Need an outlet and people who understand

[Strugglingalone]

Mumsnet keep deleting my threads and the last one had no reason whatsoever but the only way I am getting through at the moment is with random chat with people on here

Been struggling the last few days without a thread

Yet another evening of panic, I can’t calm down, I can’t jeep fighting this! I’m scared

How are you doing today Op? X

@PurpleFrames had multiple panic attacks and my ibs has been really bad! Managed a shower but it took me all day to get that far

How are you doing?

Well done x how has service engagement been for you?

@PurpleFrames very little contact, I think I am settling a little, thoughts less severe but anxiety seems more frequent so things are shifting

Social services manager rang to apologise for the shit show of the last 3 years (from referral to half an assessment) but wouldn’t really let me speak and I’m being reassigned social worker on Monday - don’t believe it till I see it!

I am so so glad you say you're noticing a change in yourself.

Plus an apology! From social care! I didn't believe those existed hopefully Monday will be a fresh start.

Do you have weekend plans?

Just checking in to say 👋 how is everyone??

@strugglingalone hi there how are you keeping xx

Really not coping tonight, urge to binge is so strong but in the back of my mind I know I shouldn’t because of everyone fighting for food right now!

Struggling, medication isn’t working and so want to do what someone’s told me I should! Then I won’t be a burden on the nhs or anyone else

Hello op
How are you doing today? X

Sugar I didn't know you had replied. Its taken me ages to find this thread again. How are you keeping @strugglingalone xxx

Really not coping, in complete melt down about not being able to speak to my mh nurse without fear of being listened to and can’t do my normal routines as not at home etc
I can’t do this

Hi OP - I'm so sorry you are feeling like this. Can I ask why you feel like you do? Or is that too specific and not allowed (this is my second ever MN post so I don't know the rules!) I'm here if you want to chat - just made some lovely camomile tea x

I’ve never had chamomile tea

I’m trying to distract from my thoughts but it’s just not working. Ongoing mental health problems and increased anxiety really

Just struggling, I’m sorry

Thanks for responding

Don't apologise!! I don't particularly like the taste of the tea but I've sort of convinced myself that it has a soothing effect (marketing? Old wives tale?) - I do think it helps a bit with IBS sometimes. Anyway! Have you seen any good movies/tv lately? I've started watching old episodes of first dates every night!

Hehe that’s the sort of thing I do

I can’t focus on anything, I’m really struggling and nothing is working, I’m sorry

I understand. Its difficult to focus on something, anything non triggering when your thoughts are running riot in all directions at 100mph!

Do you live by yourself?

And have you been watching belgravia? I can't watch it without thinking about the fact that the butler and the lady of the house are the mum and dad from Friday Night Dinner. The new episode of which I thought was hilarious!

Sorry the thoughts are so strong, I just don’t know what to do

I’m trapped

Hi OP, what works for me is reading or watching something just dull enough to be soothing but not that dull it’s annoying! I haven’t seen Belgravia but costume dramas definitely tick the boxes. You’ve obviously got a lovely sense of humour, so find things to make you laugh (cats doing silly things on YouTube is my go-to).

Have you ever used any ‘grounding and stabilising’ techniques? They are good for helping calm your nervous system - we feel awful when we are over-aroused, in fight/flight mode. If you can, get hold of a book called ‘8 Keys to Safe Trauma Recovery’ by Babette Rothschild - it’s very helpful and written very carefully so as to be safe for you to read.

I second the animal videos! The amount of time I have lost watching puppy videos is shocking.

Sometimes what works for me is breathing through my mouth closing my eyes and imagining a chair balancing/being suspended on one leg (tilted if you see what I mean) and rotating. To keep it rotating requires enough background concentration that I then can't think about anything else. Sounds weird I know. But sometimes works for me!

So triggered tonight, nothing is working, feel like everything has come crashing down again
I don’t know what to do

I’m sorry, I can’t generate a response, I can’t fight this, the thoughts are so strong, had constant panic attacks all evening

Sorry, I don’t know what to do

Being unable to think when you are panicking is normal. When we are panicking all we are concerned with is escaping. It’s how our brains have evolved. If our ancestors had had to stop and think every time they saw a lion or tiger ‘oh, is this dangerous?’ they’d have been toast. Instead, our brains switch off those analytical parts of thinking and go to the instinctive ‘run, and think about it later’ response. Unless breathing deeply triggers you in any way, make your out breath longer than your in breath, this will relax your muscles. Move. If you are able to get outside at present, do it. If not, move around at home. Anything: dancing, marching.