Arrggghhh :(

[ETsmum]

Quick vent required Had PND with my ds now 19months) and largely over it. But I hate days like today when I wake up feeling crap - just low, and feeling coldy doesn't help my mood either. Anyway he's awake on the early side for him (I shouldn't complain he sleeps v. well) but I just don't want to go and get him up and start the day Bu**er why does typing make me cry?

Feel selfish typing this, as I AM feeling so much better than a few months ago. I'm sure all mums get low days, I just feel so incompitant when I do 1 thing at a time I guess.....

Hey lonelymum, don't be lonely, not with mumsnet Seriously, it isn't fun being lonely. I'm very lucky in that I have family and friends to chat to etc etc. Quite new to mumsnet and still find it weird that I don't mind typing stuff for total strangers to read, but can't talk to RL friends about things. Horray for a bit of anonymity

ETSmum-soooooo sorry wasnt around yesterday to wish you Happy Birthday-I really hope you had a nice day!! When I got back from work on tuesday night i started to feel really rough-went to bed at 12 oclock and by one was heaving my guts up both ends!!!No sleep whatsovever,toilet hugging the whole night-was rotten!!
Dh couldnt stay at home so had to look after the kids whilst still vomiting,crying,trying to breast feed my youngest with not an ounce of anything to give him and no energy.I finally got to bed at 11.15am when grandad saved the day and thats where Ive been up to an hour ago.
Lonelymum,sorry to ask you such a personal question and then not be around to chat about your answer.How rude!You must have thought'sod her'!!! I think unless you have a big extended family around you popping in and out,babysitting,giving you a break or mucho friends who can do the same we are all lonely Mums!!I know I feel incredibly lonely alot of days but mn is really helping-although those days when you feel like doing nothing it easy to use Mn as an excuse not to do things!
Well,I'm proud to say am on my ninth fag free day and feel like over the worst-cant believe Ive managed this well-am so proud of myself!

Dropinthe - well done re the fags And thanks for the b'day wishes. Will post later as off out with ds soon. Feeling much better than a couple of days ago!

Really glad to hear that and its a lovely day today!!

Yes I agree with you dropinthe, we are mostly a lonely lot. I just feel I have a longer history of loneliness than many as I have been a SAHM for nine years now. Sorry to hear you have been unwell and looking after the little ones at the same time - your dh has a lot of making up to do to you IMO!

Lonelymummy-what is SAHM-sorry for being thick!!

stay at home mum!

Dropinthe - hope today is still fag free?? And really sorry to hear you've been poorly - being ill and looking after kids in NOT fun. Hope your dh has given you lots of well earned tlc now.
It's "funny" sometimes. I have lots of rl friends and family, but it is so much easier online to chat about personal stuff. Like say if I'm feeling really low, I'd feel daft phoning a friend or my mum, but just writing stuff on here helps. Wish I'd found mumsnet months ago - they should give you the address when you leave hospital (along with a prescrip for valium, and lots of red bull!)

Ditto! Ive lost alot of the friends I would chat like this to although did I really have them in the 1st place??Not sure the answer to that-certainly I feel that mnetters are a real intalectual(who can spell better than me no doubt)bunch who remind you that you do have an oppinion,are real etc etc,do you know what I mean?
Anyway,have just got in from work-quick check on the thread I started for a laugh-To be or not to be...and this and Fag free...then off to bed.Am still fag free by the way,thank you for asking!!
Might not be posting until Saturday so
x x x HAPPY ST PATRICKS DAY X X X
AND A NICE WEEKEND TOO.

Are you around ETsmum/Lonelymum-are you both ok??

Hi dropinthe I'm here.

Not been great w/e for me. There is a thread in relationships entitled I've just said some unforgivable things in front of my children which explains it all.

How are you going?

Let me find it and get back to you,you poor thing-Sorry,youve had a bad one!!

Can you bump it??

here

Don't know. I am not adverse to anything suggested but I have to psych myself up slowly!

I agree-i'm a SAHM in the day(sorry for being fick before!)but ive got an evening job 2 nights and weekends on and off-its only a checkout job but in its banality is laughter,fun,a chance to escape the kids,a bit of extra dosh and some me time. Any thoughts??

Yep, have considered being a cashier. Or even a shelf stacker. But I would have to do it, like you, in the evenings and weekends, and I don't want to sacrifice my time with my dh to do that.

If the time with your dh is that good then life isnt so bad,eh?

No no it isn't. But the boredom, the loneliness and the lack of fulfillment is still there. I think I have 2 problems really: I am fed up of being a SAHM but I am lacking the confidence to do anything about it.

Are you around LM?

Sorry I wasn't then, but I am now if you are...

Sorry,Lonelymum-at the precise time you posted was at a funeral!!(Cor,how to cheer someone up,eh?)
How are you today?ing I hope! I seem to remember you saying you had a busy week-or were going away??

No not a busy week for me although at the weekend and the beginning part of next week we are gong back to our house in Sussex and visiting two sets of grandparents.

Not my favourite day today as dh is away tonight and I don't like being on my own. Will feel happier tomorrow morning so just ignore my .

Sorry to hear you were at a funeral. Hope it wasn't too upsetting for you, though I suppose that is a stupid thing to say.

Dont you make the best of dh away and do girly things just for you?? Nice meal that only you like,watching what you want on tv,reading if you dont normally,facepack/nails/long bath??
Or am I talking crap?