Anyone else sad and want to hand hold?

[Helplessandheartbroke]

Mumsnet has really helped me pull put of a possible breakdown and while I'm out of the worst of it, I'm still very sad. I'm crying to myself now so I can put on a brave face in the morning.

@Feelingblue77 agree with Giraffes, if its hurting you then it's effecting you. I'm a huge empath too. Were here for a hand hold. Is there something bigger than this though? And this is the catalyst for you? X

@Whycantgiraffesdance how are you today? X

@doodlepants I'm glad samaritans helped you. I thought you could only ring if suicidal so this is really good to know x

@upanddowns I hear you! Honestly and were here for a hand hold any time. What is your pain caused by? X

I'm sat here crying as I type this post. I'm really struggling. My ddog would have been 7 today and all I keep thinking is how little time I had for him before he passed. Not enough strokes and cuddles etc, shorter winter walks and I feel so sad and guilty x

So sorry to hear that 😢 It's hard to lose them. I have fibromyalgia, medication helps a bit, but sometimes it's hard. I had to part with my Siamese cats because I couldn't cope anymore, they were only kittens and went to a good home with a friend, but I miss them every day and feel very sad about it.

@upanddowns I'm sorry to hear that. Do you have rl support?

Only my DP.

@Helplessandheartbroke I’m not too bad, still very up and down and sporadic in how I’m feeling! Just picked my little boy up from school and then went to the park for a bit, I’m finding my house quite triggering at the moment! 🙈 I think it’s because I’ve spent the best part of the last month indoors battling this bloody depression I can’t bear to be indoors anymore!

so sorry your feeling sad today 🥺 I could tell u not to feel guilty but I know how hard it is to switch off the overthinking and ruminating over what we could have done differently. If u were a bit distant from him before he died it wasn’t your fault, you do the best you can at the time. ❤️‍🩹

I’ve rang the Samaritans before, they are there for anyone in distress just to provide a listening ear really. xx

@Helplessandheartbroke @doodlepants @Whycantgiraffesdance
Thank you all so much for the hand hold. I hadn't realised that about the Samaritans. Really helpful to know.

Thank you for not thinking I'm being silly. I'm a sentimental person and really do feel so very upset for this chap. Some people would say I'm making it about me, and give me a hard time for that I'm sure, but I don't mean to be like that. I just feel for him and will miss him. I do struggle with things ending. I keep looking at pictures - honestly, I do need to try and give myself a shake.

@Helplessandheartbroke I think I am generally quite down. DD went to Uni (she's 3rd year now) and I miss her, she's an only child. I've still not quite found my way without her yet. I work from home and DH works long hours at the office, so it can be lonely and I feel I don't have much going on, but when I feel so sad, I don't have the inclination to do anything about it really. She's a medical student so holidays are few and far between too.

I'm so sorry about your lovely dog. Sending gentle hugs. Such difficult times when a pet passes away. I'm sure you did the best you could at the time and animals have simple needs, he would have been happy.

@upanddowns you've got us too. Whenever you need.

While I'm on this is anyone wants to pm to discuss anything private then please feel free.

@Whycantgiraffesdance well done on going to the park with ds! This was my intention but I didn't make it today 😞 do you suffer ocd too? Sorry if I've asked before. I constantly think of all the negatives and hate myself.

@Feelingblue77 I'm kind of in a similar boat. 1 ds who is asd and non verbal, I wfh and dh long hours. Dh does not understand mh. Its lonely sometimes isn't it. Thanks for your words about ddog. I miss him dearly and he would have been 7 today so not old but not young for his breed. I have so much guilt but hindsight is wonderful.

I'm just having a bubble bath and propranolol to try and chill me out a little so I can hopefully sleep better tonight. Just had a terrible argument with a family member I'm lc with and it's made me even worse. Sorry for ranting so much x

I don’t think I suffer from OCD, I have repetitive thoughts but I think that’s just the anxiety and I constantly worry about things all the time.

I’ve got propanalol but I don’t really feel like they help and I’m sure they upset my tummy too. @Helplessandheartbroke Have u ever tried promithazen (sp)? They are basically an antihistamine but the doctor prescribed 25mg which I can take 4 times a day and they have a calming effect. They do make me a bit dizzy sometimes but I think they do work if I’m having a panic attack. I also take one a few hours before I go to bed and I do sleep really well! x

@Whycantgiraffesdance propranolol and fluoxitine give me a bad belly! Hoping they help me lose weight lol. Never heard of promethazen will ask gp about them next week thanks x

Hi. Can I join please. Feeling very anxious and low. Have been on sertraline for a while and wondering if I need to go back to my GP and review the dose. Have been having a cry on and off all day. I just hate my life and find myself constantly wanting what I can't have.

