Anyone else struggling with anxiety?

[mooseloose]

I've been off work nearly three months now and am just really fed up with myself now. i've refused any meds but I just cant get over it. I started my counselling last week, and am hopeful she can sort me out. it was caused by by son having an accident, and juggling work etc which just got too much and made me cry.
Id had a lot of panic attacks but they are getting better but now I just feel worried when i go out, and that i want to cry.
Today I just can't breathe. I don't know if i'm worse today because i'm due on too.
I just really feel i've lost my way and lost confidence in myself, and i dont know what to do to get myself back.
I'm all crabby and wound up with people too - no patience.
I think the doctor is fed up with me too and i'm also worried she won't keep giving me sick notes, i'm never usually ill.......

he's ok !!!
woke up had some food and he seems fine
what a bloody stupid woman i am

don't be daft you're not stupid they get tired and grumpy at the start of bugs don't they maybe he'll get a cold in a day or two

OMG just walked up to the drs to pick up prescription for more rat poison, should have taken about 45 mins but took an hour and a half as he wanted to stop and look at everything, climb trees, etc which is fine as its a lovely afternoon. He is now, however, throwing the most almighty tantrum about God knows what! He wears me out.

Hi Candy, glad your ds isn't poorly. Are you feeling any better?

Can totally relate to that incident morning, I think the fear of what if is very powerful.

He is ds of course, thought I'd put that

thanks blissa
god kids are so wearing arent they
they sap you of all energy
big ds is off at a party so its quiet here for now
going to put little ds to bed early today
im feeling bit better thanks
have got my sister and her hubby&son round for lunch tomorrow,i have some diazepam in my handbag if i get the wobbles
i know its not the answer but its my crutch
have completed an online cbt course it wasnt very good to be honest,it ws more for people who have fears of things like driving or spiders etc
it didnt really apply to me
im just a weird person who gets anxious for no good reason.
the extra dose of ad's is making me very tired but maybe its what i need to relax more
as have found it very hard up till now
how are you moose and greyskull?

hi, everytime i log om lately there are loads of messages to read! We're a proper little gang aren't we! I only seem to be able to get on at night, and after ds has gone to bed!

I hAVE BEEN OK TODAY actually, nice feeling. I've just been really tired lately, whether its the anxiety or the runnin I don't know. have been taking iron pills.

I've got my big half marathon to run on Sunday (scream!). Ran 12 miles two weeks ago, so I should be able to do it. Just hope we are not the last ones in! - do 12 min miles, but we run all the way.

Well done Blissa, you should be proud of yourself!
candy, have you tried www.moodgym?

Hi moose, I seem to have been here all day! I do love it once the dcs are in bed and dp isn't home yet.

Good luck for Sunday, i'm sure you'll do really well

good luck for your run on sunday moose
i have been good today been so busy with the family here and i had to perm mums hair for her
am very tired
what is mood gym and is it free

Good luck for your run moose x

hi, ran my run in the rain and the hail and strong winds! just waiting for the times to come up on the website, but think i did it in 2 hours 35. Only had to stop once and that was when my friend had a bad hip and had to stop. Am just cream crackered now! I just know getting down the stairs tomorrow will be agony!

I was all ok too, no panics or tears.

catch you later when they are all in bed!

moodgym is free - just google it. The doctor told me to go on it.

wow thats brilliant moose i am in complete awe!

Well done moose thats great. Hope your not aching too much today!

I've got dd1 off school today with sore throat. My shoulder's playing up and I've got no patience today, just really shouted at ds because he threw a paintbrush at my head. I just don't feel like I'm a very good mum at the moment, I'm more concerned with how I'm feeling and focusing on every niggle than doing things with them. I just do the neccessary, I've got to change this but how?

Hope everyone is having a good day xx

hi, my knees hurt! They feel like someone elses knees! have been gardening to try loosen them up!

Hope the day is getting better Blissa? I know what you mean, I was like that, just thinking about myself, and analysing it all. I think I just felt better if I kept myself distracted. And went outside.

hi all
im having bad tooth ache since last week when i had a filling replaced and its got really bad today so im going back tomorrow and im shitting myself
i hate the dentist
ive been so shakey and panicy today just thinking about it but i know its got to get sorted i cant go on being in pain
i want someone else to do it for me

Morning all, hope you are ok at the dentist today candy, hopefully your tooth isn't hurting any more x

I've decided I haven't been doing enough, I had a good chat with my older sister last night who has lived with depression and panic attacks for a long time. She talked about councelling but I think in the end we both decided I'm coping and I told her I'm going to get myself some hobbies. I fancy planting some veg in the garden and learning a craft, maybe knitting?

This morning I've done some baking with ds ad=nd I'm going shopping while he is at school this afternoon. Feeling more positive

Hope everyone's day is going well xx

Hi blissa good for you!It does sound like you're coping really well and now want to get your life back on track.
have a good dayxx

Thanks morningsun, how are you today?

i'm fine thanks but still a bit tired and lazy with my cold!
Am getting thru paperwork tho and i'm telling myself however dull a job is it can't go on for ever!

Oh don't envy you that! I'm off to take ds to pre-school now, catch you later xx

hi all
well had an eventfull few days ds broke his arm last night
got him to hospital this morning and he's in a temporary cast
managed to stay calm depsite my fear of hospitals
ds been so brave
my tooth ache has gone down so i cancelled my appointment
fingers crossed it will continue to improve
little ds has a temp now and to top it all off
the fridge door is nearly hanging off being held together with brown tape !!
got to go back to the r=fracture clinic tomorrow for a permanent cast
will let you know how we get on

Oh no candy your poor ds, how old is he?

Glad your tooth is feeling better, why do things always go wrong all at once?!

Ds cried when I dropped him at school today, he's never done that before. Hopefully was a one off. I managed to get through my shopping with only a couple of wobbles, my chest felt tight all the way round though, was glad to get home for a cup of tea!

hi candy poor you and your ds
well done coping with the hospital and hope it goes well tomorrowxx

hi all, oh dear candy! Is he ok today - get the calpol in!
Well done Blissa on your hobbies - you sound more positive and determined in your writing! - Good luck as I have no luck knitting but my mum and nan are fab at it!
Supposed to be tidying bedrooms but on here instead!

Hi moose how's the tidying going? Haven't actually started knitting yet, I had a quick go at my mums a few weeks ago when she tried to teach the dcs and I wasn't too bad. Just can't remember how to cast on/off. Need to buy a book!

I think I managed a dolls scarf once Blissa!