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[colouringindoors]

can someone please talk to me. all their volubteers are on the phone

Thanks. Yes am definitely doing better than last weekend. Braved a couple of clothes shops this afternoon. Sent my anxiety through the roof tho I don't know why. I spent most of the time muttering "you're ok" to myself dd still v stressed and unhappy. She wasn't able to tell her dad how he made her feel and what she thought of his childish behaviour.

(Seen them. Love Unforgotten).

Trying to work what, if anything to communicate to ds' school and hosp team about the fact his dad isn't doing anything with him, given they think he is eg physio.

crap parent myself so who am i to talk. ds has been sat on front of tv since 5

Hey @colouringindoors don’t beat yourself up x you do what you have to do and a bit of TV is fine. Don’t explain anything to the school or hospital team about you ex that’s his responsibility not yours. I’m sure they’ll be able to see for themselves eventually. You sound like your mood is dipping towards the end of the day. Can you read for a bit and have an early night? I need to do that today as my mood has also taken a nose dive and so I need to take myself off and try and get an earlyish night. Did you get anything while you were clothes shopping? I think you replied to one of my messages on style and beauty board 😊

oh yes! i tried on thst black h&m dress but it looked like a ballgoen on me and tooooo tight. I bought a few things but staples, wanted something colourful and came home with black and white . I realy need to loose weight. Comfort eating and drinking over the last 4-6 weeks has been pretty disastrous.
Hope youre ok.

@colouringindoors I'm the same I need to lose weight but then start binge eating and cant get back on track. Viscious circle eh? I feel awful in jeans at the moment as the waist is really digging in so I'm trying to wear dresses every day and I feel so much better for it. At first I was worried I was overdressed but it's been so hot It's been lovely wearing dresses. I try and plan an outfit the night before even if its just choosing a plain black dress with some nice earrings makes me feel a bit better if I'm not feeling good mentally. Sending love and strength for the week ahead x

It must've been the day for feeling crap 🙄
Definitely don't beat yourself up about DS and tv - some days it's simply about survival. And you've nailed today!

thank you so much. I'm feeling beaten up by the weekend esp the dd/ex thing. Want to find somewhere to hide. Too hot to sleep and reading about 21 June freedoms being delayed makes me angry with shit govt and sad. The one thing I was looking forward to now won't be happening 😓

You're not alone in feeling beaten up by your ex and DD situation. Couldn't have written similar last night and today about mine.

happyinheels oh no really sorry to hear that.

kind of wish she'd stayed at his and I'd had a proper break. my one 24 hours kids free of the week got blown out the water.

That's really tough when that happens isn't it? It gets to the point where you feel unable to plan anything or do anything on those nights because you know the likelihood there will be a falling out and you'll end up picking up the pieces.

Was doing better again until I read an email from ex. 😡😓😡😓 how do i stop him having such an awful effect on me?!

Massive urge to go and hide somewhere from everyone, esp ex and ds. Too many difficult things. Endless. Relentless. Exhausting.

Time... just time, that is all. Over time it will affect you less and less. You're just in the thick of it right now.

I don't know what to do about something, if anything. I can't work out if I'm overreacting/making a fuss/will make things worse. My head is fried and I can't think straight 😓

Back in a very dark place again, just want to sleep forever. Increased my antidepressants but no benefit yet.

Just too bad. Too much to bear

Morning @colouringindoors

Same shit different day?

Can you give the Samaritans a ring?

yeah pretty much. Had been doing a bit better but back in the hole now. Need to try and get out for a little walk this morning.

Hi colouringindoors,

We're sorry you're going through such a difficult time.

We hope you don't mind, but as you've posted that you're feeling very low, we wanted to add a link to our Mental Health resources - please click on the link as there are lots of organisations we've listed which can give you some help right now.

We know you're already aware of the Samaritans helpline but did you know you can also email them at [email protected]. Here's their helpline number for anyone else who may need it - 116 123 - calls are free of charge, and you can call any time.

If you find texting easier, please take a look at Shout's website. Shout 85258 is a free, confidential, anonymous text support service. Its trained volunteers are available all hours of the day and night to listen and support you to get to a calmer and safe place.

Here too is a link to Mind's support page which has tips for everyday living which can help when you're feeling overwhelmed.

We hope things start getting a bit easier for you soon.

colouringindoors sorry to hear that you're not doing so good. It's Friday thank goodness! Have you got any plans for this weekend? Sending you strength and positive vibes.

thanks. Yes I'm seeing my family for a birthday meal which will hopefully be nice

That sounds nice. I hope you have a really lovely time full of much needed laughter!

thanks yes, me too. feel exhausted tonight. pretty sure i have gastritis from all the ibuprofen i need to take. so can't take any for a bit, so pain is really bad and stomach sore and bloated. really hope it's a bit better tomorrow as i hardly ever go out to eat.