General support thread 2

[Helplessandheartbroke]

All welcome. No judgement and kindness all around x

Hi all

Hope you're well. @Whycantgiraffesdance I want to but struggling with how. His anniversary falls on my wedding anniversary too! Were celebrating our anniversary 4 days early due to childcare so to do something for ddog on the day would be nice. Sorry to hear about your dad. I also struggle with being present more so worrying about the past. It's hard.

Nearly weekend and 2 weeks today until the big day! X

I've gone back up to 40mg fluoxetine as 20mg was not helping anymore. Slept all day yesterday but thinking I am already feeling the difference.

Made the mistake of mentioning it to a relative, who is of a different generation and not very understanding. I wanted to explain why I wasn't there yesterday. I should have just said I was tired.

I got all these comments such as 'the only one who can help you is yourself' and 'you'll be rattling with all those tablets" I mean I should have known better really- lesson learned for the future.

Ironically there are several similar and all seem to turn to e.g. alcohol, eating disorders or hoarding as coping mechanisms so I guess that is linked in with the negative comments.

Glad I’ve found this thread ….
I feel numb / anxious / down most days at the moment .
MH has been issue for years
I avoid going into work and preferring to wfh so I don’t have to interact - I don’t want to engage with them . I’m more productive at home also .
I don’t think my meds work and so I’m hoping I can switch or up them (sertraline 50)
Ive had therapy in the past and am having some now .
I don’t want to engage with family at Xmas and would rather be alone - unsure how I can avoid if ! I don’t want to engage with them - small talk / pretend fun .
Son put decs up today and I feel no different - if my way I wouldn’t have bothered .
The future feels pointless though I wouldn’t do anything to harm myself !
I don’t have any resilience / positivity really

I know what you mean about the Christmas period, maybe things will feel a bit easier once it is passed. Maybe take a break if it is getting hard, make an excuse like a headache or something or go out for a walk.

January is bleak though I have a few plans .
yes , fresh air and exercise is a saving grace for me . I run until it hurts x
Thanks for replying

Hi ladies and welcome @Jenkibubble here for a handhold any time. Glad you've got your ds at home for company. Is there anything particular you're struggling with?

@Orangesandlemons77 the older generation do not understand. It was a stigma in their days to discuss MH. Thankfully there's more awareness now and people can be more open. This is your safe space. Hope you're feeling better today x

How is everyone? I'm struggling this evening :-(

I seem to worry about everything and anything
Dwell on past and fear the future . Can’t appreciate the present time !
Loneliness doesn’t help either
Poor self worth - I have strengths but don’t value them (shouldn’t compare but do !)

@hk1993x sorry you're struggling today. Has anything triggered you? Hope you manage some rest x

@Jenkibubble I completely relate to dwelling on the past! Hard when you can't change it.

I'm struggling a lot atm. A friends partner asked me the other day why am I fucked in the head.... not sure what 'friend' has told him but that hurt. Its ddogs anniversary on Tuesday as well as my wedding anniversary.... I don't feel like celebrating. Cried loads tonight. Hope everyone gets a good sleep x

I've been up and down for a while, this year has been horrendous and Christmas, new year doesn't make it any better. I want to be happy and excited with my kids but I just wanna hibernate. I have psychiatrist on Thurs and think I'm getting another new set of medication, I've lost count how many I have been on. How are you feeling? I hope you manage to get some rest too, that wasn't kind what that person said, I personally wouldn't even consider them a friend for saying that xx

@hk1993x I'm with you. This time of year marks 12 months since my breakdown so I wanna try for ds but it's hard isn't it. Glad you're seeing someone. Have you started your course yet? Was it paramedics?

I know what he said was so incentive. I wouldn't mind but some people need a reality check! X

Yeah mines too. We can hand hold ❤️

I switched over to midwifery now, found i don't have the resilience for paramedics 🥹 I'm hoping it will get better xx

What an awful thing for them
to say to you !
Id be tempted to reply with something like why are you fucked in your personality / empathy ?

Hello ladies. Relatively ok here. Just started to feel the Christmas pressure last few days. Had some small bursts of anxiety but not to bad on a whole. Got a bit of a virus atm so that's not helping. Sending love to you @Helplessandheartbroke . Losing a pet is so hard.
@hk1993x your doing really well to be getting on with your course despite your struggles.
Hello 👋 to everyone else. X

So thought I’d post my latest story here. I started a new contract role at start of November which I thought I could do. Thought was doing well until the other week when I had some work to do which was challenging but triggered me and made me really anxious. I mentioned my mental health issues and then they mentioned something about a risk assessment, having a chat re this but put this off and then finally this morning terminated my contract.

I now feel as if maybe I did start back at work too soon but I’m a worker as a character. So I feel a bit shit now.

That’s an awful thing to say to you.

I’ve got a virus probably same one as you which isn’t helping me and nor you either.

My anxiety was really bad a week ago during and after a task I was meant to do for work. It was sort of thrown on me, I didn’t realise quite what I was meant to be doing.

Hi all

So much to reply to and think I've got covid so will generalise I hope that's OK. Very shit thing to say but he had a drink and was being argumentative so I've taken it as his problem and not mine.

Sorry to hear about the job! They say when one door opens....

Midwifery! Wow well done you hk! Hope it's going well.

Nice to hear from you ilovedogs hope you're well x

Ddogs 1 year anniversary today so I'm emotional. Hope everyone else is doing ok x

@Helplessandheartbroke sending love. Xx❤️

Eughhh. Cold virus thing has turned into full on sickness and diahorrhea. Have been doing so well anxiety wise but being ill and feeling a bit overwhelmed re christmas has upped my anxiety and intrusive thoughts.
Tried to keep christmas pretty simple as I know what the stress does to me but I still feel weirdly pressured.

@Ilovedogs1 I'm ill too so feel your pain. What are your plans Xmas? Can anyone help take some load off?

I've been really bad the past 2 days. Horrible thoughts, I keep wishing something would happen to me. I'm fighting to stay alive for my family. I just don't know how much more strength I have to fight this.

Hello, I'm new here. Was emotionally numb from the birth of my second child for about 18 months. Had mental health issues since teenage/ early 20s. Didn't get any treatment for pnd. Felt better in the summer, after a negative life event which I cried a lot but it was almost like I had reset button. Anyone else had this? I had lovely holiday in August, and a very busy life all over. Im off work for a week and yesterday submitted an assignment. I thought I'd celebrate and be al chrismassy, but just felt so unexpectedly down. Now I've got time to reflect I feel so full of guilt and have been teary. Guilt I didn't get help for depression, guilt I didn't love my son as a baby, only now he's a toddler, guilt i was not emotionally available to my daughter in her first 2 years at school, we became almost more like sisters and I'm trying to repair that, had some proud parenting moments recently.

So that's me today. Thanks for the thread.

Also on my period since yesterday and have central chest pain I believe to be indigestion as it comes after mealsand Rennie helps, but I've never had it before. It's annoying.