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Fighting Our Way Back Up - the depression list thread!

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MathsMadMummy · 30/03/2010 18:08

Thanks to ToccataAndFudge for the name

Right, so this is where those of us with depression can write our lists of daily achievements!

...hopefully tomorrow's list will be better than today's...

OP posts:
ToccataAndFudge · 04/04/2010 20:35

No I'm not numb now - they hurt me too much 2yrs ago, can't hurt me any more now than they did then,

LittleMarshmallow · 04/04/2010 20:36

I have liked the post too Tocatta.

Alle, I will keep that in mind if I manage to get a holiday with ds this year. You are more than welcome to come say hi if you are up and about too.

ToccataAndFudge · 04/04/2010 20:36

ahh found you - but obviously you have your settings the same as me (only friends of friends can add).

I'll just go and adjust my settings temporarily so you can add me.

ToccataAndFudge · 04/04/2010 20:37

ok - try again.........

LittleMarshmallow · 04/04/2010 20:41

Done I hope

ToccataAndFudge · 04/04/2010 20:42

got you

allegrageller · 04/04/2010 20:48

ah right Tocc I am friends with LM too, initials RC and red cardi- will find you at some point

LittleMarshmallow · 04/04/2010 21:15

My evening is going down the pan pretty quickly am sat crying as a friend is telling me about h and how he did care about me.

Ds has decided my bed is better for sleeping in so he tucked himself up there for now

allegrageller · 04/04/2010 21:22

yeah I had ds2 in the bed last night. Up for 2 hours at 2.30 wanting to watch dvds and read books. I finally got him to sleep attached to my back like a limpet!

Seriously though I'd rather have that again tonight than be without him. Sigh.

Sorry you're having a hard night LM, I am tearful too. Hoping tomorrow will dawn better.

LittleMarshmallow · 04/04/2010 21:28

Yeah I know the feeling last Sunday night ds was up at 2am watching Brother Bear twice! but it was sweet.

Its the endless questions that drive me mad especially at 1am.

Did you ds's leave any cuddly toys at yours? If so grab one that smells of them and cuddle it tonight, it makes you think they are a little bit closer than they are.

oasisofcalm · 04/04/2010 22:31

hi ladies,

had quite a nice easter weekend- my baby is crawling all of a sudden!! it's been in progress for months, so a real surprise when she finally got the hang of it!!

done a fair bit of tidying- just pottering and putting things back in their proper place really, has made an amazing difference to the look and feel of the place. Have also managed to do some washing, and caught up on the washing-up and sorting of the kitchen. So progress is happening slowly..... Went to the outlaws for easter dinner today, was quite nice, baby got tons of presents, clothes etc, am gonna be busy with the thank you cards i can see......

Off to docs on tuesday for a review of my Citalopram (am currently on 20mg).
Hope you all had a lovely day

Oasisxx

oasisofcalm · 04/04/2010 22:36

ooohh, by the way, could someone please invite me to the FB group?? I seem to spend an inordinate amount of time on there, so that would make a lot of sense for me.... I have just 'liked' the most recent update thingy on the mumsnet fan page. The title is Gardeners Delight. My initials are JB, and I'm sitting on a bed with my dd. Would really appreciate that, thankyou!!!!

LittleMarshmallow · 05/04/2010 08:43

oasis, your profile wont accept friend requests. I have liked the same wall post and my initials are EP.

oasisofcalm · 05/04/2010 09:18

sorry littlemarshmallow, I forgot bout that. Will add you instead!!! Will update later!!!

oasisofcalm · 05/04/2010 09:24

LittleMarshmallow, have added you on FB sweetie.xx

ToccataAndFudge · 05/04/2010 09:26

my washing pile seems to be never ending, managed to hang some more stuff last night/when I got up this morning (like 20 minutes ago - I was on the sofa).

I'm so far behind with it.........going to put another load on in a minute though.

LittleMarshmallow · 05/04/2010 09:28

Thats good Toccata I hung washing out last Wednesday to dry and so far it has sat outside in the rain since.

I haven't achieved anything this morning so far other than feeding ds and getting him dressed.

allegrageller · 05/04/2010 10:41

Tocc and LM I now have you on FB!

oasis if you want to add me I probably appear as recent friend addition on both pages, initial RC, dark hair and red cardi.

Bit better this a.m. but not great, still tearful.

Feel very lonely without ex dp and so sorry that I've hurt him, but better than keeping something going that wasn't going to work long term. I guess I need friends not boyfriends atm!

New strategy is to plan stuff for the boys and do things for them when they are not with me. Like buying baking ingredients and organising activities for them. (not that I've done anything like that yet, just thinking about it- lol)

Seeing solicitor soon and we will sort this loony situation of not being allowed to look after them out I hope. Expensive though!!!

hope all managing the bits and pieces today....

allegrageller · 05/04/2010 10:42

btw anyone else not dressed yet :D I am struggling to bother....must have shower!!

ToccataAndFudge · 05/04/2010 10:51

I@m dressed..........but only because I went to sleep on the sofa still dressed.......so not sure if that counts

allegrageller · 05/04/2010 10:54

oh it counts Toccata :D i.e. if the gasman came to the door you would not have to do the Walk of Shame at 11am in your pyjama bottoms as I frequently have....

I think I am going to adopt your strategy there (though at some point presumably you have to get changed to wash said clothes....!!)
xx

LittleMarshmallow · 05/04/2010 10:57

I am still in pjs and will be till around 3pm when I must get dressed as I promised ds a trip to pizza hut.

I still feel pretty rubbish someone was trying to cheer me up last night by saying that knew h loved me I was in buckets of tears and this was only by email.

ToccataAndFudge · 05/04/2010 11:18

yes at some point you have to get changed to wash said clothes..........admittedly not often enough at the moment ,

I'm doing ok with my washing this morning, and put the dishwasher on as well.

I just feel "meh" iykwim.

Just flat even though I'm managing to get stuff done

BeckyBendyLegs · 05/04/2010 11:51

Hi everyone, having a bad day here. Sleep is my main issue, and anxiety and it feels like any little blip and I get knocked off my balance. It is the school holidays, my mum, and PILs are all off on their hols from tomorrow so my supports are going to be gone, dH at work and I'm worrying about coping next week. I feel so cross with myself as before DS3 was born I was working all hours, juggling two children, house, work, everything and sleeping like a log every night and really happy!!! It sucks!

I think holidays can be a double wammy - they can make you feel worse rather than happy and relaxed.

LittleMarshmallow · 05/04/2010 13:15

Yeah I am having a rubbish day too, everything feels like it is falling apart, ds is asking questions and all I want to do is cry