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Could we have a support thread for those who have manic depressive illness / bipolar disorder?

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electra · 24/08/2009 21:47

I don't see it talked about much here but it is quite common - I can't believe there are not other Mners who have it? Even if you name change it would help to hear how you manage your lives with it, etc.

I take medication, having had times where I didn't want to /self-medicated with alcohol etc....I find that it helps but I do still have relapses and after dd3 was born had to go into hospital for a month because sleep disrupted nights and stress with family made me get unwell.

All in all I find it exhausting to live with as well as frustrating.

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PurpleOne · 09/09/2009 15:03

Am in London.
There are a couple of friends but they don't live around here.
GPs on exs side of family currently live in Spain, so no good there.

Have only just woken up. My alarm has been going off all day since 7am. Kids gone to school and I don't remember a damn thing...

mummylin2495 · 09/09/2009 16:06

i think its another sign of the illness purpleone ,my sis used to do the same thing,or if that is not the case for you ,it sounds like you badly needed your sleep. maybe its because of the tabs you are taking now.

PurpleOne · 10/09/2009 00:52

I'm v v drunk so can't take my meds anyway.
Just found the person I gave my virginity to, on YouTube. I OD'ed on that back when I was 15.
Am not in a good place right now and wish that fucking dog barking at my heels would fuck off back into his kennel...I'll give him a fucking bone and a Schmacko if he wants it...just wish he'd bugger off.
Can't take a Valium as had a drink. Took an AD though, but only 20mg.

Hope everyone else is doing well? x

mummylin2495 · 10/09/2009 13:12

i really feel for you purpleone at being in such a bad place at the moment.I wish i could help you somehow ,but we are a long way from each other,but if chatting on here helps even a tiny bit ,it will be worth it.

PurpleOne · 10/09/2009 14:47

Woke up late again today.
DD2 slept with me last night, and didn't even hear her get up this morning.

DD1 had her counselling session - which I'm hoping she took herself to.

Got the FW from the SS coming at 3.30 so best get dressed. Feeling really unwell and jittery at the moment, and can't remember the last time I had a bath...

mummylin2495 · 10/09/2009 19:19

hope it went well this afternoon and you have been able to get some help

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electra · 10/09/2009 23:20

Hi everyone - I am sorry not to have posted for some time. I think depression has set in. I am feeling awful but I have a review with my psychiatrist next week. Dd3 is very unsettled and I think she senses the change in me I hope it doesn't last long.

How are you all?

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electra · 10/09/2009 23:21

I have not been depressed for well over a year.

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mummylin2495 · 11/09/2009 09:32

im sorry its rearedits ugly head agai for you electra,i hope that you will get some good advice/help at your review next week.I think you are right in saying your dd is picking up on your mood,i think children do sense when all is not well.Hope this spell soon passes for you

thesunshinesbrightly · 11/09/2009 15:24

been lurking around here for information about bi-polar
as i think i have it
but i have no intention of going to the doctors
just want really to know if anyone has got a grip on bi polar without taking medication?

mummylin2495 · 11/09/2009 18:25

please go and see your doctor,you will need his/her help.Its a very problematic illness and you really do need medical advice.Why are you reluctant to go and see your doc ?

mummylin2495 · 11/09/2009 18:27

and this may not be what you have,so you do need a proper diagnosis.If you need to caht thre are others on this thread who have this illness and maybe you wont feel so alone if you can chat to someone.

thesunshinesbrightly · 11/09/2009 18:32

no i cant i am embrassed about how i feel, i'm not saying anything about people who have the illness but i'm terrifed of been told i have it or being told to go away and stop been silly ya know.

thesunshinesbrightly · 11/09/2009 18:35

i just need to know for myslef if i have it or not, i dont want to be on medication.

mummylin2495 · 11/09/2009 19:11

you have no need to feel any shame ,mental ilness is simply that ,an illness like any other but of the mind.What do you think people are going to say or do if you admit to having a mental illness? Please go and see your doc,it may put your mind at rest.It may simply be a bad case of depression or something like that ,i dont know im not a doctor so you do need to seek help and advice from the proper people. is this something you have felt for a while ? and why do you think you bi=polar ?

mummylin2495 · 11/09/2009 19:15

from what i can tell you about my sister ,she could not of coped without her medication.She too didnt tell anyone to start with ,but in the end she confided in me.It cant help to have to keep it a secret,thats enough to cause more stress for anyone.

thesunshinesbrightly · 11/09/2009 19:26

my ups and downs
crying
i hate the world
then i love the world
over spending
sometimes i dont want to talk to people
i get very angry
i feel hopless
i feel stuck in a hole and i cant get out of it
sometimes i want to end my life, if i didnt have kids i know i would
their is no one i can talk to
i just want to dissapear

i dont know if i have and your right maybe i just have depression.

thiankyou for you help mummylin and takin the time to reply to me.

thesunshinesbrightly · 11/09/2009 19:27

i glad your sister got help but i just cant,
how is your sister?? does she have children??

mummylin2495 · 11/09/2009 19:42

yes she has two.But they are now older.But the first time she had a bad episode they were very young ,,she then had a several years being well until it struck her again about 5yrs ago.I think you owe it to yourself and your children to go and get help.Do you have a dh/dp to help you out at all ? Please pluck up the courage to make an apt.Honestly it wont be too awful for you and they have seen it all before.Why are you so against going for help ? You deserve to feel well.

mummylin2495 · 11/09/2009 19:44

are you scared of what you may be told ? isnt it better to know what you have to battle against and as i said ,it could be something completely different.You have to have a correct diagnosis and the only people who can give you that is your doctor.

thesunshinesbrightly · 11/09/2009 19:47

i dont know just the hole thing of been looked down on and i have kid's and i have horrible thoughts of them thinking i cant cope with my children.
no i dont have one have spilt up with partner at the start of the year.

did you read my post?? do i sound like i have it??

sorry just want to get your point of view.

mummylin2495 · 11/09/2009 19:51

well some of the things sound familiar,but i cant say if you are bi-polar ! your doctor isnt going to look down on you ! for what ? for being ill.That is why the doctors are there to treat people who are ill.They will be able to give you the help that you may need,they certainly wont see you as a lesser human being.You would feel so much better if you saw someone ,then you maybe wouldnt feel as though you are on your own,you would have someone to help you.How many children do you have and are they still very young ?

mummylin2495 · 11/09/2009 19:52

do you think your breakup is anything to do with how you are feeling ?

mummylin2495 · 11/09/2009 19:59

have you tried talking to other people on here who have some kind of depression ? i have to go for a while as my dh just bought my takeaway home.keep your chin up and try and pluck up courage to go and see someone.Will catch up with you later.

thesunshinesbrightly · 11/09/2009 20:01

no i dont miss him at all he was very abusive and controlling towards my children and me.
dunno i went to the doctors with a problem before that needed a operation and the doctor found it highly amusing.
dont think their is anywhere else i can go is there?