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Fighting Our Way Back Up - the depression list thread!

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MathsMadMummy · 30/03/2010 18:08

Thanks to ToccataAndFudge for the name

Right, so this is where those of us with depression can write our lists of daily achievements!

...hopefully tomorrow's list will be better than today's...

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ToccataAndFudge · 01/04/2010 17:22

I don't have you - only have one JT on my list and that's memoo.

ByThePowerOfGreyskull · 01/04/2010 17:25

can I find you tocatta

ToccataAndFudge · 01/04/2010 17:26

possibly - do you have many MNers on your FB?

I'm on quite a lot of them

ByThePowerOfGreyskull · 01/04/2010 17:27

I think I may have just done a friend request to you Toccata

ToccataAndFudge · 01/04/2010 17:28

ahh - guess that answered that - you were quick

ByThePowerOfGreyskull · 01/04/2010 17:31

done thanks!

ToccataAndFudge · 01/04/2010 17:52

arghh - jeans still not dry. Now wandering round with a towel on the bottom half and dressed everywhere else except for trousers.

memoo · 01/04/2010 18:03

Can you get a hair dryer on them Toccata?

ByThePowerOfGreyskull · 01/04/2010 18:18

can you put them in the oven for a bit?

ToccataAndFudge · 01/04/2010 18:33

ok - well turned my house into a sauna > an used the hair dryer as well, they're not totally dry - but dry enough. Just feel like I'e been rained on a bit.

countrylover · 01/04/2010 19:38

a brief update on my day - i managed to get into central london on public transport on my own despite me reeeeeeeeally not wanting to. i also sat through an meeting and managed to sound reasonably intelligent (i think). the bad news is that although i thought this job was confirmed, it's not and i still as yet maybe made redundant.

i then decided to challenge myself further and went to oxford street. bad idea. freaked out, couldn't breathe and had to get a black cab all the way home.

so £20 lighter, feeling good that i managed to get to work, feeling silly for even trying to go to oxford street.

lesson from today. take one step at a time

LittleMarshmallow · 01/04/2010 21:19

I am only just home I left at 4pm to get ds from nursery but had to drive all the way into edinburgh [shudders] and back to pick up my lodger as the trains were canceled.

That kind of sorted any ideas for dinner etc I had still its the end of another day.

well done CL for going to your meeting.

memoo · 01/04/2010 22:29

Big well done CL, you did fab! don't worry about the Oxford street thing. Baby steps yeah! you should be really please with yourself!

Littlem, OMG what a day you've had! I highly reccommend a glass of wine (or 3) you deserve it.

ToccataAndFudge · 01/04/2010 22:35

made it to the Agape Service/meal.........but nearly didn't make to the end. Basically it's a communion service that's spread over over the course of a 3 course (buffet style) meal.

I had to go out part way through for a cigarette as I was in that much of a state (only my BF who was there knew this as I'm good at holding it in and looking composed)

Was something that was said during the sermon, again something that nothing that anyone would have guessed would have had much of an effect on anyone, but it did me.

Took me a good 1/2-45 minutes to calm down enough inside to be able to hold a conversation with anyone.

I hate this, constantly replaying what happened in my head - but with no emotions, but then the emotions and feelings surfacing at even the slightest trigger/reminder of what happened to me.

It's like they're totally detached from each other (the feelings and the memories).

oasisofcalm · 01/04/2010 23:24

Hi Ladies,

Am a longtime lurker and very occasional poster. Would love to join your group, both here and on FB if thats allowed. Am married with one 8 mo DD and since she was born have REALLY struggled with PND. House is a shit tip, DH isnt working at the mo and is depressed also, but supportive and kind, we're veering into financial meltdown, ARRRRGGHHHH..........

Anyway, my initials on FB are JB, and my pic is of me sitting on a bed with yellow and green bedding with my DD in my arms.

looking forward to encouraging each other
xx

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MathsMadMummy · 02/04/2010 10:04

we are going out to horsham today.

hope everyone's ok - if not, just raid the easter eggs!

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BeckyBendyLegs · 02/04/2010 11:08

I'm selling all my maternity clothes on ebay today and some 0-3 month clothes DS3 didn't get around to wearing. That's a positive for me. Sorting and clearing and making money!

DS1 and DS2 are watching Alice in Wonderland (the old Disney version) on TV and woohoo we're going on a family trip to Tesco's later according to DH. DS3 is asleep.

I usually hate bank holidays.

I know it is hard but lots of positive thoughts everyone. When I feel really down I cuddle my DSs and think about how lucky I am to have them.

LittleMarshmallow · 02/04/2010 11:12

I have been up since 3am as I couldnt sleep but have done way too much so am going to take my laptop to my bed and hide for the rest of the day, I have dropped ds at sil's so I have peace

BeckyBendyLegs · 02/04/2010 11:13

countrylover just read your post. Glad you managed your meeting ok and fingers crossed about the job. I keep doing the same: doing too much too soon. It's hard not to though when things are going well.

ToccataAndFudge · 02/04/2010 11:15

I woke up earlier (courtesy of DS3 and then DS1) but did get back to sleep at 6, to be woken by DS3 again at 8.30 and have only just got off the sofa.

Have the Easter Meditation at church this afternoon.

Want to try and get some more washing sorted today

ToccataAndFudge · 02/04/2010 11:55

and I've just discovered I've run out of filters for my roll-ups.........that means I've now got to get DS3 dressed and drag them all to the shop

ASecretLemonadeDrinker · 02/04/2010 12:02

Have tons to do today - DH was supposed to drop DS1 at my mums this morning, but has just left ! Hopefully doing some sorting/painting and getting the boys into their bedroom. Although I had the chance to, I didn't stay in bed today too late, though have just hung around all morning waiting for DH to sort DS out My main focus though is getting to mass on Sunday - I haven't been for ages - combo of don't like going with 2 unruley boys, been really ill and just haven't been 'able' (have problems getting out and about). So for tomorrow I will have to get everything as ready as can be for Sun morning so can just focus on actually getting there, rather than if I can find the DSs actual pairs of socks

Well done everyone who is pressing on - good luck T&F for this afternoon

Whoever was talking about doing too much at once (sorry, by the time I scroll down again I forget) I know what you mean. I took myself on a drive a few weeks back then bloody took forever to muster myself up to get back (only about 5 odd miles). I am not so bad if I have 'a plan' - I can shop easier for example if I know where I am going, what I am doing and sort of rush but get all weirdy when I wander round town for example, just browsing (I haven't for years), though I would really really love to! Ditto libraries - I would love to go and mooch but just can't.

ByThePowerOfGreyskull · 02/04/2010 12:13

morning all,
thanks to lovely DH I have just got out of bed and am having crumpets, therefore not alot done today

ToccataAndFudge · 02/04/2010 12:53

ok - since last post have got DS3 dressed, been to the shop, and made lunch (for all of us).

ToccataAndFudge · 02/04/2010 15:56

ok - that went ok (Easter Meditation at church).

Stayed and had a hot cross bun and coffee.