On the anxiety rollercoaster

[GonksHaveNoEyes]

I’m up and down with my anxiety. I feel like I need to live in a bubble where nothing out of the ordinary happens and I can just drift along happily. But life is not like that is it?
I tend to catastrophise and get things out of proportion and I don’t know how to not be like this.
I can’t afford therapy and don’t want meds but maybe I should. I think it might be time to try them again but then when my latest dilemma is over, I will be fine again.
I’ll give you a little example of how ridiculous I am. Was whinging on for months about going on holiday abroad. Finally booked it then started stressing. Then dd found out she couldn’t fly out with us and has to come the next day.Package holiday so basically just a no show and the travel company are fine with this. So what you might say? It’s not a big deal is it? Yes to me it’s a catastrophe and here lies my problem. My perspective is all wrong. When I look back at all the things I have stressed about, which then turned out to be ok, it’s crazy.
I know there are far far worse things going on in the world and I apologise to those of you who have genuine problems but can anyone give any advice? And I apologise for rambling and thank you for reading this far.

You should be able to access some free talking therapies sessions via your GP or self referral but there will be a wait time.
Does your employer offer free counselling?
There are also usually local charities that offer reduced rates.

Thank you. Work for the nhs so I will have a look when I get back from holiday.
I am going to sort something out for sure.

I take propranolol most days. Completely block the physical symptoms, which for me are racing heart, high temperature and sweating, shaking and sometimes loss of vision. If I don’t have that to contend with, I feel better able to deal with the spiralling thoughts etc.

A week ago, I didn’t take any for a few days and ended up having a full panic attack, lying flat on my office floor for 20 mins until it passed. Anxiety is AWFUL, talk to your GP.

OP if you work for NHS you might have free counselling through work. We gave ine called Vivup which is really good.