Has anybody ever actually gone to A&E because they were suicidal or just not coping?

[ABitWrong]

What do they do? Do they let you go? Do they involve SS?

Hey ABW, you can do this my dear, you really can.

Little steps.

Can you do the rescue remedy with ADs?
Herbal teas at bedtime?
Read a book?

I will try and catch up later but probably have ot work this evening - boo.

Lots of love xx

Hi ABW new to MN but had to post, I know what you are going through ended up in AE last Sat as was suicidal. V frightening experience as thought I was going completely bonkers, I really did feel like my head was going to explode!

Was assessed by crisis mental health team and am waiting follow-up

SS did come round to see me, but only for half hour chat and then closed case as DCs were safe and well. HV also been round.

A week later, now all out in the open and with some sleep and starting to feel a bit normal but know it will be long road. Keep talking and I will watch thread..... x

2girls2love, i am so sorry to hear how you felt. I am still being seen my my local mental health team but have been released by the crisis team so i think i am a few months down the line to you. It does get easier but at times i have qustioned whether it was worth it. I am so glad you reached out for help.

ABW, you know where i am, keep texting and i will try and get on line tonight. You have done so well to get this far, keep going you can do it.
xxx

hello LR

that sounds awful 2Girls, glad you arefeeling abit better

hello Puddytats

feeling spacey andsurreal
that floor lookstempting again
just want to switch off
too much to do, not doing any of it

do you want a bit chat on FB now, ABW? Might it help distract?

all gonewrong again

ABW am really feeling for you at mo.... life is not so black for me but still dark grey. All I'm trying to do is focus on the next hour or so, I can't think any further than that, what's gone wrong for you?

kids fighting swearing shouting made mefreee up now my head is squeezing and dizzy

I'm not a psych (can't even spell it) but I've been here before and really cross with myself for getting to this point again I ended up at our local train station trying to throw myself off the bridge - don't get to that point please!!! I did CBT before, but that was a long term thing and it did help but in the meantime, you need to try and cope with day to day.

I try to see depression as a physical illness (am not a Dr though) if you are not well physically you cannot hope to deal with the really big mental/emotional issues. You will get to a point when you can deal with these, but put them to one side at the moment. Focus on staying well and healthy, are you sleeping, (I'm not, but am trying a relaxation tape tonight)? What about eating and taking care of yourself?

At the moment, I'm finding it easier to focus on the physical wellbeing so that I will have the strength to deal with the emotional ones.

can you find somnething to eat ABW? Ads and Diazepam not good on empty stomach.

Cup of tea ans soem Rescue Remedy?

Some toast?

Have made it to bed. And eaten food.

good night, and i hope you have a bit better night than last night. don't forget that you're doing really well.

up again

sigh

Good luck today, let me know how it goes

xxx

Day 7. Will I really be feeling better in a week?

I want to curl up on the floor and hold onto furniture. Got to stay on my feet. Stuff needs doing but I can't face it.

Evening ABW. what can you do right now to distract yourself?

donewashing up, cleaned sink
got to feed dcs, don't want to be near food

Get the dc involved..you supervise and tell them what to do, they can prepare and cook.?

don't even know what I'm giving them
and kitchen so small
just got to concentrate

Does it really get better? I can't see it happening

I just fuck everything up.
I'm really sorry for taking up so much of everybody's time, you are all so kind.
Today I have been called evil, a bitch and a fucker. BY MY CHILDREN.
If they can see it, it must be true.
I am not doing well enough, I am shit.

Ah mate, you are none of those thngs.
your children are angry and maybe a bit scared and the other parent in their life is not and has not been being a parent for ages, from what you've told me.
So you are not coping, you are not well. You will feel better and you will cope again.
Honey, I have seen your photos...the beautiful fancy dress costumes, the amazing home-made cakes, the knitted toys... these are what you are capable of when you are on form.
You are funny and kind and sensitive and thoughtful and resourceful and creative.
But you need a big helping hand.

And all of us on here will do our utmost to help by being here and listening.
xx

God I second eveything Molly said.

My children think you are amzing
Dd2 says you make the best banana cake ever, and was serioulsy in awe of ds's cake.

You are such a dedicated mother, you always put the dcs first, and you end up being at the bottom
And then you help other people too.

You will get through this sweetie.

Anyway, you have to, still have you on standby as a rabbitsitter for if neighbours change their minds.