Anyone else struggling with anxiety?

[mooseloose]

I've been off work nearly three months now and am just really fed up with myself now. i've refused any meds but I just cant get over it. I started my counselling last week, and am hopeful she can sort me out. it was caused by by son having an accident, and juggling work etc which just got too much and made me cry.
Id had a lot of panic attacks but they are getting better but now I just feel worried when i go out, and that i want to cry.
Today I just can't breathe. I don't know if i'm worse today because i'm due on too.
I just really feel i've lost my way and lost confidence in myself, and i dont know what to do to get myself back.
I'm all crabby and wound up with people too - no patience.
I think the doctor is fed up with me too and i'm also worried she won't keep giving me sick notes, i'm never usually ill.......

well done candy - thats very brave. I would be scared. For medicinal purposes I would suck on some galaxy chocolate!

well done candy hope its not too sore.

hellllllooooooooo

hi moose!

just thought I'd pop head round door to say hello. Am going to bed in mo. dh watching footie. I watched casualty, but it made me shaky. Dh thinks I'm mad! But it does! I think my adrenaline must be easily triggered.

no don't watch casualty its far worse than real life!
watched the rugby very exciting but disappointing cos wales lost

I like trial and retribution too, but that had the same effect!

haven't seen that but have got freaky eaters on tape[!] might watch that while i wait to pick up my ds1 and gf at midnight

hi ladies
yes its very sore he had a job to get the tooth out
am very swollen and i think its infected have got some antibiotic's and so have started taking them.
i had a bad night last night i was so tired and sleepy but scared that there was something badly wrong with my mouth,got myself all worked up ,and when i get like that i feel like my throat is closing up ,i know it isnt really and its just anxiety but it doesnt make it any better.
what a crap way to spend mothers day!!!
ive only had 6 hrs sleep and i normally need 10 so gonna be very tired today.

anyway enough about me how is everyone else getting on ? -spring has sprung and summer isnt far away -something to be very grateful for

candy poor you!
when i had a tooth out i had to do salt rinses i think.
hope they make a fuss of you today!

Morning all

Sorry your tooth is still hurting Candy, hope your day is getting better.

I'm still sat here in my pjs, should get dressed really!

hi, had a nice but busy day today - football, and visiting etc.
Hope your tooth a bit better Candy? Hope you got some pampering.
Just listening to news and then bed. Sad about jade isn't it. xx

Hi all

Not feeling too good today, my chest is aching and I can't stop focussing on it, I feel really scared. Dp has said he doesn't know if he wants to be with me anymore, I don't know what to do. Just feel like crying and hiding away

Hi blissa
do you have a course of action to follow if you are unwell with your chest?
can you phone the secretary of your consultant who's looking after you in that event or have you been discharged back to your gps care?

I think if you feel symptoms,you are quite justified in asking for advice,or a review.

Hi morningsun
I'm under the care of the GP, I think I'm going to give them a ring. All I was told was that if I feel breathless then to go to A&E.

so didn't you say they were testing for something after 6 months,are you not seeing them again for that?

How do you feel,are you breathless or is it painful to breathe today?

Yes ring the gp now ,get appt as early on today as poss to be on safe side.

mention breathless and clot on the lung and you should be seen pretty sharpish.

of course there are viruses and allergies[altho they don't cause pain] and other causes too but that doesn't matter,with your history go straight away.

but don't panic,you'll be fine

going out in a bit blissa
hope you've got your appt sorted and if you're feeling worried can your mum or someone come over to be with you
if you do feel quite breathless or in pain i would go to a&e as they can check you properly
see you later

I have rung, am seeing the duty dr at 11, he happens to be the dr who runs the anticoag clinic. Just waiting for MIL to come look after ds.

I have to be off the warfarin for 6 weeks before I can have the blood tests. On my discharge sheet it said about an attrial flutter but no one has mentioned this and that's been playing on my mind.

I don't know if this is just me winding myself up or if its real. I'm not really breathless, my chest feels tight and so does my back and shoulders. I got myself worked up yesterday, but not this bad

Dp just phoned, he sounds so cold and off

Thanks for listening x

don't worry blissa you are taking the right action.
make sure you tell the dr whats wrong and don't fall into trap of apologising in case its just anxiety,let themcheck your chest and heart properly
speak to you later and don't worry xx

Oh what a horrible day

Sat in tears with the dr, told him how I feel. He listened to my chest and said its clear. He thinks its muscle tension from where I wind myself up. He prescribed co-codimol (sp). Then I asked about the atrial flutter and he said there was nothing in my notes but sent me for an ECG which I had this afternoon. Came back clear.

I told him I'm not coping and that I am focusing on every niggle I get. He said to take the co-codimol and it would help calm me down. S o I asked if there was anyone I could talk to and finally he agreed to refer me for councelling. So now I have to wait to hear about that.

Have been sat with MIL all day talking about dp, I'm so scared he's going to leave me.

Feel silly calling her over as it turns out there's nothing wrong. Very tired and a bit weepy

Hi Blissa,
sorry you are having a hard time at the moment,
I hope the GP pulls out all the stops to get you talking to someone soon.

It has only been through talking to mental health professionals that I have been able to identify the things that set me off.

Haven't been around for ages, things in a bit of a downward spiral recently trying really hard to get things back on track before my therapist goes away on holiday - it is making me very anxious just thinking that I am not going to be able to see her for 3 wednesdays, bless her she has arranged that I can see her on the monday before she goes and on the Thursday when she gets back.

hi to everyone else

Hi Greyskull nice to 'see' you

I hope the councelling helps, I've tried to manage it on my own, but I think I need some help now. Don't know how long it'll take to see someone, I hope its not too long.

Sounds like you have a lovely councellor, hope you're feeling ok xx

blissa~there isn't "nothing wrong" is there,you had symptoms that reminded you of being ill and thought you'd better be on the safe side.
Now you know if its just a niggly ache in your shoulders its probably tension~nothing to feel embarassed about.
Its understandable you would want to catch anything early .
Its a fine line and maybe you're going to need lots of reassurance and false alarms before you feel comfortable again.
Please don't worry

Thankyou morningsun. You really do talk a lot of sense

Thats ok blissa i'm glad your tests were clear
hows things with dp now?