Anyone else sad and want to hand hold?

[Helplessandheartbroke]

Mumsnet has really helped me pull put of a possible breakdown and while I'm out of the worst of it, I'm still very sad. I'm crying to myself now so I can put on a brave face in the morning.

[MigGirl]

Hugs, I think we all struggle at some point and need some extra help. I hope your getting the help you need.

I cry a lot to sometimes, it can be quite therapeutic, I find deep breathing helpful if I get to upset.

[Lumiodes]

I’m not having a great time either. I’m having health issues and the last option for a possible diagnosis just came back negative. They don’t know what’s wrong with me. Which means they can’t make the pain stop. It’s wearing me down to the point of feeling suicidal.

[Helplessandheartbroke]

@MigGirl thank you! A good cry can help sometimes.

@Lumiodes I'm so sorry to hear this, what are your next steps? Do you have RL support?

[MigGirl]

@Lumiodes

I’m not having a great time either. I’m having health issues and the last option for a possible diagnosis just came back negative. They don’t know what’s wrong with me. Which means they can’t make the pain stop. It’s wearing me down to the point of feeling suicidal.

Lumiodes, I know exactly how you feel. I suffer from a chronic pain condition and have been in that place before where you feel it's not worth carrying on. It's a good job I have kids or I definitely think I would have tried something before.

Unfortunately or fortunately it's not life threatening, but I've been through almost all medical options. On the waiting list for a new drug, but could have a while to wait.

I hope your getting lots of support.

[BCBird]

I was going to say a good cry can sometimes help. Not having a great time either. Yesterday at work was nearli falling asleep checking some papers. I went on youtube typed in hits of the year i was born. There were some belters, in fact one was my favourite song. Really lifted me and kept.me awake. Hand hold to.u all

[JoJoReds]

Feeling the same, having a rubbish week and been crying alot and feel exhausted!
Not been feeling myself for a while now, not sure how to get there.
Hand hold to you too, you are not alone

[Helplessandheartbroke]

@BCBird hand hold to you too. what year was it? Just wondering if it's one I could try tomorrow... are you not getting much sleep either?

@JoJoReds hand hold for you too! Is there anything particular getting you down this week?

[Helplessandheartbroke]

A bit of background from me. I've suffered with ocd since I was 6 years old, self managed until a few months ago when things really got on top. Ds diagnosed with asd at the same time I was officially diagnosed so I could access therapy. This is the shortened version.

Just before Xmas on my wedding anniversary we had to make the absolute heartbreaking decision to have out beloved dog pts. He was poorly as such, he had a painful eye condition so it was either keep him alive with no eyes as his last one would have to be removed, or pts.

Anyway this was the tip of the iceberg that sent me over the edge. Self blame, guilt, should have done this for him etc etc. Now I miss him terribly.

So on top of losing ddog and coming to terms with everything else on top, I'm just having a really shit time x

[Lumiodes]

The death of a beloved friend is always a difficult time. I think that’s partly what triggered my health problems. My darling dog was pts on my birthday. I dropped all of my hobbies and still have no motivation to pick them up again. I was also diagnosed withe autism after a lifetime of struggles. So that explains why I had no friends other than my dog. My youngest DS started school. I already felt absolutely lost, so this undiagnosed illness was the final blow.

One of my biggest fears is being in pain but the doctors don’t know what’s wrong so they can’t fix it - which is exactly what’s happened. Then they started saying I’m mad and I’m making it up, because they can’t find anything wrong with me.

[Helplessandheartbroke]

@Lumiodes sorry to hear about your fury friend too. They leave such a hole in your heart. The guilt sent me under honestly! If you're in the NW I would be your friend!

[Helplessandheartbroke]

How is everyone?

[oceanwaveswater]

Hi everyone. Just been in tears this morning. I've been overwhelmed recently. I took a day off work for my birthday last month. I didn't get any cards or presents and I was too exhausted to take myself out for the day.