@ijustneedtokeepbreathing welcome! Sorry to meet like this but thanks for joining us. I'm having a similar day too. Do you want to talk about anything?

Thank you @Helplessandheartbroke . I don't know where to start to be honest. I feel like there is something fundamentally wrong with me at the moment. I'm constantly looking for human connection and just about anything to fill what feels like a massive hole in all the wrong places.

Thank you @Helplessandheartbroke , I sometimes don't know where to start really, It's often money worries, constant pain and low self esteem.

Also happy to exchange private messages if anyone wants to talk ❤️

Sorry you're feeling down. I understand that, I feel like there's a hole I'm trying to fill. Nothing seems to satisfy me. I find myself trying to fill that hole by shopping, which just creates more problems. I have things to do, but no motivation to do them 😢 It's tough isn't it? I feel there's something wrong with me too. I've taken ADs for years and years, they take the edge off the sadness, but that's all. I wonder if I've ADHD, especially as my adult DD has a diagnosis of ADHD. I've spoken to a psychiatrist about it and they suggested traits of borderline, I agree on some fronts, I'm very needy and impulsive, but I'm always bored, need new stimulation all the time, can't sit still, can't sleep because I'm bored lying still waiting to fall asleep!

Thank you to everyone who's mentioned me. Because I'm on the app I can't see messages at the moment, but wish you all a good and calm evening. I'm going to try to do something good for myself 😊

I think we can all relate to this @ijustneedtokeepbreathing so you’re in the right place! Sometimes just knowing others feel the same makes you feel less alone ❤️‍🩹

@Helplessandheartbroke I was originally given them for nausea when I was trying Setraline but then the psychiatrist said they were good for anxiety as they have a calming effect and aren’t addictive.

Hi ladies do you mind if I join you? I’m having a really bad time of it just now, been back at the GP today had a panic attack in her office, she gave me diazepam and upped my sertraline. I’ve spent most of today crying my life is such a mess, my work situation is a disaster every time I try to pull myself out of it, it fails to work. GP has also given me sleeping tablets as I’ve not slept in a few days properly, I have fibromyalgia so in constant pain and I’m exhausted. I’m just so so tired of life.

of course ❤️ we’re all here to vent to xx

@upanddowns I relate to a great deal of what you say. I took have lots to do, but zero motivation to do any of it. Shopping isn't my thing, but I use alcohol and pathetic crushes on people I can't have instead. I can't concentrate on anything either, though for me that is generally associated with dips into deeper depression.

I feel like a shit parent. I'm a wreck. Where to start with sorting it out?

Hi @headache . Sorry to hear you're also struggling. It's shit. Sending you a hand hold.

@ijustneedtokeepbreathing you need to give yourself a break. So you've seemed attention to make yourself feel better? Most women have. Dont be so hard on yourself. If your dc is fed, watered, sheltered and loved you're not a shit parent.

@upanddowns mh often comes hand in hand with nd. I think most of us are on the spectrum somewhere.

@headache sorry to hear you're struggling too. Have you spoke to gp about propranolol?

@Whycantgiraffesdance thank you ill look into it. Thanks for being a big support to everyone today.

For anyone wanted to pm use the Web page instead of the app.

A lot of us in this together here ladies. Sending solidarity and hugs to everyone tonight x

Also sending hugs and strength out to everyone. Hang on in there.

Same here, there’s always tomorrow ❤️xx

I'll be here for another hour or so if anyone wants to chat but I'm going to try for an early night. If anyone else can have an early one it could make a difference tomorrow x

Hi @Helplessandheartbroke and everyone. I’m glad you having an early night helpless. I hope you do manage to get a restful sleep.

im feeling awful today and so glad your post popped up when I logged in! I just feel really sad and that no one likes me. DS’s turn to have class toy and diary today and when I looked through it it just broken me as his best friend was in there having a playdate with another child who I know they don’t play together but at this age it’s all about the mums (reception age). I feel I’m failing my kids by being so depressed that no one wants play dates with us. It’s a horrible feeling

@HelpWBD I'm sorry you're having a rough day too. You are absolutely not failing ds. Its the other mums issue not yours. Just from your post I can tell you're a kind and caring person. Also you might be overthinking it, there could be a completely innocent explanation. But, if not then it's still her issue, not yours! Keep your chin up and try and talk to a new mum tomorrow then a new one next week etc until you find a fit for you and ds x

@Helplessandheartbroke thank you.

How are you feeling right now? What have you been up to today?