Has anybody ever actually gone to A&E because they were suicidal or just not coping?

[ABitWrong]

What do they do? Do they let you go? Do they involve SS?

poor you, that sounds pretty awful. i think its scary when you don't feel like you? but it will get better, am really sure it will, cos reading this thread, you are doing all the right things, and you should feel so proud that you are really trying to come through this.

are you on your own tonight? i mean, no ex-partner or anything in the house?

ex-p is downstairs, heworks at night
children asleep

i guess its pretty difficult with him around? i mean, to be able to phone friends or helplines to get some support when you really need it?

sorry i am really spacey, i keep freezing

it isimpossible, i can only phone if i go out

thats ok, i can just wait til you unfreeze and post again... but i am worried about you, are you still in a terrible state or feeling a bit calmer?

bit calmer but not normal

that sounds really difficult - am glad you can be online and in your house.
does contacting people online make you feel any better?

well, even just a bit calmer is a really good thing. but horrible to not feel yourself xxx
what is yourself normally like? i bet its really nice...

I don't think I wouldhave made it this far without internet friends

well thats a really great thing, am so glad you have internet friends, just from reading this thread i can feel the strength of peoples support and feeling for you

• thats one of the things that makes me think you're really nice and doing so well to be struggling this hard and trying to get yourself out of this horrible pit you are in...

i know i am very lucky

well, i don't know about lucky, cos i am sure you deserve it totally!
but it seems like you have some great support here, am sorry no one you know is online right now, i hope i am doing ok to stand in for people who know better...

You just tell me if you want to carry on chatting, or if you want to talk about something in particular, like good things, or bad things... or even the weather if it makes you just hang on until you feel a bit calmer!

just letting you know i am still here

thank you, you are kind

this just feels surreal, i feel surreal

surreal is a good way of describing it, from my experiences... that feeling of the moment you are in not being real, thats the bit that scared me personally - so my heart goes out to you.

but you DO come out of it, little by little, so please don't give up. Sometimes you turn the corner without even knowing it, and then you suddenly realise that everything has clicked back into place and you didn't even notice when it happened.

you need to hold on really tightly to your faith that you won't feel like this forever, you just hang in there....

Just want to say hang on in there ABW, life really IS worth living once you get past the dark bits that come and go. When you're feeling better and you look at your kids you'll be glad. I can't remember how many times I've wanted to just give up, but I'm so glad I'm still here. Imagine where you want to be in the future (more kids, nice house, better car, better job - whatever floats your boat). For me it's been different things each time (better bloke, move to new area, start college course, get a job, holiday in sunshine) but I find that keeps me going until I feel more in control,(or until my medication kicks in), carrot on a stick I guess. Think of a carrot and go get it. Gotta go, will be checking on you tomorrow (when I can get on the pc that is). Take care hun.

you must be exhausted with all this hanging on in there, it takes alot of effort when you really at the bottom, but i think you doing really well.

Are you still online and awake? or getting a bit more sleepy now?

Thank you.

I am going to trty ton fet some slkeep now I am sssuddenly rooo titrftired

xx thanks

sleep well, and remember what a great job you are doing just keeping on going...
i'll check in tomorrow from work to see if you got any sleep,

take care xxx

AWB - hang on in there. I started on AD's 6 weeks ago now.

The first two weeks were awful - I needed help to cope with my three dc's. I had a couple of moments of unspeakable bleakness which were terrifying. Very bad insomnia - lying awake all night with a bad energy running through my whole body, mind racing.

I'm feeling so much better now, nearly normal actually. I'm smiling a lot, not shouting at my dc's. Hope you feel better soon - I'm sure you will.

How are you doing this morning? Sorry i was not on facebook last night. You can do this.

Hope you got some sleep.

Hanging on, waiting for how you are feeling to change, is so very very hard. You're turning a corner now though, it may not feel like it but you are. You have sought help, the AD's will kick in soon enough, you have appointments this week which will help.

I know that at midnight when you feel at your absolute worst it won't feel like that, but every day you get through is a battle won and as the next couple of weeks go by the battles will become easier and easier.

Thinking of you. I can't be around online much this week but when I can be I'll look out for you.

oh honey, sorry it's been so ahrd this weekend (must be something in the moon...!)

Steps are now in motion to help you though, that is good. The ads will make you feel worse before you feel better, that is very common. I'll 'speak' to you on FB tonight. Get some sleep if you can x

Thank you everybody

Today is hard too