Anyone else struggling with anxiety?

[mooseloose]

I've been off work nearly three months now and am just really fed up with myself now. i've refused any meds but I just cant get over it. I started my counselling last week, and am hopeful she can sort me out. it was caused by by son having an accident, and juggling work etc which just got too much and made me cry.
Id had a lot of panic attacks but they are getting better but now I just feel worried when i go out, and that i want to cry.
Today I just can't breathe. I don't know if i'm worse today because i'm due on too.
I just really feel i've lost my way and lost confidence in myself, and i dont know what to do to get myself back.
I'm all crabby and wound up with people too - no patience.
I think the doctor is fed up with me too and i'm also worried she won't keep giving me sick notes, i'm never usually ill.......

helloooo its me. Piggin computer! Someone coming to look at it tomorrow! Will read old messages thru tomorrow when have more time. Hope everyone ok. xx

Morning Girls!

Welcome rosepetal! Feel free to join us! Its good to talk witht he girls on here! I came on after having a similar experience to you. Started suffering a few months after the birth of my ds1, was doing really well for months but have started suffering again now that my ds2 is a few months old! Hoping its just a blip!

Candy, sounds like you have had a crap weekend! Do you have breathing excerises for over breathing? Sorry to hear about your ds's cold, my little one is loaded to with bad cough I am the same whan I am due my period everything seems to get worse around the days I am due on and I don't suffer too badly for pmt! I am due on in a few days and dread the run up to it! lol! Not sure what to tell you about the herbal stuff, but if you find anything that works let us know!

Hi moose, hope you get ur computer sorted soon, has been too quiet on here!

Blissa - you still there??? lol!

Hope you are all well and looking forward to a sunny holiday weekend down south??!!! Think we have rain!

x x x

Lol yommy I'm still here. Hope your ds's cold is better today. Today is my birthday and we just got back from having dinner out with the kids. Has been spoilt by dd2 lying to me about something and me shouting. And it's half term yippee!

Sorry you've not been too good this week Candy. Hope you've felt a bit better today. Don't know about feeling more anxious around my period, I have started to notice I get a few physical symptoms when I'm ovulating and that makes me anxious thinking it's something else. I've started to suffer period pain again, forgotten how bad I used to get it before going on the pill! Hope your ds is feeling better too.

Got your computer fixed yet moose?

Hi Rosepetal, welcome to our little gang it's funny I could pass any of these ladies on the street and not know it but talking to all of them is really helping me, I hope we can do the same for you

Hi all not been on for a while due to people being ill and lots of family birthdays!
Happy Birthday Blissa!hope you were made a fuss of today!was mine on sat lol
Welcome Rosepetal hopefully you will feel more positive and calm again soon.
Hello jrsqueak ~its horrid feeling low in the morning isn't it especially if there doesn't seem to be a reason for it.
Hi candy sorry you haven't been too good lately ~but you always get your kids sorted no matter how you are feeling don't you ~ good for you!Are you on the pill cos I think they do affect moods ~ I'm hopeful now I've finally got rid of the mirena I will see a difference in some of the side effects I think I've been having.I've been really bad with low energy lately~I don't feel down atm,I've got loads I want to do but I feel really done in all the time!The gynae dr said today it could be hormonal ~I just hope it passes soon!
moose ~hope you doing well at work!
Oh yes,little ds settled into new swimming lessons a bit more now after his allergy disaster ~loves jumping in the deep end ~ result!!

Morning Girls!

I am feeling good this morning, had a great sleep last night and I think to makes all the difference!

Sorry I never asked for you in my post yesterday morning! I always get you and moose confused...must be the m's! lol! Was it your birthday on the 16th? If so that was my birthday too! lol! So many may birthday on the forum, weird, lol! Glad to hear you are feeling good other than being knackered! Hope it passes for you soon too!

Blissa - happy belated birthday to you! Hope you had a nice day other than the meal! You can always rely on the kids, lol!

How are you feeling today candy?

Moose hope you get your computer fixed soon!

Hi to anyone else who is still around!

Weather is pants here today! Can't even get my washings hung out! my ds1 is obsessed with wearing footy strips, but I only let him wear them out to play so he has at least 2 changes a day when at nursery! Nightmare!

