General support thread 2

[Helplessandheartbroke]

All welcome. No judgement and kindness all around x

Wish I could offer support but feeling low myself. Dr is adjusting my anti depressants at the moment so tapering down. Got an appointment tomorrow and hopefully she will precribe new ones . Everything seems so grey

This is great advice. Your daughter could learn a lot from your experiences IF she struggles in future. She absolutely needs you ❤

Happy new year ladies!

I'm sorry so many of you are struggling. This time of year can be particularly difficult. It's just over 12 months now since my breakdown.

I'm really trying to start the new year off on a higher note this year. I've neglected myself massively so I've started on manjaro to try and lose some weight and I'm going to do dry January.

We can do this ladies! X

Happy new year to you to @Helplessandheartbroke i hope this year is much more positive for you and us all!

@Ilovedogs1 how are u doing now? Sending hugs xx

And you sweet! How you feeling today? X

Up and down! I don’t know why but I just feel like I could burst into tears! I strongly believe it could be hormonal as I feel perfectly ok one minute and then the next I feel on edge and teary for no real reason. I guess I should go back to my gp but I never see the same one and there is no continuity of care, I just feel like I end up telling them what I want them to do with no real advice from them! I’m working from home today but I just want to crawl back into bed and sleep to escape these feelings 😢

Happy new year everyone. @Helplessandheartbroke interesting to note it’s 12 months since your breakdown as it’s approximately 6 months (from June last year) that I had my breakdown. I’m now obese (thanks Olanzapine), gained 2.5 stone since I took that but now off that and on 2 other medications which don’t seem to make me eat more.

@Whycantgiraffesdance sorry you’re struggling now. I’m in menopause and on HRT so think my hormones are luckily settled or as much as they can be. That’s rubbish about your doctors though I’m assigned to the care team I had since I was in hospital with this, I may have to discuss this with my own GP though.

@Georgeismydog I hope the doctors sort out your meds and things are less grey overall. Luckily today there’s sunshine even though it’s cold.

I’ve had the odd slump but trying not to be anxious or depressed. I guess the medication does help.

Gonnagetgoingreturnsagain

Dr decreased my ADs before Christmas and put them back where they were previously

@Whycantgiraffesdance awww I'm sorry hun. Are you still on any meds? If you're in the office tomorrow it might help keep your mind busy x

@Gonnagetgoingreturnsagain my meds have definitely contributed to my 2 stone weight gain. Typical how nothing comes without consequences! How are you doing now? X

Hi ladies. How's everyone getting on?
Feeling better than I was before Christmas, not so anxious, more waves of anxiety than constant. But my intrusive thoughts are one after the other like a machine gun.
I'm trying to not get sucked into them and trying to let them pass.
Having a few philosophical thoughts aswell like what's the actual point.
Everything seems like a bit to much work atm and I'm feeling quite overwhelmed. Feel like I need a good cry. Hope you are all OK. Happy New year!! X

Oh that’s a drag. I hope they get sorted out soon.

I’m probably due a medical review soon.

I’m not doing too bad have on and off days but more good than bad.

Have tried to diet a bit over past few days so I’ll see how that goes. x

So, I've avoided this post, as forums like this on Mumsnet are bad for my mental health, maybe some things I think and feel I prefer to bottle up....I am doing well in life at the moment, emotionaly, Carrer, family. Allthough I could do with improving health and social life. however I feel at the moment a little fragile ike a dam, with a few cracks and an working to maintain it. I've had some good chats with samitans.

I've read about others having breakdowns. I had one in 2016 and 2018.

Eg Yesterday, before work, I was dreading it due to the department and colleges I was rotated in and didn't have a good mindset, energy etc. due to staff sickness I was only in my dislike department for the afternoon, but lunchtime was awful with difficult patients and senior colleague leaving me to it, sink or swim type and I sank... In this department some colleges think Im good and can do lunchtime alone, but the college who knows the most about my mental health have said not yet. I've beaten myself up a bit about it. But it was not the right time for me and next week is a fresh week. I should write a reflection and think about how I've improved for cpd, but I'm tearing up a bit thinking I'm incompetent at my profession I've been in for just over a decade.

And the past few months I've felt very proud of my profession, it's part of my identity, allthough I need to distance myself at times.

Sorry I've been so vague about work, it's a specialist area so don't want to be discovered in real life.

Also I've been on olanzapine, setraline (few weeks was awful for me) and qutiapine, which was prefect for me. It's in the same family as olanzapine but Less weight gain, and less zombyfying than olanzapine. Anyone up for a review who is struggling with sleep, anxiety and depression, verging on psychosis, I'd recommend it! I'm on nothing at the moment.

I’m interested in your experiences with Quetiapine as I’ve been putting off starting it myself. Which dose were you on and how did you find it? Why have you stopped taking it now and did you have any withdrawal symptoms when you came off it? Thanks!

I only went up to 75mg. I did it during my first pregnancy, so under consultant care, very gradually. It was mostly for sleep and anxiety. Being on medication itself made me anxious, also my poor mental health was connected to a first pregnancy, so when I was 6 months post partum and I improved my mental health and developed good coping strategies I gradually came off it. I had no withdrawal symptoms. I know I'd ask for it again if I had insomnia. It is a sedative and help me stay level and calm, without dulling all emotions.

I started at 25mg

Thanks @2in2022twoyearson thats really helpful. I have terrible insomnia so I might give it a try for that.

Yes, I'd tried all the natural methods for insomnia but it was unsuccessful and sleep is so important. It's not a fully natural sleep so I didn't feel fully rested. However I was pregnant then had a newborn so not exactly a restful time!

Do give it a go. I had such a bad time with setraline, gave me insomnia and I went a bit manic that I was reluctant to try any other medicine. However, I wish I hadn't put it off for so long. It was great for me.

Hey @2in2022twoyearson

You didn't sink sounds more like you paddled! Next week is a new week. And this is a safe thread, nothing too heavy just support for one another x

Arghh. Struggling with the intrusive thoughts tonight. Get a very small glimmer of clarity occasionally but very fleeting.
Trying to just let them flow but it's hard when the OCD is screaming at me to make sure, be certain. It's just exhausting. X

The sink and swim was the comment from the college, but yes, it's definitely not one or the other thanks. Nothing bad happened, I treaded water. This colleague is on maternity leave soon, which is good because I'd feel nervous around her.

@Ilovedogs1 sorry you're struggling. Has anything triggered the thoughts? X

@2in2022twoyearson don't give her the power to make you nervous. Noone should hold that kind of power over anyone x

Thanks all. In a very bad way today. My work is my identity as well and I am failing