Don't have the guts to end it.

[Itsprobablyme]

You know that saying. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Im really thinking shit it going to carry on until Im not longer here. But i don't know if i have the guts to actually do anything about.

When anything good or positive does happen it's very short lived. Things start to get better then something happens to fuck it up all over again.

My shit show of a life it posted all over MN its gone on for years nothing ever changes I feel totally misunderstood I feel I am to blame for everything that's ever happens. I feel im to blame when the answers are not simple.

I mean does there come a time when I'm meant to say enough is enough of this life. Surely there's only so much one person can take

Sorry, I couldn't read and run. I've not had time to read your previous posts but please ring the Samaritans. They're trained and hopefully can give you help.

Please take care.

It’s not easy to get help if someone is always there.

I changed name anyway 💐

As you’ve name changed you don’t have any visible previous posts so not sure what you think is all over MN. Whatever it is isn’t connected to this post.

I can only suggest you talk to someone, whether it’s your GP, Samaritans or someone in real life. If it helps to share on here this is the internet and no one knows who you are.

Life is tough but it can be good again with the right support. Everything is temporary. What may feel awful now won’t in the future.

Life is tough but it can be good again with the right support. Everything is temporary. What may feel awful now won’t in the future

I have been telling myself that for years. Think im kidding myself

Good, please don't end it all. Life can be all kinds of crappy, for a lot of the time. But you're important, you're loved and things will get better. They will no doubt then get crappy again, but that is life.

Please get some help from your GP, or if you have a local mental health crisis service they can be very helpful. Look after you.

Im really not feeling to seek help. Its just feels pointless but maybe that's just where im at the moment.

That's OK. Getting help can be work in itself. Can you just be for a bit? There doesn't have to be a point really. It's OK to just exist.

Do you have a big dark leather settee ? If so I think I know who you are and I’m sad to see you so down ? Can we help ? Do you want to talk about it ?

And I don’t mean in real life , I mean here .

Maybe you can tell us a bit more about what you are going through and we might be able to offer some support or useful advice?

I don’t know how helpful it is to suggest the OP has been outed when they’re already feeling down. That could cause so much needless worry.
OP you haven’t, this is the internet and tons of people have leather sofas. Whoever she’s thinking of does but that doesn’t mean it’s you.
Take care of yourself and if you don’t feel you can reach out for professional support yet then just focus on getting through each day until you’re more resilient. Going for a walk in this lovely weather could help. Or reach out to someone who cares about you and just catch up. Whatever you think there will always be someone.

@YetanotherNC25 If this poster is who I’m thinking of she’s actually got a lot of self reflection and from previous posts I may be able to support her
If OP is offended by my question then i sincerely apologise as have no ill intent
For anyone else - please don’t project your own opinion , be kind .

Hi Op, sending you loads of hugs.

It's difficult to help without knowing what are you going through x
How would you imagine your blissful life? Is it certain people that make it unbearable for you?

Are there any friends or family you can reach out to?

A therapist once said to me when I was feeling like it was easier to not carry on ‘that’s your mind telling you you don’t want to carry on like this, not that you don’t want to carry on with life, you’re just seeking change’
and it’s totally stuck with me, there is ALWAYS another way even though it might feel far away at the moment. The tiniest of steps in the right direction will get you there.
be your own best friend, take real good care of yourself by being that friend, shout and keep shouting until your friend gets the help they need as every living being on this earth deserves a life x

This is an internet forum designed for opinions to be shared.
I think it’s risky to suggest you know someone as this can lead to overthinking and spiralling MH due to the fear of being outed. It’s counterproductive. If the OP is female she may worry unnecessarily about this, adding to her concerns.
A DM might have been better so the OP can ignore it if it’s not them.

I have read posts, i will reply properly when I can

I’m really sorry to hear you are struggling. It’s a horrible feeling but there is hope for your future even if you can’t see it at the moment x

What have you done already OP? For example, medication, therapy, meditation, EMDR. support groups, moved etc Then people can give additional suggestions.

Happiness is also temporary OP and anyone expecting life to be an easy ride is in for a disappointment.

What have you tried op?

I have been telling myself that since I have been a teenager. Even more so in adulthood.

I mean to help yourself. Have you engaged with therapy?

What would you like your life to be?

Nothing professional wise. Within myself I try to change my mindset. Shake it off and carry on. Which often works if its just my own stuff.

But its much harder when the cause is from others around me. And I cant just stop it because I cant control what others do. But I also cant just dismiss things and pretend they are not there in order to make sure im ok.

And there's no point in proper therapy because of what I said in the above paragraph.

I have spent most of my life making sure everyone else is ok. Putting everyone else first. People in my real life have absolutely no idea how I feel and I would never ever put it on to them.