Hope you all have a lovely long weekend! Woo Hoo! Anyone doing anything nice? My dh goes away for a month on monday am

x x x

Hi yommy ~ theres a lot of us now isn't there now lol!
Yes my birthday was the 16th too!
Have a good day ~ shame about your dh going away on monday though.

Helloooo. Ran avast free virus scan and it found lots of worms and trojans, but its still running so slowly. each page taking 5 mins to load!

Work is ok ish. been panicky last two morns last weeks. Cried once, and got friends to talk me thru another. Did 4 hours. lunch, and then another hour. But feels like a lot. Am shaky everytime i leave. 4 hours seems to be enough.

Hope you all ok, and enjoying birthdays etc. Will come for a proper look and read later. xx

hi girls
hope you all had a good weekend
ive had a very good day today -enjoyed the sun being out kids able to play outside with their mates
done some baking today while dh took ds out was lovely.
can i order more of the same ?

Morning Girls,

Hope you are all well! I am good this morning despite the fact that my hubby left for a month . Wasn;t sure how I was going to cope, but have been better than I have been the past few days so far....don;t want to jinx myself! lol! Need to nip down to the bank at some point today, wish I had done it when I dropped ds off at nursery!

Weather is pants up here today...again! Think it has to be for the next few days!

Anyway, beetr go tidy up before I need to get ds1 for nursery and ds2 wakes from his morning nap!

Good day to all! x x x

Hi girls. Been a nice day here. We have been for a bike ride. Happy afternoon. Just had two hours digging at allotment so just havin a cuppa and a biccie!

Yommy, my hubby goes away too, although hasn't much in the last year. I've done 8 weeks on our own before!

I'm always fine for the first two or three weeks, and pleased to be able to come on computer with out being moaned at etc for being anti social! But then I get fed up with all the running about for the kids, juggling work/housework/taxi! And then i crab on the phone to him and resent him! Horrid!

Morning Girls,

Moose what does your husband do? My hubby hasn't had much work since out ds2 was born in October! Not idea finacially, but we have managed and I have to say its has been fantastic having him at home!

I was up way to early with the biys this morning so my head is getting sore now, never slept too well as it was dh first night away. Hopefully tonight will be better!

Hope you all have a nice day x x x

Citalopram worked really well for me, but whilst still on them, I arranged for cognitive behaviour therapy. (I paid for it myself, though if I'd been prepared to wait 6 - 9 months, I could have got it free.)

Cognative Behavioural Therapy has changed my whole life.

I still suffer from anxiety. I had a difficult childhood and lost 'my invulnerability shield' early on. I am and always have been conscious that really bad stuff could happen at any moment. So it is part of my make up to get anxious about stuff, especially family.

But CBT has given me the tool kit to sort myself out, so I don't get locked into cycle of worry/freeze up/worry even more/freeze up even more/depression.

For me, talking therapies ease the symptoms but didn't cure the illness. CBT enables me to put myself back on track, when I start to go off balance. Its a bit like the way we constantly adjust our balance when we walk. We all have to readjust in the face of what life throws at us. Anxiety sufferers find this really hard, but it is a skill that can be learnt and practised.

Good luck in getting this sorted out. I am sure you will - just the fact that you are on here means that you are pro active, so make sure you give yourself credit for that.

thankyou maria for such a postitive post

im on the list for cbt and im pinning all my hopes on it working
so fed up with this anxiety hanging over me the whole time
cant wait for it to start so i can get my life back on track

Hi girls,

Great post maria, it's lovely to hear positive stories

Not been on for a few days, had a day out on saturday, lounged in the garden on sunday (and got burnt) and took the dcs to the seaside yesterday. Feel shattered today, and have had loads of housework to catch up on!

Had my INR test last wednesday and totally forgot to pick up my results book, which is very unlike me. Had to wait until today, and am disappointed with the result- it has gone from 1.9 to 1.7, even though they upped the dose a bit. I thought it'd be at least 2 as my blood's always been quite sensitive to it before. So now it's been increased more. Now I am worrying that it isn't working and that something nasty will happen when I come off it next month.

