Need an outlet and people who understand

[Strugglingalone]

Mumsnet keep deleting my threads and the last one had no reason whatsoever but the only way I am getting through at the moment is with random chat with people on here

Been struggling the last few days without a thread

That si awful! Are you still able to have phone calls with the crisis ream? remember you still have us c

Hi @strugglingalone how are you today???? I'm sorry you're not getting the help you need x

Been thinking of you today as I spoke to my careco. I hope you are safe.

I’ve given up

It sounds like the only person you can really rely on is yourself unfortunately. What can you (and us ) do to make your days better and more bearable??? What class do you normally attend @strugglingalone would love to hear more about that

Hi @Strugglingalone and everyone else, just catching up with life in general and this thread. How are things?

We really want to support you OP.
Even if that is just the odd post or two that you can relate to or makes you smile.
Let us know if there's anything practical or in particular we could offer to do?

Just popping back in to let you know I'm still here OP and we all care about you. Please just keep taking each day as it comes, I'm working flat out until Sunday but will check in each evening. Please please let any of us know if we can help in anyway

I have no energy to fight anymore, no energy to do anything, just spent the day in bed, literally haven’t moved

Very panicky again, seem to have woken up more this evening and the anxiety is kicking in again!
I don’t know what to do

Hi @Strugglingalone . I'm going to confess that I'm really new and ignorant at this. So .. how can I help? Can you be more physically comfortable, for starters? A cup of tea, a piece of toast, a rabbit to cuddle, a blanket? Those are the first steps.

Hi @Lobsterquadrille2 thanks for coming back :-) I hope everything is ok!

I’ve got a blanket over me and a soft toy and curled in a ball and taken meds but still not calming :-(

Tried to ring the crisis team but I then couldn’t speak when they answered - completely closed off

@Strugglingalone in my own little level, I do get this. It's about you, not me, but I have had to cope with life in ways I didn't want to. Where someone else would have been reasonably expected.

The rabbits? Are they ok? I left Cordelia fat and happy. Are you any good with paint colours ? (This is a serious question; I'm having a huge room painted on Monday).

Tea. I reckon in hospital as a mere guest I drank gallons. Are you drinking enough at home?

Friends. Do you have one whom you could call, in the next few days? And actually speak?

I don't want to lose anyone else, even someone I don't know but whom I have come to care about, in a world that screams uncertainty from every angle xx

@Lobsterquadrille2 hehe fat and happy would be a way to explain my bunnies too! I’m pleased she was ok.

Ooh what colours are you thinking? I like duck egg blue and grey the most!

Probably not drinking enough but that falls into the not eating, not doing insulin either 😕 just a way to self harm!

No I don’t trust people in real life. Oh I’m sorry :-( and it means even more that you have come back here to speak to little me!

Wide awake, and panicking, think I’m completely upside down at the moment!

I'm sorry to butt in . I have seen your thread a few times, and I wish I could help.

I have no experience with this, but dare I suggest that if it is at all possible could you maybe record what you want to say starting with 'I cannot speak, but... ' and then what you would like to say, then when someone picks up the phone you can play it?

When I get panicky, I have chosen a calming word to think repeatedly and at the same time I picture one specific thing. Don't know if it is just me but perhaps worth a try.

I really hope it is okay I'm posting this, I'm not a native English-speaker, so I hope, I make some sense.

Rooting for you, sending positive thoughts.

@MrsBeeluga not butting in at all 😊 that in theory sounds an amazing idea but I think I would then struggle to speak for the recording as I know it will be on the phone? If that makes sense? I am very softly spoken in person too and close up when struggling face to face so the phone just adds a whole other layer to the anxiety!

Im I’m completely melt down tonight, Mind is going 100mph, wise awake, meds aren’t touching the sides, really unsettled

Hello there, I'm still awake. I'm sorry you're in such a bad way. Is there anything you can do to try and expend some energy??? X sending hugs

@strugglingalone 👋

Hi @Strugglingalone and everyone else on this thread x
Hope you've had a nice day- how are things?

I’m with family for the weekend so can’t and won’t do anything but already told mental health services I am just holding it all in for Sunday/ Monday

Hello there, how is being with family? I think you said relationships were strained. I'm lying watching tv with a chunky cat. Hope you're looking after yourself as Best as you can. Hi to everyone else also

@Myshitisreal I’m really struggling and only been here 3 hours

Having a panic attack and can’t calm down :-( counting down till I can go home already!

Awk thats so awful. My doctor told me to do something I can count during panic attacks, the Counting helps distract the brain apparently. Doesn't matter what it is. Wish I had some words to help.

You said before that taking your prescribed dose of propranolol on an ongoing basis helps. Obviously I can't give medical advice but are you taking your prescribed meds safely (at the prescribed dose) and regularly?? X