get better. I remember always trying to give my now 9 year old scrambled eggs, well you'd think I was asking her to eat frogs legs and each time you would just throw the whole lot back up again. Kids dont you just love emm.

I just had lovely tea with friend and her daughter at my house sitting in Garden whilst the girls played. Apart from an episode of 9 year old standing on 6 year olds toe with high heels on it went quite smoothly. I now just have the aftermath of lots of fashion show clothes to tidy up and dishes to do, deep joy.

Anyway DH is back tonight but not til bout 11pm so think I will have an early night but prob still be awake when he gets in.

Oh and he went to look at another property but no good! Back to the drawing board.

GetDown I sometimes cried in front of DS1 over food. I used to have to get DH to feed him as I was in tears of frustration and I'd go and hide in the other room crying. If it is any consolation he eats anything and everything now. I am convinced they just go through a fussy stage at about 2-3 years. Even DS2 is now eating more he's 4 years old. Although today he said 'grown ups like vegatables but children just don't' as if it was one of those well-known facts of life.

Laura is your house very girly? It's probably the opposite of my house which is full of boy things: lego, trains, cars, bikes, etc.

thanks guys, I know it's probably just a phase, but I find it so immensely frustrating that she won't eat. It's made doubly hard by having to do it all on my own at the moment.

Down to 7.5mg mirtazapine now... that's half my previous dose...

Do you know what though, I don't know if I could manage another baby... I am just having loads of self doubt at the moment.

Becky Yes very girly indeed. Fashion shows, barbie dolls, bratz, you name it. Not sure I would know what to do with boys.

GetDown Where is DH at the moment? Try not to get too worked bout it, kids do just go thru phases, easy for me to say I know. Well done on your half dosage, you are getting there.

I wouldnt think about anymore children just yet, enjoy the one you have and concentrate on getting yourself better first.

I was quite poorly after DD2 was born with stress, didnt sleep for a week, couldnt eat etc. It soon passed though and now they are 9 and 6 god where did the time go.

You are a good mum and it is completely normal IMO to go thru periods of self doubt but you will get there.

My PST for tonight is: my DH is home and I always sleep well with him beside me.

Hope you all have a good night ladies. X

Hi everyone, not the best night from me. DS3 just not settling well at the moment so I went to bed with that horrible ball of anxiety I know so well in my stomach. Got to sleep when DH came to bed but woke at 3am and slept very lightly on and off since then with this horrible, horrible feeling in my belly. This seems to be my life at the moment - one little worry sets me off. So quite tired today but not as bad as I have been. Perhaps I am getting gradually better - who knows? I'm not sure what's worse - the anxiety or the bad sleep now.

Yesterday my stepmum was talking about my neice (GetDown you may remember I mentioned her before as she's had anxiety and depression) and she was going on about how she's been off work with anxiety and not really being very sympathetic about it. I wonder whether that upset me too? I was doing so well and even considering going to the caravan this weekend. Now I know I'm not ready for that yet, esp with all three DSs!

The irony is that I am actually really happy at the moment. I'm just anxious.