Anyone else sad and want to hand hold?

[Helplessandheartbroke]

Mumsnet has really helped me pull put of a possible breakdown and while I'm out of the worst of it, I'm still very sad. I'm crying to myself now so I can put on a brave face in the morning.

@upanddowns sorry to hear you're having a hard time. Never apologise for venting that's what this thread is for. I'm glad you've got plans to see your friend tomorrow sounds like it'll be good for you. Are you under your gp?

This thread is quiet atm is everyone doing ok?

Hi Helpless, how are you doing?

Today I went to the drs and spoke to them about my health anxiety and was prescribed propranolol, so that was an interesting day for me. I’ve taken my first tablet and whilst I know it is probably not the answer to all issues, I’m proud of myself for finally trying to sort this out after nearly 15 years of torment.
it is a low dose, so I feel okay about it for now. I’m keeping an open mind.

How is everyone?

I’ll hold hands @Helplessandheartbroke ❤️ struggling with PND, newish meds and no relief from the anxiety! 🤯 hope you’re ok? x

Well done for seeing your gp, I hope the propanalol help, I have them too if I need them but they seem to upset my tummy a little 🙈

Sorry to hear that @Whycantgiraffesdance 💐
I had a bit of PND and didn’t seek any help, something I regret a bit now.
What meds have you been prescribed? Depending on what they are, they might just need a bit of time to kick in.
You’re doing a great job, being a mum is so hard!

Funny you should say this actually as after taking my first dose a few hours ago I’ve already noticed the same thing! Thought it could be coincidence but maybe not…

Oh no! Did you find them helpful otherwise? x

Thank you ☺️ I’m on venaflaxine, I was on citalopram for years which kept me nice and stable but when the PND kicked in I just felt they weren’t working anymore. x

@SB1712 well done for reaching out! It's a huge step and one I took myself in December. I was out on fluoxitine the recently propranolol too and I've never been to the toilet so much in my life! I should be skinny! Propranolol are good for the physical side effects. Are you having any help with the emotional side effects like therapy etc?

@Whycantgiraffesdance I'm sorry to hear you're struggling hun we're here for you! Being a mum is so hard! I definitely had pnd its was lockdown too so I didn't seek help. Hope you're getting lots of rest when little one is sleeping?

I've been a bag of nerves the last couple of weeks again. Self blame over everything, self hatred, fearing impending doom. Ocd for you!

My little one is actually 20 months now, but I think symptoms started when she was about 9 months. I have a 5 year old too but never got PND with him. Always been an anxious person and suffered with depression previously due to some traumatic past events but the anxiety these last few months has been off the scale! 🤯

sorry to hear your struggling @Helplessandheartbroke , wish I had a magic wand for us all! ❤️

Oh I’m sorry to hear that @Helplessandheartbroke. Do you find anything you can do will help? Or is it more time that makes you feel better? Have you noticed any improvement with your meds?

Can I ask if your stomach settled after a while when taking propranolol? Just a bit worried if I feel this way in work, don’t want to give myself more anxiety because of that!
I am only on a low dose at the moment, 10mg 2-3 times a day. I’ve only taken one but to be honest, physically I feel better. I was experiencing muscle twitching which having gone down the MND/ALS tunnel for 4 weeks…I feel they’ve really eased off just since the tablet. Could be placebo, could be the tablets. I hope it’s the latter just to give me some relief from my mind

@Whycantgiraffesdance mind didn't kick in until around 7 months and think it's still there tbh. If you're proun to anxiety too I think it makes it much worse. A magic wand would be nice!

@SB1712 it's hard to say as the fluoxitine gave me a very bad stomach then kept upping my dose making it worse. Then propranolol kicked in so my stomach hasn't been right for 3 months tbh. Sorry whats mnd/als? I'm not good with abbreviations.

I'm struggling with my ocd, anxiety and losing my ddog just before Xmas. Blaming myself for his illness and feeling bad for things I didn't do for him. I'm also run down and have an asd dc so it's just tough all round. Although I'm greatful to have my ds he was my miracle, I'm greatful to have a nice house and I'm greatful for my dh. I just wish I still had my ddog and my MH at a manageable stage

Sending everyone hugs tonight x

Here’s to a better day tomorrow for everyone 🙏x

Hey how is everyone x

Do u know what, I’m not even sure today! 🫠 I’ve been so up and down today, one minute I feel like I have a handle on things and then the next I’m a nervous wreck again! 😳

how are u @Helplessandheartbroke ? Xx

Very much relating to you @Whycantgiraffesdance tbh. I know I mentioned on our other thread I've been away this weekend and it was so nice but then I feel guilty so being anxious and upset whilst away. How you getting on with LO? X

She’s fine thank you, tbh I feel like a bit of a fraud with a PND diagnosis, I feel like my issues have always been there to a certain extent but it’s all just been heightened since I had second baby. I almost feel guilty like I’m blaming her for my issues which I know is silly but since the diagnosis I question everything like if our bond is as strong as with my son. 🙈 I think I’ve just found having 2 harder than I first thought to be honest! How many do u have @Helplessandheartbroke ? X

@Whycantgiraffesdance you're not a fraud. You can have pnd that's brought on by other mh issues or at least worsened by them. I'm grieving, have ocd, general anxiety and probably still have pnd 4 years on. You can have more than one thing wrong, in fact, I think its quite normal to. You will have the bond with dd give It time. I've got 1 and only having 1 x

Thank you, I know logically that’s all true but it’s hard to think logically when you’re an over thinker! So sorry you’re struggling too, I hope you get a lot of support from your partner 😘xx

@Whycantgiraffesdance in my experience men don't get it which is why I like speaking to you ladies x

May I join in please? I feel like a fraud and that I should just try and get a grip but I'm struggling.

I feel sad all the time, peri menopause probably, not sleeping and still struggling to get use to DD being away at Uni.

Right now, I'm so sad as a friend has confided in me that she plans to break with her partner. I have a lot of time for him, and can't stand the thought of him being upset. We are close, we've all been away together etc, but it probably shouldn't be affecting me this much. I am literally playing it out in my head, visualising him upset, as if I'm a fly on the wall, and then sobbing.

Honestly feel so embarrassed admitting this. I feel like I'm playing out some sort of narrative constantly in my head.

I think I'm struggling with knowing it's coming, like the anticipation if that makes sense. It's a long distance relationship which is why it will be next week before she can speak to him.

So sorry, this is probably so silly compared to others.

If it’s affecting you then it’s not silly @Feelingblue77 . I think it’s easy to feel empathy with someone else’s pain especially if you are suffering yourself anyway ❤️ I can’t tell you not to worry about it, I’m a chronic over thinker myself but don’t beat yourself up over it if it makes u feel sad. Xx

Call Samaritans. I did this morning and it was so nice to just talk through things with someone. Just to let out all the silly little (and bigger things) that were bothering me and stop me from imploding. Highly rate them.

This is it for me too. DP asks if I'm ok and does listen, but just doesn't understand and doesn't know what to say. Obviously I'm ok with this, he definitely cares and tries hard. I can't explain why I feel the way I do sometimes either, just everything makes me feel sad and it seems so pointless sometimes, all of it. I miss the younger me (I'm late fifties), can see myself aging and hate that everything is difficult. Also suffer with chronic pain which restricts what I can do.