Convinced im going to die of rabies or prison

[Anxiouspotat0]

(Yes we have a type of rabies here only in bats)
5 weeks ago I woke up with this mark on my hand.
Google lense said it could be a bat bite.
I went to urgent care who said it doesnt look like a bat bite, who contacted ukhsa / rabies team, who said because I didnt see a bat in the room I didnt qualify for the jabs. Since then I have been convinced im going to die. I even wrote a goodbye letter to my children. I sleep with the window open and I am convinced a bat flew in and bit me and flew out.

I then went on holiday and had a run in with a bat there and came home completely panicked. Id been having rabies symptoms for most of the holiday so I was horrifically anxious the whole time and this was just the cherry on top.

Then I stupidly over exaggerated the exposure/ what happened on holiday at urgent care. This was fueled by ny anxiety from the "bite" here and that id been having what in my head were rabies synptoms, and having another run in with a bat over there also, I wasnt thinking straight and it just came out in the moment. I regret it badly.

Ukhsa then recommended the jabs based on that but I panicked as I read lying/ over exaggerating and getting treatment as is a criminal offense/ fraud against the nhs. But I was just terrified, anxious, not thinking straight and wanted to not be scared anymore. I declined the jabs as im terrified of getting into trouble.i dont want to be a bad person. I just dont want to die.

I just want to be okay again. My mental health is in tatters, im not eating, cant stop crying, cant parent my children, can barely work, my hairs falling out, panic attacks.

I did admit to multiple doctors that I wasnt completely honest about the exposure and thats why I declined the jabs as they probably woukdnt have recommended them otherwise,
and one doctor told UKHSA this also, so there is now evidence I wasnt honest that can be used against me and im so scared.

A a&e doctor recommended I just get the jabs even though UKhsa woulsnt have rexommended tbem if I had not exaggerated, because my mental health is suffering so bad -- I had a full breakdown on him- but im convinced I will be convicted of fraud if I do. Id lose my job and what if I went to prison. I have kids..

But im convinced ill die if I dont get them.
Even though logically I know theres a chance it isnt a bat bite. But no doctors can tell me what it could be. Im just so scared.

Im having really scary thoughts as I just want this all to go away. I feel hopeless and trapped and im terrified

What would you do? Risk legal trouble and get them? Or risk rabies.

Just get the jabs. Your doctor has even recommended them. Stop overthinking this.

There is 0 chance you will be convicted, it’s not like you’re tricking them into getting them, you have concerns about a potential bite so just get them. I’m sure we’ve all exaggerated symptoms slightly to a doctor when we’ve needed antibiotics or something. I know it’s easier said than done but you really need to relax.

@Icecreamdelight yeah you’re probably right. It’s someone on the wind up

The root cause appears to be severe health anxiety. I have written about my own experiences of health anxiety several times on this thread. The OP appears to reject all suggestions that others offer which state that her anxiety is the issue here.
Sorry, but you should be at work and you also need to be present for the children in your care.
Go and get the jabs, you will NOT be arrested, if anything, the health service will have already taken your mental health into consideration with this and are very likely offering you the treatment to appease this, the fact you have been put in touch with crisis teams supports this.
But, I guarantee, some other worry will pop up. CBT and acupuncture worked for mine, but, reading the responses you are giving, I don't think it's an exaggeration to imagine some kind of mental health intervention occurring, if you don't accept that this is an issue and don't get some help. I send you lots of love and strength, I do understand how this feels, but, if you are a mum, you need some clarity and peace.