I understand why people have enough of life ***MNHQ content warning***

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Many people act like it's terrible and how could someone feel so low to do that. I get it.

I can understand why someone thinks - fuck this.

I don't want to offend anyone by this post I just honestly feel like that, and I wonder is it weird?

I don't think it's a mystery and can totally understand why someone gets to the point of thinking I don't really want to bother with this anymore.

Perhaps I am abnormal thinking this way, I don't know. I'd never personally commit suicide because I'd be scared and also would worry for others - but I don't feel particularly I love life to the extent where I want to cling to it either.

Sorry if this post offends anyone it wasn't the intention but just wandering if I'm abnormal with my thoughts.

I don't think you are abnormal, I feel the same a lot of the time.

I’m of the opinion that you’re not asked if you want to be born, so why should you be made to live.

You’re definitely not abnormal, I have luckily never ever been suicidal but I have my very down, dark days and it’s not that I wanted to die, it was more that I just couldn’t be arsed to be here anymore. People always say ‘talk to someone’ or ‘oh if only they’d told me how they were feeling’ but in reality, people either a) don’t really want to hear it or b) even if they do they can’t actually make it better. I can 100% see why someone would commit suicide even though it absolutely tragic and the devastation that person leaves behind lasts for a long time.

I don't want to die, but I don't really want to live either. It feels better knowing whilst I'm here I can help those around me which improves their lives :)

I get what you mean. I think the same sometimes.

Not suicidal myself but more - as i get older - accepting that the idea of death is not always a tragedy, and as the one thing which is inevitable for us all.

I believe that the detachment we have from death nowadays (less child mortality, no routine laying out of bodies at home, less mulyi generational living, people more commonly dying in care homes not at home, ect) has increased our fear of it. It's become almost taboo now.

I honestly feel like, I'm in my thirties and am exhausted god knows how I will feel when I've been on the planet twice as long. I honestly cannot imagine how mentally bored and exhausted I'll feel.

I appreciate Covid isn't helping but I've felt like this for a while now. When I hear of suicides and people go 'how awful - what pushed them to feel so low' and I think - probably not a lot surely you just see how boring this shit is?!

I feel awful though because there's nothing wrong with my life at all. I'm actually pretty 'privileged' I don't mean it to be goady just making the point it's not circumstantial I feel this way.

@Laiste and yes I agree. We are really unrealistic about death I also find that weird how we deal with it is very odd. Considering it's guaranteed. Even when a 100 year old dies we say it's a tragedy?!!

But OP, just because your life is "privileged" does not necessarily mean you are leading a mentally stimulating life. Life needs passion, excitement, a reason to wake up in the morning. In your 30s you still have time to find this.

I'm in my 30s, and I think I've already turned into the grandparents from Charlie and the Chocolate factory. I say it's IKEA's fault for making their mattresses so comfortable!

@toolazytothinkofausername I agree! I'm really struggling to find my Why, I have no idea what my purpose is. It just seems pointless at the minute and has for many years

Right now my life is anything but mentally stimulating. I have no goals I've reached them all - so what now? I can't imagine another 50 years of this mindlessness

@DDIJ completely agree I tell no one if these thoughts IRL it would spark Too much concern.

My DH kinda knows how I feel but he then feels in bringing him down being negative and that I'm depressed. Maybe I am I don't know.

But I really do struggle on the daily to see the point in any of this.

Life is dull and boring I agree. I don't want to die either, but I'm fed up of living too. Yes there are periods of time where it gets better, eg going on holiday, but these are short and before you know it, it back to the same old site day in, day out.

That sounds worse than it is

@OrangeBananaFish completely how I feel. I feel real happiness and joy when doing holidays or trips etc but that is very short lived it's not normal for the highs to last long and that's what I struggle with

Humans are the only creatures who are aware of their own mortality they say.

Interesting isn't it? We're intelligent creatures who have to wrestle with the idea of our own death. Not surprising that it throws up issues.

Some posters here are looking for a purpose. Others actively don't want to be remembered. Me - when my dad died i felt it was a waste of the huge amount of knowledge and life experience he had. There was so much he still hadn't shared.

I don't feel that we go on in any way. Must be wonderful to believe in a God actually. What a comfort that must be :)

YANBU -I too feel like this much of the time too. Just not sure what the point of the daily drag of existing is. I’m over it.

I agree with you, OP. Out of interest, do you have a string family unit?

Strong*
As in parents, siblings etc.

I've been feeling like this for the first time in my life. I'm 46. Now, I had a bad breakup in February which has me feeling low, but I'm thinking here I am back at square one again, what's the point? I'm feeling jaded the last few weeks, lost motivation. Like others, I don't want to die, but nor am I excited about living anymore.

I feel the same. A part of me is looking forward to my patent reaching old age and eventually dying as then I won’t have to feel guilty about ending my own life. There is nothing in my life worth living for, I am not loved by anyone and have no close family but nevertheless I know my parent would feel some guilt and shame were I to lull myself and I can’t bring myself to put them through that.

@R0tational I was about to say what's a string family into until you corrected it lol.

Yes I do have one that's probably stronger than most which probably makes it more perplexing. I honestly think surely them and my friends MUST feel this way but they don't.

Perhaps this is more of a depression issue for me I honestly cannot work out what's normal

I'm the same. I'm 26. I've achieved my goals, of going to uni and getting a job and a house, now I'm bored. I've struggled with depression since I was about 11, but I've honestly never felt such feelings of emptiness, boredom, low. I can't see the point in anything.

I told my partner only last night that I feel this way. I’m sure to some, it’s weird, but I get you 100%

Thank you for posting this. It's very relevant for me.