Sounds like you have similar problems to me moose. My computer has a Trojan virus that keeps regenerating itself. I run weekly scans and just lock it in the virus vault. It's annoying though as the pc runs slower, I can't post long messages (hence my 2 parter), it hates facebook and I can't order things from Amazon. Hope work went well today.

Hope you get a better nights sleep tonight yommy. I don't like it when my dp works away, the longest he has done is 3 weeks, when dd2 was a couple of months old.

Hope you're feeling a bit better today morning. Glad your ds's swimming lessons are going well, have you managed to take him on your own yet?

Sounds like you've had a more positive few days candy, hope it continues

xx

Hi all - Blissa, computer seems ok at the mo. just ran another scan and its clear. I downloaded free 'avast home edition'. I deleted most and put some in the chest. Give it a try. Google it.

Hi all hope everyone is ok.

It is rainy here today but I don't mind as long as it doesn't last forever!

I still feel a bit low in energy but on the other hand also very calm ~think it is good to be rid of the progesterone in the mirena at last!

Have a good day everyone!

Morning Girls!

Maria - thanks for the positive post! Love positive stories as make me really believe there is life after anxiety! And I am sooooooo lookign forward to it! Keep posting!

Blissa, sorry your results werent as good as you hoped! I hope everything will be fine for you!

The weather is pretty crappy here too this morning but I have laods to do in the house anyway! My ds1 is back to not wanting to go to nursery - not sure if he is a little unsettled because hd has gone away again?!

ANywho, better get started on the house work before I need to go get ds!

Hope you are all well! And have a good day! x x x

Blissa ~ I think it will be good when you come off the warfarin and have the investigations done so you know where you stand.

I guess it must be quite soon now?

I wouldn't think it would take long to get the results and then decide if you need further anticoagulation ~ is that right?

When is your next INR check?

Morning Girls,

How are you all? I am having a really crappy day! I have been feeling panic all day wherever I have had to go! Not good! I was on my way to comet and I had to turn back - thats the first time I have had to do that and I am gutted that I had to do it! Worst thing is that I don;t even know why I am feeling like this! I just feel like crying!

I really need to call the people my GP recommened to me tomorrow and start getting this sorted! I was leaving it as I thought I was doing really well, but now I'm not so sure! Sorry about all the negitivity! Am I just having a bad day??? I hope so!

Hi all. Yommy, don't let it beat you, please! Talk to yourself, thats what I do - 'come on' 'dont be silly' 'whats the matter with you' 'its okay'. Usually on the way to work when I stop breathing half way there!

Sorry you had a bad day yesterday yommy, how are you this morning?

I have 'avast' moose. I've tried a couple of different ones since I cancelled my talktalk protection- that was the one that let them all in!

Morning- I come off the warfarin on the 18th June, not long! I have an INR test on the 17th. I then have to wait til the end of July to have the tests and some of the results can take up to 12 weeks to come back. I know I have to come off, and I thought to myself yesterday that I've possibly not been theraputic for almost a month and nothing has happened (touch wood)

It's not raining here today so I am taking the dcs to a country park for a picnic with my sister and her boys. Hope you all have a good day

xx

Hi Girls,

Moose thanks for your message last night, it made me cry!

I am feeling much better today, thank goodness! I was actually ready to throw in the towel yesterday I was so fed up! Not sure why I was having such a bad day! Maybe something to do with being my week on, who knows! Anyway, I managed to go to comet this morning after I dropped my ds1 of at nursery. When I got into the shop I wanted to run out but I got what i needed and that was fine! Was back out this afternoon woth my friends for lunch then to the park so all in all its been a good day! I also called the therapists my GP recommended to me so they are ging to call me back with an inital appointment for me to meet with them and talk and we will decided the best action to take! So fingers crossed!

Blissa - hope you have had a good day at the park!

Hi to everyone else!

x x x

Oh Yommy! Sorry I made you cry! I made myself cry at work too last week.
I'm really really pleased you got yourself back on track today - see you can do it!

I've had the week off work on hol. It will either kill me or cure me for work again next week!

Good to hear you had a better day yommy, well done for phoning, I hope you get to see someone soon.

How is your friend doing moose? I hope the rest is doing you good!

Had a lovely day out. Hope the weather stays like this