It really upset me and I am wondering how I have ended up with this life after surviving so much shit. I'm so tired of putting on a happy face and getting on with things

[myheadisaterribleplace]

I feel like my life has no purpose. I have depression anxiety and PTSD so every day is a real struggle. I have had counselling and therapy, but instead of helping, it just brings all the trauma to the surface, which feels overwhelmingly unbearable and leaves me feeling suicidal. I feel worthless and a waste of space, and I don't want to be here anymore but don't have the energy to make that happen. I also have fibromalygia, so I am in constant agony, which also had a huge effect on my mental health.
I would also like to offer hugs and hand hold to anyone who needs one 💗

[PictureFrameWindow]

Is there a small nice thing you could enjoy today? I bought some £1 daffodils . I can't wait to get more light and warmth in Spring.

[PictureFrameWindow]

@myheadisaterribleplace I'm sorry to read how you're feeling. My DH has fibro also and I know it's a very hard road. Do you have a pain clinic you can access? When my DH was open about his suicidal feelings he was given 1-1 DBT therapy that really helped. I realise it's such a postcode lottery. Sending you a gentle hug.

[myheadisaterribleplace]

@PictureFrameWindow

@myheadisaterribleplace I'm sorry to read how you're feeling. My DH has fibro also and I know it's a very hard road. Do you have a pain clinic you can access? When my DH was open about his suicidal feelings he was given 1-1 DBT therapy that really helped. I realise it's such a postcode lottery. Sending you a gentle hug.

Thank you for your kind comment. I am on lots of painkillers, and I have been seen in the pain clinic twice. I guess the painkillers do sometimes take the edge off the pain. Therapy has also been suggested, but I have had therapy before and found it so so difficult, I don't think I'm strong enough to go through it again. Thank you for the much needed hug, it means a lot x

[Helplessandheartbroke]

@oceanwaveswater I'm sorry you're struggling today how has the rest of your day been? That's shit about your birthday! What about family members? Send me your address and I will make sure you have a card next year I promise!!!

@myheadisaterribleplace I'm sorry you're down too! Have you tried any anti depressants? Do you have RL support?

Sending everyone here a hug! Please vent this is your safe place x

[oceanwaveswater]

@Helplessandheartbroke - that's so kind of you to suggest that. I had to go out today even though I was tired. Walking in the sunshine made me feel better so I think exercise and eating well needs to be a focus for me. Thank you

[Helplessandheartbroke]

@oceanwaveswater I meant it! Well done you for getting out today! Nice hot bubble bath and glass of wine now? (I type as this is my current situation)

[oceanwaveswater]

@Helplessandheartbroke - just relaxing and will have an early night

[Helplessandheartbroke]

@oceanwaveswater hope you had a good sleep. The mornings are always a little better after a decent sleep. I'm on for the next hour or so if anyone needs a vent x

[Helplessandheartbroke]

Morning ladies, how is everyone?

[JamSandle]

I'm having a horrible start to the year (relationship end) and have contemplated the S word. I'll be sad with you x

[TraumatisedatChristmas1986]

Lost my much loved mother in law on Saturday morning. Trying to support my family and I am exhausted and ill too. I am also nc with other deeply loved family members without any hope of reconciliation, I am devastated and just want to tell them all that I love them and I can't. The pain is massive.

[myheadisaterribleplace]

@Helplessandheartbroke

@oceanwaveswater I'm sorry you're struggling today how has the rest of your day been? That's shit about your birthday! What about family members? Send me your address and I will make sure you have a card next year I promise!!!

@myheadisaterribleplace I'm sorry you're down too! Have you tried any anti depressants? Do you have RL support?

Sending everyone here a hug! Please vent this is your safe place x

Hi OP, How are you feeling today? I have been on medication for about 20 years and have had therapy in the past but it just brings everything to the surface and it becomes overwhelming and I really struggle to contain my feelings and not act on my thoughts if that makes sense. I do have a few friends but they live a million miles away (that's how far it feels anyway) and the rest of my friends all have families and have moved away, I feel like I've been left behind. I don't blame them though because im not a great friend, when I'm desperately low I isolate myself and don't reply to messages etc and I can't make new friends because I don't feel like I deserve friends and also because I don't really go anywhere where I could meet new people. I'm sending you a hug, just in case you need one xx